To love me is to suffer me!

Standing up, you gave her a quick look through the railing, then started walking toward the other side of the massive converted warehouse space the bakery occupied. Jesus, since when does this place have all these stairs? you thought, but then, where does an almond croissant worth six dollars and your entire morning routine live if not up here, in this warm upstairs spot where at least the light was good and nobody could see you doing nothing instead of just another rich kid with absent parents and too much empty space in a penthouse you didn't earn.

Once you were on the main floor, you were literally skipping through the busy desks, trying to ignore the loudness of the espresso machines and the too-cheerful morning people who actually talked to each other before noon. You went to the counter where your order was supposed to be waiting.

It was not there.

Your gaze went to the baristas, and they had such a tired, thousand-yard stare that you decided not to burden them. In New York this stuff happened more often than anyone would like to admit-orders lost, names butchered, existential crises unfolding over oat milk availability-so with a deep breath you decided to make the line again and order.

Until.

A redhead with a heavy wool cloak passed right by you, shoulders touching, looking down at something in her hands. You saw her holding the exact same thing you ordered: a ceramic mug with the little heart the older lady at the counter drew for you every morning. She looked carefree about the world, moving through the crowd like she existed on a slightly different frequency than everyone else, like the noise and hurry of Manhattan couldn't quite touch her.

At first, you were going to shrug it off. It was just coffee. You could order again. But then you remembered your therapist's words from last Tuesday: "You need to start standing up for yourself. Your boundaries matter. Your needs matter."

Walking toward her with shaky hands, you tapped her shoulder. "Excuse me, I think that's my order."

"Hm," she mumbled without looking at you, her eyes stuck in the newspaper she was holding. Your coffee and croissant sat untouched and forgotten on the small table beside her, as if she'd picked them up by accident and immediately lost interest.

"I said-"

"No. I heard you." She still didn't look up. "I just don't understand. I don't work here."

Is this girl serious? You scoffed, looking around, ready to just leave and come back tomorrow, maybe try a different bakery altogether. But not without throwing a death stare to the thief. When you looked back at her, though, she was already staring at you.

But those eyes made your mean attitude drop instantly. They were green, like a clover that you were lucky to find in an empty field, and she looked truly confused and closed off, like she was stuck somewhere else entirely. She gave you a small nod, waiting for you to say something else, to explain what was happening in a way that made sense to her.

"Sara!" the lady at the counter called out, looking at the freckled face of the redhead with a sweet, familiar smile.

The girl's green eyes moved around, scanning the room, and her brows furrowed deeply. She clearly did not understand why her name was being called, why this stranger was smiling at her with such warmth.

You looked at the counter and saw another cup with a bag, pretty similar to what was on her table. Your heart broke a little. This girl was clearly not from here-maybe not from anywhere near here-and she might come from a dark place, somewhere she didn't understand the basics of a coffee place.

"That's yours," you whispered softly, pointing to the counter.

She left the chair quickly, clearly embarrassed, her cloak swirling around her, and went to retrieve the correct order. You saw her piece of newspaper as she stood-decided to take a peek at it: SPIDER-MAN SAVED A BUILDING FROM BURNING DOWN LAST NIGHT! Every time you heard about the insect guy, swinging through your city in that ridiculous costume, you just wondered who he was under the mask. Someone normal, probably. Someone who'd made a choice to be visible, to be seen. You couldn't imagine the loneliness of that, or the freedom.

"I'm really sorry about that," the redhead interrupted your thoughts with a trembling voice, back at her table now, clutching the correct coffee like a lifeline. "I didn't-I wasn't trying to-I don't understand how this works. Any of it."

"Don't worry about it. I can tell you're not from here." You smiled, trying to make it gentle, non-threatening. You grabbed your stuff and headed to the exit.

Almost headed.

"Wait!"

You turned to the girl quicker and stronger than you would have liked, your body reacting before your mind could catch up. You were overwhelmed with the situation and very hungry, your blood sugar crashing, your hands still a little shaky and cold from the confrontation that wasn't a confrontation.

"Where are you heading?" she asked very bluntly, like she'd never learned the social choreography of small talk, of easing into requests.

"I don't know. Maybe Central Park to eat. This place got too loud." You shifted your backpack, the weight of your camera attached to it pulling at your shoulder. "Take some pictures, you know. For school. I'm a film student."

That was surprising, even to you. You had no idea why you were that laid back with a woman you'd just accused of stealing your breakfast. She just felt safe, somehow. Like being near her was like stepping into a slightly warmer pocket of air, a place where the static of the city dimmed.

"Can I keep you company?" She asked it like she was testing the words, feeling their shape in her mouth. "Maybe buy you some more coffee. You know. As an apology. For the confusion."

And it's crazy how your instinct was correct.

By the time you made it to Central Park, the October light was doing that golden thing it does in late afternoon, turning everything into a movie set. You found a bench near the lake, and she sat close enough that her stupid overly big brushed your thigh, close enough that you could feel her skin, see the freckles all around her body

She told you her name was Sara. She told you she was twenty-one, two years older than you. She told you she was staying in a shelter downtown, that she had some money saved but not much, that she was trying to figure out how to exist in a world that felt increasingly hostile and complicated.

You told her about your thesis, about your parents who were never home, about the penthouse that felt like a museum of your loneliness. You told her things you hadn't told your therapist in six months of weekly sessions.

When your phone buzzed with a text from your mother-Dinner next month? I'll have my assistant send the reservation-you ignored it. When Sara's hand found yours on the bench between you, her fingers long and warm and slightly calloused, you didn't pull away.

"Your eyes," she said quietly, not looking at you, looking at the ducks on the water. "I still know them. From somewhere. I don't know where. But I know them."

You didn't understand what she meant. You didn't need to.

That night, you brought her home.

Not for anything romantic, you told yourself. Just-she had nowhere to go, and you had too much space, and there was something about her that made you want to be generous in a way you'd never been before. You gave her the guest room with its own bathroom, its view of the city lights. You gave her one of your father's old shirts to sleep in, watching the way the fabric dwarfed her, made her look small and breakable.

She stood in your kitchen at midnight, staring at your espresso machine like it might attack her.

"I don't know how any of this works," she admitted, not turning around. "The world you live in. It's so loud. So full of things that beep and flash and demand attention."

You showed her how to work the machine. You showed her how to use the shower, the thermostat, and the TV with its seventeen streaming services. She watched you with those green eyes, absorbing everything, and you felt seen in a way that made your chest tight.

When you said goodnight, standing in the hallway between your respective bedrooms, she caught your wrist. Her touch sent something warm crawling up your arm, into your shoulder, settling at the base of your skull like a cat making itself comfortable.

"Thank you," she said. "For not being afraid of me."

"I'm not afraid of you," you said, and you meant it, even though some part of you whispered that you should be.

It took two weeks for her to tell you the truth.

You were laying on the marbled floor of your living room, sharing a blunt you'd rolled with shaky hands, the city spread out below you through the floor-to-ceiling windows. The October rain was making everything blurry and beautiful, and you were talking about your thesis again, about how you wanted to make films that made people feel less alone.

"I need to tell you something," Sara said. She was staring at the ceiling, her red hair fanned out around her head like a halo. "My name isn't Sara. It's Jean. And people are looking for me. People who want to take me away again, lock me up, study me. Because I can do things. Things that aren't possible."

You turned your head to look at her. She looked serious, her jaw tight, her hands fidgeting with the hem of your father's shirt-she was still wearing it, had been wearing it every day, and you'd started thinking of it as hers.

"What kind of things?" you asked, not really believing her, wondering if this was some kind of delusion, some mental health crisis you weren't equipped to handle.

"I can move things with my mind. I can hear thoughts, sometimes, if I'm trying. I can..." She hesitated, her voice dropping to a whisper. "I can make people feel things. Change how they feel. It's not always on purpose. It's just-when I'm near someone, when I care about them, my mind reaches out. Like it wants to merge with theirs."

You laughed. You couldn't help it. It sounded insane, like something out of one of the superhero movies you analyzed in your film theory classes. "I don't believe shit of what you just said."

