Aug 24, 2018
cold
#outside tonight#i figured#from what kai said to me that#they dont care#i dont want my shit lingering#when it doesnt matter i feel like i dont matter#thats no ones fault im not angry#i dont know this is probably all stupid any ways#maybe i just make myself put to be pitied#im sick of this shit#i feel like im rolling around in my own garbage#a pill to forget#i dont care what i learned i wish it could vanish#nothings made me feel like that in forever#bankrupt and not..#assumtions about me all of them#i want to dissapear#from their heads too#home where is a place for me to call home withhout b#thats all i have to say#i am confident and excited and happy to be here#i want to live and see more then#maybe more then you can see#i didnt know how to let you in on certian parts of me#you both scare me#i wanted to do eveything right#but i dont know how#when i wake up tomorrow ill rememeber that they dont care#i wont forget that you dont care about how it made me feel#xii
