If you're reading this, it's too l8

You know when theperson understands you, makes you feel like you’re worth it even if you represented almost all kinds of mistake, when you can be yourself when you’re around him/her, when you’re looking forward for another day no matter how toxic it gets, when you’re aware of how tough the circumstances are and still know how strong theperson is, when you know you’re sick as fuck yet everything feels better, and when the whole world still feel so right after knowing how wrong it really is. I mean, it’s just obvious how 4keeps he/she is but then you know to yourself hoping or forcing yourself to just forget everything is so much better than dealing with it knowing you’ll never even have the slightest chance of making your most likely deepest desire possible.

I’m writing this down because I am disappointed as fuck and my heart hurts so bad. You know family members would always be counted as an exception when we are getting hurt because maybe for some reasons..well, family. So shit, I aint buying that kind of sheet in my life right now. We don’t need that negativity bc eventually it’ll only drag us down. If you find yourself being involved with a toxic individual in your life, maybe it’s best to cut this person off-whether if it’s a family member or not. Self worth is so important. You can’t just act almighty or superior demanding respect to people because you should understand upfront that it’s being earned. Treat others the way you want to be treated. As simple as that.

Self realization is one of the most important fulfillments ever. You know to yourself that when you start to realize what is right compared to what is wrong, you’re gonna figure out that moment where you’ll just know theres really growth. You’re getting mature. Like acknowledging that there’s a starting process needed for a better change. Sure, there would be instances where things could still go wrong but when you start having self realizations, at least you’re finally aware. And that’s already a start. Acceptance is one of the keys to unlock self improvement.

Aight so I kinda believe that one of the most complicated shits dat be goin on in ma life (which i find hard not to think about) is this word called assume because you know like one day you got your gut saying something feels obvious and it kinda makes you happy, right? but on the other hand you start to feel like well shit’s kinda impossible and it’s just not right so you just gotta let it pass and move on with your shitty daily routine and figure out how you’ll deal again with that awesome YET frustrating feeling next time around bc deep down you want to expect what u wanna expect but at the same time you know maybe it’s just gonna be there. like only in your mind. forever. Everything is just hangin’ and you know, you can’t do anything much bout it which I find complicated. Idk. You feel me? Yada yada yada

Ok, it’s like whatever tf is stopping me or pulling me away from what should happen is just there and I. don’t. even. know. where. it. is. or what it is? Should I call it purpose? tragedy? destiny? gravity? sorcery? Is everything just a coincidence? I meannn- i rlly dnt freakannn know. FR. Whatever the hell this is, I guess I just know that it’s there. How do you even know what to follow or where to go. You know, is there a que or an obvious signal for me to stay or for me to go? Because everything is confusing the fuck outta me. send me to space hahhh 🥀

mainly, man i just love black and white 🥀

Disposable diaries 0100

Disposable diaries iii.

Disposable diaries xx

I’m not sure though if I could still look at my favorite place the way I see it before. Maybe it’ll be as beautiful as ever, but just not today.

I appreciate you, i appreciate your heart, i appreciate your passion, really. It was a privilege being your subject.

Pagtapos mapalaban sa liwa. Imahe mula kay JP 📸 #skid #fxd (at Olongapo) https://www.instagram.com/marquicruise/p/BwwdYVUA2JhYEpP-p9dcYG2yiIpu4S0yB8RL9g0/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=v6txwrycza46