Jean didn't wait for your answer.

The ambient hum of the penthouse-the distant traffic, the low drone of the central air, the refrigerator's mechanical breathing-simply ceased. It was replaced by a heavy, magnetic warmth at the base of your skull, crawling softly into your thoughts like static on a silk blanket, like the feeling of falling backward into water and trusting someone to catch you.

On the marble coffee table, your heavy ceramic mug began to rattle. Slowly, deliberately, it lifted six inches into the air, hovering weightlessly, turning slowly so you could see that it was real, that there were no strings, no tricks.

Your breath hitched, but you weren't looking at the cup.

You were looking at her.

Her green eyes burned with an impossible, vibrant light that seemed to draw all the ambient color from the room directly into her, like she was a black hole for ordinary reality. Jean leaned forward, her warm palm cupping the side of your neck, and pulled you in.

The first kiss was electric, frantic, and desperate. Your hands tangled in her red hair, pulling her flush against you on the cold floor, the boundaries of your own consciousness smudging at the edges like wet paint. She tasted like cheap diner coffee and adrenaline and something sweeter underneath, something that made you think of summer fields and safety, and you couldn't get enough, your hands exploring, gripping, claiming.

And so it goes that, you thought dizzily, feeling her lips trail down your jaw, rough and perfect, she kissed your neck, made your paths intersect, 'til the two lines formed a circle.

She bit gently at your collarbone, and you gasped, arching into her, the telekinetic energy still humming in the air around you making your hair stand on end, making every touch feel amplified, like you were feeling it with more than just your skin.

You didn't know if it was the adrenaline, the high or her strength but in a blink of an eye: she lifted you easily, hands sliding beneath your thighs to gather you close, and settled you into her lap. Your legs wrapped around her waist instinctively, ankles locking at the small of her back as she pulled you flush against her. The heat of her through thin fabric, the solid press of her stomach between your thighs, the way her palms spread wide to cradle your hips and keep you there, just enough to let you feel her, the deliberate control as she held you exactly where she wanted.

You stumbled together toward the dark hallway, bodies tangled, her mouth still hungry on your throat, your pulse hammering beneath her lips. The heavy, intoxicating purple of the space swirled around you, swallowing the last edges of your restraint.

Jean's hands dropped to the backs of your thighs and tightened. "Got you," she murmured against your ear, and then she was lifting, hoisting you up with a soft grunt of effort that sent a thrill straight through your stomach.

"Jean-!" you gasped, legs scrambling to wrap around her solid waist, fingers clutching at her shoulders. "You can't-I'm too-"

"You're perfect," she cut you off, already walking, each step bouncing you slightly, pressing you closer against her. You felt the strength in her arms, the deliberate way she held you, like you weighed nothing, like she could carry you forever. She nudged the bedroom door with her hip, and it clicked shut behind you, sealing you both into the dark.

She laid you down on the bed like you were something precious, something breakable. The purple followed you in, thick as smoke, curling around the edges of your vision until the room felt smaller, safer, like a secret only the two of you shared. Jean crawled over you, her hair falling like a curtain, blocking out everything else.

"Tell me to stop," she whispered, her fingers tracing the waistband of your jeans, teasing, testing. "Tell me to stop and I will."

You didn't. You couldn't. The words wouldn't even form in your mouth, not with her looking at you like that, like you were the only thing in the world worth having.

She took her time. She always did. Every touch was a claim, every kiss a brand. You felt her in your mind as much as on your skin, that telepathic presence winding through your thoughts, amplifying every sensation until you couldn't tell where you ended and she began. 

When she finally pushed inside you, slow and deliberate, you cried out into her shoulder, and she caught the sound with her mouth, swallowing it whole.

The night dissolved into fragments: her hands pinning yours above your head, the heat of her mouth on your breast, the way she whispered your name like a prayer and a curse. You lost count of how many times she made you fall apart, each orgasm rolling into the next, building until you were sobbing, begging, please, Jean, please, I can't-

"You can," she promised, her voice rough, her hips never slowing. "You can for me. You will for me."

And you did. You always did.

Afterward, she held you while you trembled, her fingers drawing lazy patterns on your back, her mind a warm blanket wrapped around yours. You were dimly aware that you should be exhausted, that your body should hurt, but the purple hummed through your veins like a drug, keeping you floating, keeping you hers.

"Sleep," she murmured against your temple, and you felt the gentle push of her suggestion, the telepathic nudge that made your eyelids heavy. "I've got you. I'll always have you."

You believed her. In that moment, with her arms around you and her presence filling every corner of your mind, you would have believed anything she told you.

You didn't see her watching you in the dark, her green eyes troubled, her fingers tracing the fresh marks she'd left on your skin. You didn't feel the weight of her guilt, the part of her that knew this was wrong, that she was taking too much, giving too little back.

You just slept, dreamless and deep, wrapped in her purple and her warmth, never guessing how close the end really was.

By November, the sterile, empty penthouse had completely transformed into a fortress for two.

Now a toothbrush, a coat, and a pair of shoes all come in double. You found yourself writing it in your journal one morning, sitting at the kitchen island, watching the words take shape in your cramped handwriting. Looking up, you watched Jean sleeping softly on the velvet couch you'd bought specifically because she loved the texture, because she said it reminded her of something she couldn't quite name.

You used to spend your weekends out in the city, chasing gallery showings and photography gigs, trying to build a portfolio that might get you into a real film program, might justify the expensive education your parents were barely aware they were funding. You used to have ambitions, plans, a vision of your future that involved festivals and premieres and your name in small but respectable font on opening credits.

It's crazy, you thought, closing the leather-bound book with a soft thump. I had big dreams 'til I tied myself to you.

Now, the thought of leaving her alone in this glass box for even an hour made your chest tight with anxiety. You'd skip classes to stay home with her, making up excuses about food poisoning or family emergencies. You'd turned down three different internship opportunities because they would have required travel, time away, leaving her unprotected.

Because that's what she needed, you told yourself. Protection. She was a fugitive, a mutant, something the government or worse was hunting. She needed you to be her shield, her cover, her connection to a world she didn't understand.

You walked over and turned on the TV, keeping the volume low so as not to wake her. The news was covering another Spider-Man sighting-some bank robbery in Queens, the masked figure swinging through traffic with impossible grace. You wondered, not for the first time, if he had someone waiting for him too. If he went home to empty rooms and the weight of secrets.

Jean stirred, her eyes opening slowly, that familiar green focusing on you with an intensity that still made your stomach flip after two months.

"You're watching the news again," she murmured, her voice rough with sleep. "Looking for me?"

"Always," you said, and it came out softer than you intended, more honest.

She sat up, the blanket falling away, and you saw the tension in her shoulders, the way her jaw tightened when she was scanning for threats. She did this every morning, every time she woke-assessing, calculating, ready to run.

"Come here," you said, and she came, folding herself into your arms on the couch, her chin on the top of your head, her arm caressing your hip 

"I had a dream," she whispered. "They found me. They came through the windows, and I couldn't-I couldn't stop them. And you were there, and I hurt you. I hurt you trying to get away." You could feel her bruised tone as she hide her face on your shoulder leaving a kiss there 

You held her tighter, your hand stroking through her red hair, counting the freckles on her arm like you did when you couldn't sleep. "I'm not going anywhere. And neither are you."

She raised her head to look at you, and there was something in her eyes, something dark and desperate and hungry. "You don't understand. I'm not safe. The things I can do, the way I am-I'm a weapon. I'm a bomb waiting to go off. And you're standing right in the web of it

"Then I'll stand," you said, and you meant it, you meant it so completely that it terrified you.

Jean's hand came up to cup your face, her thumb tracing your cheekbone, and you felt that familiar warmth at the base of your skull, that magnetic pull that made your thoughts feel fuzzy, made your worries feel distant and unimportant.

"Let me in," she whispered, and you did, you always did, opening yourself to her like a flower to the sun, and you couldn't tell anymore where you ended and she began.

The fight started over something stupid.

