misscampbellclarington​:
PM: Yes, it does appear that my time shall be stretched quite thin. I may be required to give up my journalism career as well. What a shame. Nikolai, darling, I do not believe I shall ever truly know what to do with you. Regardless of what you may tell yourself, you are incredibly kind, and sweet. I am so pleased you have come to your senses. Please do. I see things differently. It is a mutually beneficial situation. You receive what you need in the moment without all the muss and fuss- which I have a nagging suspicion that you enjoy, the brattiness I mean, and even if you do enjoy it, I sense that now is not the time- and in return, I regain moments with one of my dearest friends. See? Mutual benefit. We all experience such lapses, they are nothing to become hung up on. You are correct. Of everyone on campus, you know me the best, next to my brothers and my Riley. And if I said I did? Thank you, darling, though I do as much because I care, genuinely. My purpose is and has always been to assist others in any way I am able. I quite enjoy using my powers for good. It gives me a certain thrill I have been simply unable to obtain in any other fashion. When my time comes, darling, as it most assuredly will for us all, I do not wish to be forced to look back upon my life and wonder what might have happened differently had I done more. That is all. I am proud of you, Nikolai, for what it is worth. I know that this is not easy. It is not easy for anyone involved, a fact I am well aware I do not need to remind you of. I simply request that you remember you are supported and not alone. Dare I ask how things have been with Quinn since…This has all occurred? Surely she recognizes your need for peace and ease in this moment, perhaps that is why we have seen so little of her as of late. Any submissive worth their salt would recognize as much within their Master. I know my Riley always does. It is many things, I believe. Socializing has never been a strong suit of his, no matter how much I attempt to encourage otherwise. And despite his attempts to convince myself and everyone else otherwise, I do know that bothers him. He longs for friends, but I think he feels as though he will be unable to make true connections with others here. He feels misunderstood. He tells me I am enough for him, but one person cannot be another’s entire world. I simply…Want more for him. Sometimes I worry. Sometimes I feel as though perhaps I am not enough. Perhaps there is something I am doing incorrectly. I…Those, however, are my crosses to bear, darling, and not for you to concern yourself with. I do appreciate you darling, please know that. I shall certainly let you know should I require assistance. Keep hoping, dear. We all most certainly need it.Â
PM: A pity the world has to be depraved of some of those talents, all because of something as simple as there not being enough time in a day. Hmm, who is to say you must do something with me? Incredibly kind and sweet? Whatever you say, Cam, whatever you say, but you’ll have to forgive me if those descriptors don’t quite roll off my tongue as easily when it comes to myself. Mutually beneficial, hm? I see. You’re not wrong, I do enjoy brattiness. I suppose my preference in submissives makes that quite transparent doesn’t it? I’ll commit your offer to memory and with the way things go around here, I’m sure I’ll be asking for your company in that manner in no time at all. I know these things aren’t something to harp on and truly, I am trying not to. If you said you did, I’m a bit disappointed I wasn’t there to witness it. Which, I’ll admit is a bit rich coming from me considering I don’t do humor very well either. I know you care and I appreciate that, more than you may know. I suppose I can relate. Helping others, it gives me a sense of joy as well, though I’ll say our ways of going about it differ by quite a lot. When your time comes, preferably far, very far into the future, I’m positive you’ll have a fulfilling and giving life to look back upon. I have a feeling there’s nothing out there that would keep you from such a fate. Odd being on the other end of the “I am proud of you.” bit but...it’s good to hear. Thank you, Campbell. Truly. I know I’m not alone, I know. And even when I believe myself to be, for just a moment, you somehow have that irritating ability to simply know of it. As if you have some sort of Nikolai sense. Things with Quinn were...rocky when everything happened. I was harsh towards her sister, brash with her. She had some choice words for me and deemed it fit to let it out during the hour a week I allow her to express herself in any way she’d like, respectfully or otherwise. She made her points, I made mine. Our separation changed us. Changed me. It’s...fine now, we simply have work to do. Riley is a gem of a submissive, truly like no other, and the two of you are fated, I am wholly unsurprised that he takes care of your every need without you so much as needing to lift a finger. That’s certainly a predicament and definitely cause for worry. First, I want you to know that I am here for you. You and Riley. I don’t care if you believe these are your crosses to bear, I am going to be here for you. I am going to concern myself because, Campbell Clarington, you are my dearest friend. End of story. Now onto the issue. I can assure you- you are more than enough and I am sure this is not your fault. I don’t believe this is anyone’s fault, especially when we consider Riley’s condition. Short of simply ordering Riley to participate in clubs and seek out friends or even organizing something specifically for him to make friends with, I’m not entirely sure what you can do, particularly if simply speaking with him isn’t budging him. I know I specifically put in Quinn’s rules that she has to participate in at least one extracurricular but I understand your style is rather different from my own.Â