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I’m getting tired

The thoughts of you are staring to eat away at me I haven’t had a dream without you in it since that night..

It’s exhausting. I miss you. I’m sorry but I shouldn’t have to be this is wrong.

Why did this happen what is this teaching me? I need to cleanse myself of this. I wish it wasn’t so hard to forget

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#i guess she proved me right #that anger inside me #wants revenge but its #not really who i am #i couldnt even fight itd hurt too much #fuck you for holding crying agianst me #at a time like that each and everyone you know #im not strong like that i cant #control so many parts of myself when im fkd up #how dare you pity me #fucking jerks

Dreams agian about the forest, sex, magic. Welcoming Virgo season. She’s in my head, as if I’m wishing it would all come true. I’m not going to sit and wait for anyone to care, I feel famished. I’m insecure and hurt. I want to change that today. I want to do something anything that puts light into my heart, this head.

One day, I want to tell you that...

I don’t know, I know it’s there but the words are clouded by feelings.

Focus I need focus

#xii

cold

#outside tonight #i figured #from what kai said to me that #they dont care #i dont want my shit lingering #when it doesnt matter i feel like i dont matter #thats no ones fault im not angry #i dont know this is probably all stupid any ways #maybe i just make myself put to be pitied #im sick of this shit #i feel like im rolling around in my own garbage #a pill to forget #i dont care what i learned i wish it could vanish #nothings made me feel like that in forever #bankrupt and not..#assumtions about me all of them #i want to dissapear #from their heads too #home where is a place for me to call home withhout b #thats all i have to say #i am confident and excited and happy to be here #i want to live and see more then #maybe more then you can see #i didnt know how to let you in on certian parts of me #you both scare me #i wanted to do eveything right #but i dont know how #when i wake up tomorrow ill rememeber that they dont care #i wont forget that you dont care about how it made me feel #xii

whilst

#being stuck in limbo #im still all hurt #its early not yet 9:00 and its cold #comforting #the sky is cloudy and it smells like the ocean #she was still the first thing on my mind #when i woke up #.. i doubt #shell spend much of any time #thinking about me today #my heart screams fair enough #be smart today baby #you have to be #xii

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rebel

I wanted, I don’t know what I wanted. I hate sounding anything like my mother but I felt.. attacked. My own team, it was like someone shattered the bottle over my head. I know they didn’t want to hurt me, I know it was meant to be a night of fun. It always is. All I can see is the silence. All I can feel is the softness of her skin.. the way he held me. Every inch of me feels filthy. I’m not heart broken I don’t think they even care enough to break it. I wasted myself on the promise of.. comfort.

I wish I would’ve kissed you

I don’t know if I’ll be able to face either of them for a long time. I feel disrespected and used and childish. I would have been okay talking about it. Hearing what they had to say with izzy there but.. it was like flood gates. I didn’t know that to expect last night and I didn’t plan on anything happening. I never know what to expect because they didn’t. Don’t talk to me. Being talked at, drunk out of my mind. Given so many mixed signals of what everyone needed what the actual fuck was okay. None of this feels okay

I don’t know if I’m going to be okay

#vii

halo

#she made me loose my absolute mind #shes so right with #all of it #in reality i should be the pocket pussy in his life #after tonight #im not 100% sure i can do this agian #he isnt anything the world will even allow me to comprehend right now #granted all the fn intoxicants never help #coming in swinging #maybe the reason i love i love like b’s so often #is because he is soft #hes never scared me #but #the absolute reality to that is #that boys that fight back.. do it in eveything #he doesnt know what i am #im not capable of comprehending it #why am i so afraid?#when i know that im stronger the deep beautiful bond i have with myself #is all of it everything #anything thats for me i apologize for #this anger i carry #its not that i need someone to match me #i need someone to teach me #how to comtrol and admire that part of myself #the hope I have....#i may be the one who desint let it last...#maybe if they come up with a word between love and like #but... i didnt kiss her tonight #where im meant to