You'd gone out for groceries-just a quick trip to the local store you'd started frequenting, the one where the cashier knew your name and asked about your "roommate" with a knowing smile. You'd been gone forty minutes, maybe forty-five, and when you came back, Jean was pacing the living room like a caged animal, her eyes wild, her hands shaking.

"Where were you?" she demanded, her voice too loud, too sharp. "I couldn't feel you. I reached out and you were just-gone. Do you know what that's like? Do you know what it does to me?"

"I went to the store, Jean. I bought milk. I texted you." You held up the bag, proof of your mundane betrayal.

"I don't care about the fucking milk!" She turned, and the coffee table lifted six inches off the ground, magazines and remote controls sliding to the floor. "You can't just disappear like that. You can't just leave me here, wondering if they got you, if they found me through you, if you're"

"I'm not your prisoner," you said quietly, and the words landed between you like a stone in still water.

Jean went still. The coffee table crashed back down, one leg cracking, ceramic coasters shattering against the marble. She stared at the damage, at the physical evidence of her instability, and something in her face crumpled.

"I'm sorry," she whispered. "I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I just-I can't lose you. You're the only thing that's real to me anymore. The only thing that makes the noise stop."

You wanted to be angry. You wanted to yell about boundaries and trust and how her fear was suffocating you, how you'd given up everything-your dreams, your independence, your entire life-and it was never enough. But then you saw her hands, how they were trembling, how she was hugging herself like she might fly apart if she didn't hold on tight.

"I know," you said, and your voice came out gentler than you felt. "I know, Jean. But you have to let me breathe. You have to trust that I'll come back."

She crossed the distance between you in three quick steps, burying her face in your neck, her arms wrapping around you with a desperation that made your ribs ache. "I do trust you. I don't trust the world. I don't trust what they'll do to get to me. To get to you through me."

You held her, feeling the telekinetic energy crackling under her skin, unstable and frightened and dangerous. The cracked coffee table, the shattered coasters - this was what she meant when she said she was a bomb. This was what it looked like when she lost control.

That night, you made love with a ferocity that felt like desperation, like you were both trying to crawl inside each other and hide. Jean's mouth mapped every inch of you, her hands claiming, memorizing, as if she could brand you into permanence through touch alone. When she finally slid into you, she did it slowly, watching your face, her green eyes dark and endless.

"Let me in," she whispered, and you knew she didn't just mean your body. You opened your mind to her, felt her presence flood through you like warm water, filling every empty space, every lonely corner you'd kept hidden. She saw everything: your fear, your doubt, the way you loved her so much it terrified you. And she showed you herself in return, her own vulnerability, her own desperate need to be chosen, to be enough.

The pleasure built like a wave, doubled and tripled by the connection between you, until you couldn't tell where your sensations ended and hers began. When you came, it was together, her name breaking from your lips as her thoughts tangled with yours in a wordless cry of release.

Afterward, she didn't pull away. She gathered you against her chest, her arms wrapping around you like she could shield you from everything, even your own doubts. Her fingers traced slow, reverent patterns on your bare back, circles and spirals that seemed to draw the tension out of your muscles one stroke at a time. She pressed her lips to your shoulder, your collarbone, the hollow of your throat, each kiss a benediction.

You felt that familiar warmth at the base of your skull, that magnetic pull that made everything feel soft and far away. But this time, she was careful. You could feel her holding back, keeping her presence gentle, a whisper rather than a shout.

"Is this real?" you whispered into the dark, not sure if you were asking her or yourself.

Jean went still against you, her hand pausing mid-stroke on your spine. "What do you mean?"

"This. Us. The way I feel when I'm with you." You turned to face her, searching her eyes in the dim light filtering through the curtains. "Sometimes I can't tell if I'm actually this happy, or if you're... making me this happy. If you're in my head, making me feel what you want me to feel."

Her face crumpled, genuine hurt flashing across her features. "I would never-"

"I know you wouldn't mean to." You touched her cheek, feeling the tension there, the fear. "But you said it yourself. When you care about someone, your mind reaches out. It wants to merge." Your thumb traced the line of her jaw, trying to soothe even as you spoke the hard words. "I just need to know that what I feel is mine. That I'm choosing this. Choosing you."

She was quiet for a long moment, her green eyes luminous with unshed tears. Then she reached for you again, her hands finding yours, intertwining your fingers. She brought your joined hands to her chest, pressing them flat over her racing heart.

"Feel that," she said, her voice rough. "That's yours. That's real. No powers, no mind control, just... me. Wanting you so much it physically hurts."

She rolled toward you, fitting her body against yours, thigh sliding between your legs, her free hand coming up to cradle the back of your head. She held you like that, close enough that you could feel every breath she took, every tremor running through her.

"I can't promise I'm not affecting you," she admitted, her forehead resting against yours. "I can't promise that my presence doesn't change how you feel, how you think. But I can promise that I try, every second of every day, to let you be yourself. To let you choose." Her thumb stroked slow arcs against your scalp, gentle, grounding. "This is real. I'm real. And I love you, whatever that means, however it happens, I love you."

You wanted to believe her. You did believe her, mostly. But that tiny, dying voice in the back of your head whispered: Is she actually calming you down, or is she rewriting your brain so you won't leave her?

She felt the shift in you, the tension returning. Her arms tightened, pulling you impossibly closer, your own leg coming up hooking over her hip to cage yourself  in warmth and weight. She buried her face in your neck, breathing you in, and you felt the deliberate pull of her mind retreating, giving you space, respecting your boundaries even as her body refused to let go.

"I'm here," she whispered against your skin. "Just me. Just us."

You couldn't tell anymore if the peace flooding through you was hers or your own. And as she pressed closer, her heart beating steady and fast against your chest, you realized you were too far gone to care.

December brought a cold that settled into your bones and wouldn't leave.

And we fight over who I'm hanging out with, like a real couple. You wrote it in your journal, the words bitter and self-aware, watching Jean pace the kitchen while you tried to explain that yes, you were having coffee with your classmate Marcus, and no, it wasn't a date, and yes, you understood her concern but she couldn't keep isolating you from everyone you'd ever known.

"He's just a friend," you said for what felt like the hundredth time. "We have a group project. We have to meet."

Jean slammed her palm against the counter, and every cabinet door in the kitchen swung open with a violent crack, dishes rattling, glasses threatening to shatter. "I don't trust him. I don't trust anyone who looks at you the way he does."

"Jean-"

"Don't." Her voice was low, dangerous, her eyes glowing with that impossible light. "Don't defend him. Don't defend anyone. They don't know you. They don't know what you need."

"And you do?" The words came out sharper than you intended, and you saw her flinch like you'd struck her. "You think you know what I need? Jean, I need my life back. I need friends and school and a future that isn't just... this." You gestured around the penthouse, at the gilded cage you'd built together, at the windows that showed you a world you no longer participated in.

She went very still, very quiet. When she spoke, her voice was barely audible. "You want to leave me."

"No." You crossed to her, taking her hands, feeling the energy there, volatile and wounded. "I want to have both. I want you, and I want a life. Is that so wrong?"

Jean looked at you for a long moment, her green eyes searching yours with an intensity that made you want to look away, to hide. Then she pulled you close, her lips finding yours with a hunger that bordered on violence, her hands gripping your hips hard enough to bruise.

"Mine," she whispered against your mouth, and you felt that warmth at the base of your skull, stronger than usual, insistent and claiming. "You're mine. Say it."

"I'm yours," you breathed, and you didn't know if you were saying it because you meant it or because she needed to hear it, because the warmth in your head made disagreement feel impossible, unthinkable.

She kissed you then, deep and consuming, and you let her, let her push you back against the counter, let her hands roam with possessive desperation. Somewhere in the back of your mind, you wondered if this was love or compulsion, if the line between them had ever existed at all.

It happened three days before Christmas.

You'd gone out alone - insisted on it, actually stood your ground for once - to buy Jean a gift, something small and meaningful, a vintage camera you'd found in a shop in the Village that reminded you of the ones she described from her childhood, before everything went wrong. You were walking back, the camera safe in your bag, your mind drifting through possible wrapping papers, when you felt the hand on your shoulder.

