first post.

Like. My first thought went right to Louis. Getting ANOTHER call telling him someone from his family died. How told him? I hope to god he got a phone call and not found out through socials. How is he? The answer is terrible, ofc. But deeper. Is he having a panic attack? Is he crying? Is he desensitised to grief by now?

I remembered how Grimmy was papped at Amy’s funeral. How the guys were papped at Louis’ mum’s wedding. Pap laws in the UK must be more lax. So what? They’ll get papped at the funeral? They won’t even have a private moment to say goodbye?

And the entitlement of this fandom. This fandom that gave me 2 of my favourite people in this world, but that can be so toxic. I refuse to go to their instagrams because I just know the comment section is flooded with demands that they show their grief. Imagine getting this news and then the whole world timing you until you make your public announcement. Your grief paraded around for everyone to see and know and talk about. And then ofc people won’t be satisfied. The reaction won’t be personal enough, won’t show enough. Can you imagine going through that?

I understand that most of them weren’t as close anymore. But Niall was with him 3 days ago. They lived through One fucking Direction together. And now Liam is gone. Just. Not here, anymore. Just. Gone.