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My name is Elo, I'm 18. I'm shy, awkward, weird and live in a world that isn't exactly always real. This is my tumblr, it's my personal tumblr for my thoughts, my feelings, my life.. not yours, if you don't like it then please be my guest and leave. I may seem like a perfectly happy and normal girl to anybody who may meet me but if you could see what is happening inside my head you'd realise I'm not completely 100%. I'm not crazy, yet I've been called it on many occasions. Don't let my illness be your entire judgement of me. I'm much more than my illness. Get to know me before you decide to call me crazy. "We are uninvited guests in this melancholy world and soon you will learn that the only thing worth to treasure, are the people that actually care"

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it's getting harder to hold on

some people try to understand but none of them will ever know what it's like to live like this.

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I really should just start to accept the fact no one will ever feel anything for me again. But all I keep thinking is how I'm sick of being alone and want that special relationship so many of my friends are lucky enough to have.

sigh.

I'm just not myself anymore... I'm out of it and I hate it. I want to feel like me again. I don't think i'll ever feel like myself ever again without Quinn here. She made it so much easier to be me. I just need someone. I'm sick of feeling this empty feeling.

:C found out that I may not be able to go on any of the roller coasters or rides at the theme parks I go to at the end of the year with my cousins because of my heart. Sigh. Let's see how it goes between now and then.

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These new pills are taking forever to kick in. I’m really not liking it at all. I just want to sleep:( but it’s taking forever. Bleh body hurry the fuck up and adjust to these new pills please.

I'm just going to turn my electric blanket up to the highest, get all warm in bed and watch Ed Wood until I fall asleep. Yep.

so lonely... I need to get away.

#I'm always away lately #I'm getting out of touch with reality so often it's ridiculous #I may be physically here but I'm not really here

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I honestly just give up, I'm sick of trying to organise things because it never happens and then everyone goes off together and goes out. I just can't be fucked trying anymore.　

#Like seriously just answer me?#I'm so sick of everything and everyone

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