"Excuse me, miss." The voice was polite, professional, and when you turned, you saw a man in a dark coat, his face pleasant and forgettable. "We're looking for someone. A redhead, about this tall, green eyes. Might be going by Sara, or Jean. We have reason to believe she's dangerous. Have you seen her?"

Your blood turned to ice. You opened your mouth to say no, to play dumb, to do any of the things you'd rehearsed in your head a hundred times, but then you saw the second man, emerging from a doorway across the street, and the third, watching from a parked car, and you knew they'd already found you, already knew.

"I-"

"Don't lie," the first man said, his voice still friendly, his eyes cold and assessing. "We know she's staying with you. We know about the penthouse, the parents who are never home, the convenient little hideaway you've provided. You're not in trouble, miss. Not yet. Just tell us where she is, and we'll handle the rest."

Your mind raced, panic making your thoughts scatter like startled birds. Jean had warned you about this, drilled you on what to do if they found you - run, don't talk, don't lead them back to her - but your feet felt frozen to the sidewalk, your tongue thick and useless in your mouth.

"Hey!" The shout came from behind you, familiar and furious, and then Jean was there, moving faster than should be possible, her red hair wild in the winter wind, her eyes blazing with that terrifying, beautiful light. "Get away from her."

The men reached for weapons - tasers, guns, you couldn't tell - but Jean didn't give them the chance. She raised her hands, and the air itself seemed to scream, a telekinetic wave of force that lifted all three men off their feet, sent them crashing into walls and cars and streetlamps with sickening thuds.

You stumbled back, your heart hammering against your ribs, your breath coming in shallow gasps. "Jean-"

She didn't hear you. She was advancing on the men, her hands still raised, her face a mask of fury and terror, and you saw the streetlamp above one of them begin to bend, to twist, metal screaming as she prepared to bring it down.

"Jean, stop!" You grabbed her arm, felt the energy there, wild and uncontrolled, burning hot against your palm. "You'll kill them!"

She turned to look at you, and for a moment, you didn't recognize her. Her eyes were pure light, her expression empty of everything but survival instinct, the need to protect what was hers at any cost.

"They were going to take me," she said, her voice strange and echoing, not entirely human. "They were going to hurt you. I can't let them. I won't."

"I know, but this- this isn't you. Please, Jean, come back to me."

Something in your voice reached her. The light in her eyes dimmed, flickered, and she looked around at the destruction she'd caused, at the men lying motionless on the pavement, at the bent streetlamp and the shattered car windows. Her hands dropped to her sides, and she began to shake.

"Oh god," she whispered. "Oh god, oh god, I didn't- I couldn't-"

You pulled her close, feeling her trembling against you, feeling the aftermath of her power still crackling in the air like static. Sirens wailed in the distance, approaching fast, and you knew you had to move, had to get her out of here before more came, before they saw what she'd done.

"Come on," you said, tugging her toward the alley, toward the back streets you knew from late-night walks. "We have to run."

The argument started the moment you got back to the penthouse, adrenaline still coursing through your veins, your hands shaking so badly you could barely lock the door behind you.

"You could have killed them," you said, your voice too loud, too raw. "You would have killed them if I hadn't stopped you. Do you understand that? Do you understand what that means?"

Jean was pacing again, her movements jerky and uncontrolled, her eyes darting to every window, every shadow. "They were going to take me. They were going to use me, experiment on me, lock me in a cage for the rest of my life. And they were going to hurt you. Don't you understand? You are the only thing that matters to me. The only thing."

"That's not an excuse!" You threw your hands up, frustration and fear making you reckless. "You don't get to decide who lives and dies because you're scared. You don't get to be judge and jury just because you have power. That's not protection, Jean. That's murder."

She stopped pacing, her whole body going rigid. When she turned to you, her eyes were glowing again, dangerous and wounded. "You think I'm a monster."

"I think you're dangerous. I think you lost control, and people almost died. I think-" You hesitated, the words sticking in your throat, but you forced them out anyway. "I think maybe you're right. Maybe you are a bomb, and maybe I'm stupid for standing right in the middle."

The air in the room went very still. Jean stared at you, her face pale, her lips parted like you'd slapped her. Then, slowly, the glow in her eyes faded, replaced by something worse - resignation, grief, a terrible acceptance.

"You're right," she whispered. "I am dangerous. I am a monster. And I've been selfish, keeping you here, letting you think this could work." She laughed, a broken, ugly sound. "You had big dreams, didn't you? Film school, festivals, a real life. And I tied you to me, made you give it all up for this. For me."

"Jean-"

"No." She held up her hand, and you felt that warmth at the base of your skull, but different this time - not comforting, not claiming, but sad, so infinitely sad, like a goodbye. "I need you to know something. What I feel for you - it's real. Whatever else I've done, whatever I've made you feel, this is real. I love you. I've loved you since that first morning in the bakery, when you looked at me like I was a person and not a weapon."

She stepped closer, her hand coming up to cup your cheek, her thumb tracing your jaw with heartbreaking gentleness. "But I can't do this anymore. I can't risk you. I can't be the reason you don't have a life, a future, everything you deserve."

"Jean, don't-"

She kissed your forehead, soft and lingering, and you felt tears on her cheeks, wet and warm against your skin. "I'm sorry," she whispered. "I'm so sorry. But this is the only way I can protect you. The only way I can love you."

The warmth at the base of your skull intensified, spreading through your thoughts like ink in water, and you realized what she was doing too late, felt your memories of her beginning to blur, to fade, to dissolve like sugar in rain.

"No," you gasped, trying to hold on, trying to fight, but she was too strong, too determined, and you were too tired, too broken, too in love to resist. "Jean, please, don't-"

She stepped back, her green eyes luminous with tears, her face the last thing you saw before the purple turned to black.

Melt with you 'til it all turns black.

She tried really hard to not get in that specific part of your brain but she was not strong enough for it.

And then, as she pushed deeper, an echo of your own voice bounced back to her, a memory of a lazy Sunday morning, tangled in these very sheets, sunlight streaming through the curtains.

You'd been draped over her like a blanket, your face buried in her neck, your legs tangled with hers. Every time she'd tried to shift, you'd tightened your grip and made a small, protesting noise. She'd laughed, that rare, unguarded sound, and stroked your hair until you'd finally lifted your head, bleary and half-asleep, your eyes soft with affection.

"You're ridiculous," she'd said, but her voice had been full of something tender, something that made her chest ache.

You'd nuzzled closer, pressing clumsy kisses to her jaw, her cheek, the corner of her mouth. "Don't care. Stay here. Melt with me."

She'd gone still then, her hand pausing where it had been tracing lazy circles on your back. "What did you say?"

"Melt with me," you'd mumbled against her shoulder, too sleepy to be embarrassed, too content to care how vulnerable you sounded. "Till it all turns black. Just... stay. Please."

She'd held you so tightly after that, her face hidden in your hair, her breathing uneven. She'd felt the wetness against her scalp and realized, dimly, that she was crying. But she hadn't let you see, hadn't let you pull back. She'd just held on, rocking you slightly, whispering "okay" and "I'm here" and "I'm not going anywhere" until you'd drifted back to sleep in her arms.

Now, with her fingers trembling, she heard it again, that sleepy voice, that impossible trust. Melt with me. Till it all turns black..

The words echoed in the emptiness where your thoughts used to be, the only thing Jean could hear as she stood in the penthouse that no longer felt like home, looking at you where you sat on the couch, your expression blank and confused, your eyes dry and empty.

You didn't know her. You didn't know why you were crying, why your chest felt like it had been hollowed out with a spoon, why there was a vintage camera on the coffee table that you didn't remember buying.

Melt with you 'til it all turns black.

She'd left you everything - your name, your school, your parents' phone numbers. She'd left you the penthouse, the life you'd had, the dreams you’d  bury.

Everything but herself. 

She'd taken only the memories of her, the love you'd shared, the purple world you'd built together.

Are we so in love? Are we too attached?

Seeing those thoughts in the back of your mind made her realize (more like accept what was buried deep between both of you) She didn't know anymore. She didn't know if what you'd felt was real or manufactured, if her presence in your mind had been love or control, if the codependency that had consumed you both was passion or poison.

