mariluchan

i got blackout drunk for the first time in years at the mr skin 17th anniversary party the day before my birthday. at some point i bonded with one of my supervisors that i am in love with about having anxiety/depression /needing meds to not want 2 die and then we played the simpsons game and we beat it together and honestly it was so cute i almost died. i blacked out after that. on my actual birthday i woke up late to eat brunch then i came home and slept for 6 hours and then i woke up to go eat dinner then i went home and fell asleep again. i saw my family on sunday and it was very strange as usual and kind of stressful but also nice because i love them. today i got the day off bc they give everyone a day off on their birthday at my job which i think is rly cool since no other job ive had before has done that. i cleaned my house and i actually did some writing which i havent done in so long but lately ive been feeling better abt it, i think it must just be bc its leo season. anyway now im going to go see my therapist and im a little drunk and thats the first time ive ever seen her like that but its still my birthday in my mind so

ok so i started this tumblr back when i had a fucking hotmail account and then i got like locked out of my account bc i needed to reset my pw and i couldnt access that dumbass hotmail account but i finally figured it out and im back now