Bastards

#do they even know #how full they make me feel #my ears just popped #and ive been drunk all day #she knows how she makes me feel #everything in three deeeeee #how lucky could i get #the angels in every song #i hope to god you know its you hope.#he is the fire...#she is the wind..#i only ever want to see her smile #i want him to know i like him just as much #last one last call our last kiss #this weekend will be ubsurd #get over it i love you all

Medusa

#everything feels cracked in half #i hate when he doesnt text me back..#even after a day like this ill let myself get caught up in it #i keep reminicing on the hurt that was last month #i feel like I lost so much #i hurt so often and it was patched togther #with drugs haha and love #they take care of me #we needed today me and her it was fruitful #connection comfort thanks so much thanks #i dont ever want her to think she isnt #the whole reason i really care #i whisper his name sometimes...#hers too #they make it all feel other worldly #a part of me doesnt even feel like I deserve it #it feels so delicate and beautiful I see alot of purity in him #and so much passion in her #theres so much I cant grasp about her yet she makes me stupid..#i like her so so much and I only want to see her smile #this in the end I want it to be all for her #i want to enjoy him but a part of me wants to find comfort #in her but them its #been a very beautiful day #i turn 19 next friday #i hope stay sane on the molly and the love is abudent #im sure it will be #i cant wait to sleep with both of you..#all cozied up #like lil bunny rabbits...

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soup

#i keep thinking about her long beautiful auburn hair #running though my fingers #waking up in the jeep with my hands full of thighs #how good it felt to kiss her how good itll feel to do it agian..#his eyes...#the way he looks at me when im in the back seat #he wants me so fucking bad #touching his cock for the first time..#how hard he got just watching me dance for him..#how big it is.. I cant stop dreaming about him sliding in #and ruining my life #how stupid ill be just to make her happy #the way she moaned when i fingered her sopping wet pussy #how much she fucking loved the way i licked her #every text is a tease #every moment we wait i know he wants me more #if she wouldve left and we wouldve been alone #how badly he wants that huge cock down my thoat #ruin me i want you both #so badly more then anything #but then i think about his eyes #the way he looks at me when she isnt #amd I pray to god he doesnt fall in love with me #and I hope... I dont fall for her #xii

heaven

the worst

it’s still you

duii

#is he lying about this?#is he stuck in a small room on a bad bed #all in his head #he said there was alot on his mind #im sorry if I made anything worse #because thats me being me #i really do hope hes okay #only wishing him luck felt cold #i want him to come back to me..#ive never met or had anything like him #big dick energy?? like its stupid #granted but he makes it real #his attitude #his words his head every moment he spent with me #violent smart comforting passionate.. had to be raw..#i will miss you #I really do hope you’re safe #I’m sorry I didnt stay #If i ever get another chance #to #have a night with you #like the last time I saw you..#I wish I couldve sensed it #slept till noon in your arms #i could cry.. but im not a coward #i will never be weak with you #but im vulnerable #I want you because its you..#dont forget about me.. Ii miiss you #xi

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invisible

i can’t shake you

#sleeping feels impossible #i hate that I had to say no twice #even though I really wanted you #..it was like you waited for me #even though I know that i am #just a nameless face #and you wanna be the bad guy #you held me in you arms when you fell asleep #im sorry but it felt genuine #the whole night did #i cant shake you off my shoulders so easily this time #you left me with something to be desired #that was more then and im terrified #i wanna fall asleep too #in your arms agian...#when you left little kisses all over me #like you were saying goodbye #a part of me wants to stay #she wants to hold your hand..#but youre the villan in the story arent you?#xi #but i can see you taking care of me..#in a timeline we’ll #i dont think we’ll ever reach #maybe one time maybe after the night i decide to..#actually stay and you dont mind #maybe then ill say goodbye be content with the thoughts #youve left scattered in my mind #was I worth the wait?#am I still?

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