Melt with you 'til it all turns black.

She leaned down, pressing one last kiss to your forehead, feeling the familiar warmth of your skin, the life she'd almost destroyed with her need. "Thank you," she whispered, though you couldn't hear her, wouldn't remember her, would live the rest of your life not knowing why you sometimes woke with the taste of cheap diner coffee on your tongue, why you flinched at red hair in crowds, why you wrote the word purple in your journal over and over without understanding why.

When you get so close and you can't go back.

She straightened, pulling her heavy wool cloak around her shoulders, and walked toward the door. Behind her, you stirred, your brow furrowing, a single word escaping your lips like a prayer or a curse: "Jean?"

She paused, her hand on the doorknob, her heart shattering in her chest. But she didn't turn around. She couldn't. If she looked at you one more time, she would stay, would crawl back into your mind and your bed and your life, would keep being the bomb that destroyed everything you could have been.

Melt with you 'til it just feels sad.

She opened the door and stepped out into the cold December night, leaving you to the silence, to the emptiness, to the life she'd given back to you at the cost of everything they'd been.

The door clicked shut behind her.

And somewhere in the dark, in the space where memories used to live, you reached for a pen and wrote words you didn't understand, in a voice that wasn't quite your own:

I see the world in purple, purple.

The page stared back at you, blank and waiting, and outside, the city hummed on, indifferent and alive, while a red-haired girl disappeared into the crowd, carrying your love like a wound that would never heal, that she would never let herself forget, even if you already had.

Melt with you 'til it all turns black.

The last thing Jean heard, walking away, was your voice in her mind - the echo of something you'd said once, in the dark, when you thought she was sleeping: Don't ever leave me. I'd rather be purple with you than anything else without you.

She kept walking.

The city swallowed her whole.

And somewhere, in a penthouse full of ghosts, you stared at the word purple on the page, feeling like you'd lost something you couldn't name, someone you couldn't remember, a love that had burned so bright it had left nothing but ash and the faint, lingering warmth of a touch that might have been real, or might have been the last beautiful lie of a girl who loved you enough to let you go.

I see the world in purple, purple.

You closed the journal.

You closed your eyes.

And for just a moment, before the darkness took you, you saw it - a flash of green eyes, a taste of coffee and red hair, the ghost of a kiss on your neck that made two lines form a circle, that made the whole broken world make sense.

Then it was gone.

And you were alone.

AUTHOR SPEAKS: HELLO GUYS I AM BACK, also changed my layout what do y'all think, okay so I'm more in love with Sadie than ever so I think I'm gonna cook a lot still please please please send jean/max/sadie or even ellie sarsfield if anyone is interested on that lmao requests just read my rules and have fun, btw because Sadie is trending again as she should cause jean was genuinely so hot and I was drooling at the theatre cause jean was literally my gay awakening, my posts are kinda getting attention again so I want to thank you all for that <33333

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The car is parked behind the old video store, squeezed between overflowing dumpsters and the kind of deep shadows no one ever bothers to check. , but Max’s hands are already high on your thighs, fingers digging in just enough to make everything else disappear.

“Come here,” she rasps, voice low and wrecked, and you’re already moving—climbing over the center console with the same clumsy, practiced grace you’ve honed over months of this. Parking lots, alleyways, the back row of empty theaters—anywhere dark enough and desperate enough to steal a piece of each other.

You straddle her lap, knees bracketing her hips, skirt riding up instantly. Max’s palms slide to your waist, thumbs brushing bare skin where your shirt’s bunched, then drop right back to your thighs like she can’t decide where she wants to touch you most. Her grip is firm, possessive, spreading your legs a little wider so you settle fully against her.

“Hi,” you whisper, already breathless.

“Hi, baby.” That crooked grin flashes, the one that still turns your brain to static, and then she’s kissing you—slow, filthy, tongue sliding against yours like she’s trying to taste every second you’ve been apart.

The first grind of your hips makes her groan into your mouth. You’re wearing the tiny black skirt she’s obsessed with—the one that barely covers the tops of your thighs when you stand, and now it’s nothing but a wrinkled band around your waist. Her fingers trace the hem, then slip underneath, stroking the sensitive skin right at the crease of your thigh.

“This fucking skirt,” Max mutters against your lips, voice gravel-rough. “You put this on knowing exactly what it does to me.”

“Guilty,” you admit, rolling your hips down hard, dragging your clothed cunt along the rough denim of her jeans. The friction is immediate, delicious, heat is blooming fast between your legs.

“Fuck.” Her head tips back against the seat for a second, throat working. Then her hands clamp down on your ass, guiding you into another slow, deliberate grind. “You’re already so wet I can feel it through my jeans.”

You whimper, rolling again, chasing more of that pressure. “We’re in a parking lot.”

“Empty parking lot,” she counters, eyes dark and hungry. “Windows are tinted. And they’re already fogging up.”

She’s right—the glass is turning darker, your combined breathing and body heat erasing everything else.  All that’s left is the smell of her vanilla air freshener, the faint coconut of her hair, and the slick sound of your hips working against her.

“Someone could drive by,” you say, even as you rock faster, skirt shoved up around your hips now, panties soaked and clinging and you letting little whimpers out.

“Then we stop.” Max’s hands slide higher, thumbs brushing the damp cotton between your legs. “But right now I want to feel how fucking soaked you are for me.”

You nod, hips stuttering. “Touch me.”

She doesn’t tease. Two fingers hook your panties to the side, exposing you completely, and then she’s stroking—slow, firm circles over your clit that make your thighs shake. You’re dripping, slick coating her fingers almost instantly, and she groans like it’s the best thing she’s ever felt.

“Jesus, baby,” she breathes, sliding one finger inside you, then two, curling them just right. “So tight. So fucking wet.”

You moan into her neck, teeth grazing that spot below her jaw that always makes her hips jerk. She’s pumping slowly, thumb still working your clit in tight circles, matching the rhythm of your grinding. The car rocks gently with every roll of your hips; the windows are completely fogged now, a private little world of heat and wet sounds.

“I missed you,” you gasp against her skin, rocking harder around her hand. “Three days was torture.”

“I know.” Her free hand grips your hip, noticing your desperation and helping you ride her fingers harder. “Missed this pussy. Missed the way you clench around me when you’re close.”

You’re moving faster, less graceful, chasing the edge. Your nails dig into her shoulders; her fingers curl deeper, stroking that spot inside that makes your vision blur.

“Max—fuck—I’m gonna—”

“I’ve got you,” she promises, voice shredded. “Come on, my fingers, baby. Let me feel it.”

One more hard grind, one more perfect curl of her fingers, and you shatter—clenching hard around her, thighs trembling, biting down on her shoulder to muffle the broken cry that rips out of you. Pleasure crashes through you in sharp, shuddering waves; Max works you through every pulse, murmuring soft, filthy praise against your temple.

“Good girl. That’s it. So fucking pretty when you come for me.”

You collapse against her, panting, face buried in her neck. Her fingers stay inside you for a moment longer, gentle now, letting you flutter around them until the aftershocks fade. Then she eases out, slick fingers trailing up to rest on your hip, leaving a wet streak on your skin.

“Holy shit,” you manage eventually.

Max laughs, low and satisfied, the sound rumbling through both of you. “Yeah.”

You stay tangled like that, breathing each other in, her hand rubbing slow circles on your back. A car passes somewhere on the main road; headlights sweep past but don’t turn in. You’re still hidden. Still safe.

“We really should find better spots,” you mumble into her neck, completely wrecked by your girlfriend.

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Waiting.

"You're pathetic," Mike Wheeler said from where he was restocking waffle cones, not even bothering to look up. "She's not even here yet and you're already doing that weird hovering thing."

"I'm not hovering. I'm working," Max shot back, but her eyes hadn't left the mall entrance visible through the shop's windows.

"Right. And I'm not exhausted from listening to you talk about her perfect smile for the millionth time."

