Oh Darlin, This Isnt Love.

5/24/20

The moment I cried while you fucked me was when I really could admit you broke my fucking heart. That’s all I think about while kissing you and even listening to you. I don’t know if I’m even attracted anymore. All the fucking lies, I hate it. I hate you. I don’t know how to feel good enough, and that was already hard enough without you. You make everything worse for me and even if I thought we were getting better, we weren’t. You were lying the whole time. None of it matters to you, not that I trusted you and your probably going to do it again. It didn’t matter you were my home and I did so much to try and make you happy, when you never really care if I’m happy. Up until now. I don’t matter though, even if you try to convince me. I know that I’m truly and forever fucking worthless to you.

Basically