Max threw a damp rag at him, which he dodged easily. At Eighteen, Mike had gotten tall and gangly, all sharp elbows and sarcastic commentary. Working at Scoops together had been Will's idea—"It'll be fun!" he'd said. Will Byers, sweet, optimistic Will, who definitely hadn't accounted for the fact that Max would spend the entire summer pining over a girl who came in every Tuesday and Thursday at 2:47 PM like clockwork.

"You know what your problem is, Wheeler?" Max said, abandoning all pretense of working and leaning against the counter.

"I'm sure you're going to tell me."

"You don't understand romance."

Mike snorted. "I understand it fine. I'm just not watching it in your slow-motion torture long game shit."

The bell above the door chimed, and Max's entire body went rigid. Mike watched with barely concealed amusement as his coworker's face transformed—eyes widening, cheeks flushing pink beneath her freckles, that goofy smile spreading across her face like sunrise.

You walked in wearing a pink sundress, your hair catching the fluorescent lights of the mall. Max was pretty sure her heart actually stopped beating for a second.

"Hi, Max!" you called out, that bright, genuine smile that made Max forget how to form coherent sentences.

"Hey! Hi. Hello." Max cleared her throat, trying desperately to sound normal and failing spectacularly. "The usual?"

"You know me so well," you said with a laugh that made Max's insides turn to strawberry soft-serve. "Though maybe I should branch out? What do you recommend?"

This was it. This was Max's moment. She leaned forward on the counter, trying for casual and cool. "Well, the chocolate cherry chip is really good. Sweet, with a little surprise in every bite. Kind of like..." she paused meaningfully, holding your gaze, "...someone I know."

Mike made a choking sound from behind the waffle cone display.

"Oh, that's so sweet of you!" you beamed, completely missing the way Max's eyes were practically boring into yours. "You always give the best recommendations. You're like, the ice cream expert."

"Yeah," Max said weakly. "Ice cream expert. That's me."

"I'll take a double scoop of the chocolate cherry chip then. You really are the best, Max."

As Max scooped your ice cream—taking extra care to make it perfect, to pile it high and add extra cherry chunks the way she'd learned you liked—Mike appeared at her elbow.

"Smooth," he whispered. "Real smooth."

"Shut up," Max hissed back, but her hands were shaking slightly as she handed over the cone.

Your fingers brushed hers during the exchange, and Max swore she saw stars. "Thanks! Oh, and Max? I love that you're wearing your hair down today. It looks really pretty."

Max touched her hair self-consciously, her face now the color of the maraschino cherries. "Oh. Thanks. I, uh... I thought you might like it."

"Well, I do!" You handed over the money—exact change, plus a generous tip like always—and gave a little wave. "See you Thursday!"

Max watched you leave, probably looking like a lovesick puppy, unable to form words or coherent thoughts beyond she noticed my hair she noticed my hair she noticed my—

"I'm going to marry her, Wheeler," Max said once you'd disappeared into the crowd of mall-goers.

Mike looked at her, one eyebrow raised. "I don't think that's even legal, Max."

"It should be," Max said fiercely. "And maybe someday it will be. But I'm still gonna marry her."

"You haven't even told her you like her."

"She knows."

"She absolutely does not know." Mike started wiping down tables with more force than necessary. "She thinks you're being friendly. Customer service friendly."

"I called her sweet with surprises in every bite!"

"And she thought you were talking about ice cream, you disaster."

Max slumped against the counter, her sailor hat sliding forward over her eyes. "What am I supposed to do? It's not exactly like I can just... say it. You know how things are."

Mike's expression softened slightly. He did know. Hawkins, Indiana in 1987 wasn't exactly progressive. Hell, Mike himself had spent the better part of the last year having increasingly confusing feelings about his best friend Will, and he couldn't even process those in his own head, let alone say them out loud.

"Yeah," Mike said quietly. "I know."

They worked in silence for a bit, the distant sounds of the mall providing white noise—kids screaming in the arcade, Madonna playing from the record store, the fountain splashing in the center court.

"Does she really not know?" Max asked eventually, small and uncertain in a way she rarely let herself be.

Mike sighed. "Max, last week you literally said 'you make every day brighter' and she said 'aw, that's why you're my favorite Scoops employee.'"

"Maybe she was being subtle back!"

"Or maybe she's just really oblivious." Mike paused. "Or maybe she's scared too."

Max looked up at that. "You think?"

"I think..." Mike chose his words carefully, "that she comes in here twice a week, always when you're working, always stays to talk even after she gets her ice cream, and she laughs at literally everything you say. Even your terrible puns."

"My puns are great."

"Your puns are horrible. But she laughs anyway. And she tips like 50%." Mike shrugged. "I'm just saying, maybe she's not as oblivious as you think."

Hope bloomed in Max's chest, dangerous and bright.

Thursday came, and with it, you.

Max had been a nervous wreck all morning. Mike had threatened to force-feed her ice cream if she kept pacing and muttering to herself.

"You're going to wear a hole in the floor," he said. "And then Steve's going to come back from vacation and kill us both."

"I'm just... what if I try to say something and I mess it up? What if she does know and she's just being nice? What if—"

The bell chimed.

You walked in wearing a skirt this time, yellow like sunshine, and Max forgot every worry in her head.

"Hey, Max!" You approached the counter, and Max noticed—really noticed—the way you tucked your hair behind your ear, the way you bit your lip slightly, the pink in your cheeks. "Slow day?"

"Yeah, just me and Wheeler holding down the fort." Max tried to lean casually against the register and nearly knocked over a tip jar. Mike caught it without looking up from his magazine.

"Nice save, Max" he muttered.

You giggled—that perfect, musical sound that made Max's knees weak—and Max felt her heart skip. You always giggled at her clumsy moments, never in a mean way, but like you found her endearing. It gave Max a tiny ember of courage.

"So, usual?" Max asked, already reaching for a cone.

"Actually..." You glanced around the empty shop, then back at Max. "Could I maybe get it to go? I was thinking of walking around the mall, and I thought... maybe you'd want to take your break? If you're allowed? No pressure or anything, I just thought—"

"Yes," Max said immediately, possibly too loudly. "Yes. Yeah. I would. Want to. Take my break. With you."

Mike looked up from his magazine just long enough to make significant eye contact with Max, a tiny smirk playing at his lips.

"Wheeler, I'm taking my fifteen," Max said, already untying her apron.

"Take your time," Mike said with exaggerated sweetness. "Take your whole lunch break. Take an hour. I'll hold down the fort."

Max shot him a grateful look, which he waved off.

As Max scooped your ice cream—and one for herself, mint chip, her favorite—you leaned against the counter, watching her with an expression Max couldn't quite read.

"You know," you said softly, "you're really sweet, Max."

Max nearly dropped the scoop. "I am?"

"Yeah. You always remember how I like my ice cream, and you always have something nice to say, and..." You paused, seeming to gather courage. "And you always make me laugh. Even when I'm having a bad day, coming here makes me happy."

Max's hands were definitely shaking now. "You... you make me happy too."

"Yeah?" Your voice was so quiet, so hopeful.

"Yeah." Max handed over your cone, your fingers brushing hers again, but this time neither pulled away immediately. "You really do."

Both of you stood there for a moment, just looking at each other, the air between them thick with something unspoken but felt.

Mike cleared his throat obnoxiously loud. "Your break? That you're taking? To walk around? The mall?"

"Right. Yes. Break. Walking." Max grabbed her cone and hurried around the counter, nearly tripping over her own feet. You caught her elbow, steadying her, and when Max looked up, you were so close she could count the flecks in your eyes.

"Careful," you said, smiling. "Can't have the ice cream expert falling."

You walked through the mall together, past the arcade where kids were pumping quarters into Dig Dug, past the bookstore with its summer reading displays, past the jewelry store where Max didn't let herself look at the rings in the window because that way laid madness and Mike's mockery.

"So," you said, licking your ice cream in a way that absolutely should not have been as distracting as it was, "are you excited for college?"

Max shrugged. "Yeah, I guess. It's just... I don't know. It feels like everything's changing, you know?"

"I know exactly what you mean." You looked down at your cone. "I keep thinking about how different everything's going to be. New people, new places..."

"New opportunities," Max said quietly.

You looked at her then, really looked at her, and Max felt like you were seeing right through her. "Yeah. New opportunities."

You found yourself at the fountain in the center of the mall with the redhead, taking a seat on the edge. The sound of water provided a bubble of privacy in the crowded space.

"Max," you said, and something in your tone made Max's heart race. "Can I tell you something?"

"Anything."

"I... I don't just come to Scoops for the ice cream." You were staring intently at your cone now, not meeting Max's eyes. "I come to see you. I know that probably sounds weird, but you're just... you're so nice to me, and funny, and pretty—not that that matters, but it's true—and every time I see you, I just want to stay longer."

Max's brain was short-circuiting. "You... you think I'm pretty?"

"Max." You finally looked up, and there were tears in your eyes, but you were smiling too. "I think you're the prettiest girl I've ever seen. And the sweetest. And I really, really like when you try to flirt with me, even though I'm terrible at flirting back, and I probably should have said something sooner, but I was scared, I mean— we live in Hawkins and—"

Max kissed you.

It was clumsy and tasted like mint chip and chocolate cherry chip mixing together, and it was perfect. Your hands came up to cup Max's face, and Max's hand found your waist, and for a moment, the entire mall fell away.

When you pulled back, both breathing hard, you were grinning. "So you were flirting."

"So badly," Max laughed. "I've been trying all summer."

"I thought maybe I was imagining it. That I was just seeing what I wanted to see." You touched your forehead to Max's. "I like you so much."

"I like you so much too," Max whispered. "I'm going to marry you someday."

"Wow,—You are fast" You laughed with a light blush in your cheeks, bright and beautiful. "That's not even legal, Max."

"Not yet," Max said firmly. "But someday. I really believe that."

You kissed her again, soft and sweet. "Then I guess I better stick around."

You talked for hours after that—About everything: about being scared, about hiding, about hoping. About college and change and maybes and somedays. sitting by the fountain, then walking through the mall, then eventually making your way back to Scoops as Max's break stretched far longer than fifteen minutes.

When you guys finally returned to Scoops Ahoy, Mike took one look at the fact that your hands were intertwined and Max's kiss-swollen lips and groaned.

"Finally," he said. "Do you know how insufferable you've been?"

"Wheeler, I got the girl," Max said, grinning so wide her face hurt.

"I can see that. Congratulations. Now can you please get back to work before I kill you?"

Max couldn't stop stealing glances at you as you lingered by the counter, neither of you quite ready to say goodbye.

"I should probably go," you said softly, though you made no move toward the door.

"Or..." Max glanced at Mike, then back at you, a mischievous glint in her eye. "Or you could come help me restock in the back? We're running low on... supplies."

Mike's head snapped up. "We are literally not running low on anything."

"Cherry syrup," Max said quickly. "Definitely low on cherry syrup."

"Max—"

But you were already smiling, understanding dawning in your eyes. "I'd love to help with... cherry syrup."

Max grabbed your hand and pulled you toward the back room, Mike's protests following.

"Fifteen minutes, Mayfield! I mean it this time!"

The back room of Scoops Ahoy was cramped and smelled like waffle cones and cleaning solution, but Max couldn't have cared less. The door had barely closed behind them before you were reaching for her, fingers curling into the fabric of her sailor uniform.

"Is this okay?" you whispered, even though you'd already kissed by the fountain, already held hands walking back through the mall.

"So okay," Max breathed, and then your lips were on hers again.

This kiss was different from the first. That one had been impulsive, surprised, quick. This one was deliberate. Your mouths moved together slowly, learning each other, and Max's hands found their way to your waist, pulling you closer until there was no space between you. Your back pressed against the storage shelves, boxes of sugar cones rattling slightly above you.

"I've wanted to do this for so long," Max murmured against your lips, barely pulling back enough to speak.

"Yeah?" You smiled, your hands sliding up from her uniform to cup her face, thumbs stroking across her freckled cheeks. "How long?"

"Since April," Max admitted. "Since the first time you came in and ordered chocolate cherry chip and smiled at me like... like I was someone worth smiling at."

Your expression softened, went tender in a way that made Max's chest ache. "Max Mayfield, you are absolutely worth smiling at."

Then you were kissing her again, deeper this time, and Max made a small sound in the back of her throat that should have been embarrassing but you seemed to like it because you pressed closer, your fingers sliding into Max's hair, knocking the stupid sailor hat off completely.

Max's hands splayed across your back, feeling the warmth of you through the thin fabric of your sundress. One hand drifted up to tangle in your hair, the other stayed at your waist, thumb tracing small circles against your hip. Every point of contact felt electric.

"Your hands are so cold," you mumbled against her mouth.

"Sorry, I scoop ice cream for a living," Max said, and you giggled—that perfect sound that Max learned to love so quickly.

"Don't apologize. I like it." You kissed the corner of Max's mouth, then her jaw, and Max's brain short-circuited completely. "I like everything about you."

Max tilted her head back as you pressed soft kisses down her neck, your hair falling around both of you like a curtain. "This is really happening," Max said, almost to herself. "You're really here and you like me and—"

You pulled back just enough to look at her, eyes bright and serious. "I really, really like you, Max. Like... so much it scared me. I'd come into Scoops and you'd smile at me and I'd forget how to think."

"I thought I was the only one acting like an idiot," Max laughed breathlessly.

"We were both idiots." You pressed your forehead to hers, noses brushing. "But we're not anymore."

"No," Max agreed, walking you back against the shelves again, kissing you slow and deep. "Now we're just two people making out in the back of an ice cream shop."

"Living the dream," you teased, and then Max kissed you harder, swallowing your laughter.

Your hands roamed—fingers tracing the collar of Max's uniform, sliding down her arms, intertwining with hers and then pulling free to touch her face again, her hair, her shoulders. Max couldn't get enough, couldn't get close enough. She wanted to memorize everything: the way you tasted like chocolate and cherries, the little sighs you made, the way your fingers tightened in her hair when Max's lips found that spot just below your ear.

"Max," you breathed, and the way you said her name—shaky and wanting and happy—made Max feel invincible.

"Yeah?" Max pulled back just enough to look at you, taking in your flushed cheeks, your kiss-swollen lips, the way you were looking at her like she hung the moon.

"I don't want this summer to end."

"It doesn't have to," Max said fiercely, pulling you closer. "I mean, yeah, we're going to college, but... we can make this work. I'll make it work. I promise."

You smiled, soft and believing, and kissed her again. This kiss was slower, sweeter, full of promises and hope and all the things you couldn't say out loud in 1987 but could show like this, in stolen moments in the back room.

Max's hands framed your face and you melted into her, and time seemed to stop. There was no mall outside, no Mike covering the counter, no world beyond this moment. Just you and Max and the way you fit together like you were always meant to.

"I'm crazy about you," Max whispered between kisses.

"Good," you whispered back, smiling against her mouth. "'Cause I'm crazy about you too."

You kissed until you both lost track of time, until her lips were numb and her heart was racing and she felt like she might actually float away. Your hands had migrated under her sailor collar, fingers trailing along her collarbone, and Max shivered despite the warmth.

"We should probably get back out there," you said eventually, though you made no move to leave, your arms wrapped around Max's neck.

"Probably," Max agreed, also not moving, pressing another kiss to your lips, then another, her hands moving up and down your waist.

"Mike's going to kill you."

"Worth it." Kiss. "So worth it." Kiss.

You giggled again, and Max caught the sound with her mouth, kissing you deeply until you both were breathless and smiling.

When you finally emerged from the back room—clothes straightened, hair finger-combed, lips red and eyes bright—Mike was serving a family of four and shot Max the most withering look she'd ever seen.

"Fifteen-minute break, Mayfield," he said pointedly.

Max glanced at the clock. They'd been back there for forty-five minutes.

"Whoops," Max said, completely unrepentant.

You squeezed her hand, pressing one more quick kiss to her cheek before heading for the door. "Same time Tuesday?"

"I'll be counting down the minutes," Max promised, and from the dopey smile on her face, she absolutely meant it.

After you left, Mike turned to Max with his arms crossed. "You two are going to get us all fired."

"Wheeler, I got the girl. Nothing can bring me down today."

"Yeah, yeah. Just... maybe keep the make-out sessions to under thirty minutes next time? Some of us actually have to work."

But Max noticed he was smiling just a little, and when Will showed up twenty minutes later with lunch for Mike—"I was just in the area"—Max noticed the way Mike's whole face lit up, the way he blushed when Will smiled at him.

"You're one to talk, Wheeler," Max said knowingly.

Mike's ears went red. "Shut up, Mayfield."

Max just grinned, touching her lips where you'd kissed her, where she could still feel the ghost of your mouth on hers. She didn't care about Mike's teasing or the long shift still ahead or anything else. For the first time in her life, everything felt right. She had you, and you had her, and the back room of Scoops Ahoy had become the most perfect place in the world. As she returned to wiping down the counter—actually working this time—Max caught her reflection in the chrome napkin dispenser. She was grinning like an idiot, her hair was a mess, and she had never been happier. Best summer ever didn't even begin to cover it.

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munch!max mayfield who gets teary when you praise her, telling her “you’re so good at this” while she’s face-deep, tongue fucking you deep. She whimpers into your pussy, vibrations making you arch, obsessed with the way your words make her feel needed, like she's the only one who can make her girl come undone. Tears slip down her freckled cheeks as she laps harder, desperate to prove it, sucking your clit between her lips, releasing with a pop before diving back in, moaning pathetically like eating you out is her lifeline. “Please, tell me again,” she begs muffled against your folds, eyes glassy and pleading up at you, her hands gripping your thighs like she'll fall apart if you stop praising her. You do, whispering “such a good girl, Maxie, making me feel so amazing”, and she sobs into you, tongue thrusting faster, obsessed with drawing out every whimper, every shake, until you're coming on her face and she's crying harder from how much she loves being your pathetic little munch.

munch!max mayfield who  can’t stop apologizing when she accidentally makes you come too fast, pulling back with wide, teary eyes, lips shiny with your arousal, voice cracking as she begs, “I’m sorry, did I do it too good? Want it to last longer? Please let me try again?” She dives back in before you can answer, slower this time, tongue circling your clit with soft, reverent licks while she whimpers, “Tell me if it’s too much, don’t want to overwhelm my princess.” But the second you moan her name, she loses it, sobbing, “you sound so pretty, love making you feel good”, and she’s eating you out like she’s starving, tears mixing with your wetness on her cheeks, completely pathetic and obsessed with your pleasure.

munch!max mayfield who  cries when you finally let her eat you out after she’s been begging for days, curling up between your legs with her face already wet from tears, voice small and shaky as she whispers “thank you, thank you so much, baby, been dying for this.” She starts slow, soft kisses along your folds, tongue barely touching, until you moan and she breaks, burying her face with a sob, licking deep and desperate. “You taste like heaven, fuck, my pretty girl, please don’t stop me, need this so bad.” She’s trembling the whole time, tears slipping down her cheeks while she moans into you, obsessed with every sound you make, every twitch of your hips, completely pathetic and in love with being allowed to worship you.

munch!max mayfield who  sneaks over to your place after a bad day, not even knocking, just climbing through your window like she owns it, and the second she sees you in your pretty little sundress, she drops to her knees, begging “please, baby, let me taste you? Need it so bad, been thinking about you all day,” she’s already nuzzling against your thigh, whimpering like she’s starved, obsessed with how sweet and pretty you look spread out for her.

munch!max mayfield who  eats you out like it's her only job, slow, messy laps with her tongue flat against your folds, moaning louder than you are because “you taste so fucking good, princess, can’t get enough,” she’s a service top through and through, holding your thighs open with her hands, (rough from skating). at the same time, she buries her face deeper, obsessed with making you come until you’re shaking and pulling her hair, her whimpers vibrating against your clit like she’s the one getting off.

munch!max mayfield who  begs for it even when you’re tired, crawling under the covers while you’re half-asleep, kissing up your thighs with soft pleas: “just a little taste, baby? Please, your pussy’s so pretty, I need it,” she’s so obsessed she’ll lick you slow and gentle until you wake up moaning, her hands gripping your ass like she’s afraid you’ll pull away, whimpering “thank you, thank you so much” when you finally come on her tongue.

munch!max mayfield who   gets all pathetic when you deny her, pouting with those big blue eyes, lower lip trembling as she nuzzles your thigh: “but princess, I’ve been so good, please let me eat you out? I’ll make you feel amazing baby, I promise,” she’ll even beg on her knees if she has to, obsessed with proving how much she worships you and when you finally give in, she dives in like it’s her last meal, moaning pathetically the whole time.

munch!max mayfield who  finger-fucks you while she eats you out because she’s obsessed with feeling you clench around her, two fingers curling deep while her tongue swirls your clit, whispering “fuck, baby, you’re so tight, come for me, please?” she’s a mess down there, face slick with your arousal, red hair sticking to her forehead, but she doesn’t care, too obsessed with making her girl come again and again, begging “one more, one more for me, princess?”

munch!max mayfield who  eats you out in risky places because she can’t wait, pulling you into the Hawkins High bathroom stall after practice, dropping to her knees on the dirty tile and burying her face under your cheer skirt, “please, baby, just quick, you look so beautiful, I need it now,” she whimpers against your thighs, tongue already lapping before you can protest, she’s obsessed with the thrill, moaning into you while you bite your fist to stay quiet, her hands holding your ass like she’s devouring a feast.

munch!max mayfield who  cries when you come on her face, tears slipping down her cheeks because she’s so overwhelmed by how good you taste, how pretty you sound moaning her name, obsessed with your pleasure, so she’ll keep going even after you come leaving you always overstimulated and shaking.

munch!max mayfield who  begs to do it after she’s fucked you, strap still inside you, but she pulls out and drops between your legs to lap up the mess, “please, princess, let me clean you? Taste us together?” she’s obsessed with the mix, her cum (yes she such a loser that she cums by only taking you with the strap) and your arousal, moaning pathetically while she eats you out soft and slow, like it’s her reward for making you finish first.

munch!max mayfield who wakes you up eating you out, soft whimpers against your pussy because she “couldn’t sleep, needed to taste my pretty girl,” she’s so obsessed she’ll stay down there for hours if you let her, moaning like she’s the one getting pleasured, begging “don’t stop me, please, let me keep going” even when your thighs clamp around her head and you’re coming for the third time.

munch!max mayfield who gets so overwhelmed when you sit on her face that she comes untouched, just from the taste and the weight of you grinding down on her tongue, she’ll be moaning and crying into your pussy, hips bucking uselessly, tears streaming because “you taste too good, princess, I can’t, I’m gonna come, please don’t stop,” obsessed with how you ride her face like it’s your throne, she’ll come with a muffled sob, tongue still working frantically to make you come too, proving she’s your perfect pathetic little munch.

munch!max mayfield who literally whines when you pull her hair to guide her tongue exactly where you want it, eyes watering as she follows your lead, moaning “yes, baby, right there, fuck, use me,” because she’s so obsessed with being your personal toy, her whole body trembling just from the taste of you on her lips.

munch!max mayfield who sneaks into your room at night after a bad dream, crawling under the covers without asking, kissing your inner thighs until you stir awake, then begging in the dark “please, baby, need your pussy, need to make you feel good, let me, please?” and when you spread your legs sleepily she dives in like she’s starving, whimpering apologies between licks for waking you.

munch!max mayfield who begs you to sit on her face even when you’re exhausted from cheer practice, crawling to the edge of the bed with her hands clasped like she’s praying, “please, princess, just sit on me, don’t have to move, just let me lick you slow, I’ll be so gentle, need it so bad,” and when you finally straddle her she moans like she’s coming home, tongue soft and worshipful until you drift off riding her face.

munch!max mayfield who gets clingy when you tease her about how much she loves eating you out, pouting with those big blue eyes while she nuzzles your thigh, “don’t make fun of me, baby, I  just can’t help it,angel".

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