jessica marie

trying to find my place in this world without drowning so you’ll be seeing more entries and rants like this so I can b r e a t h e.

i'm constantly at war in my head and heart with anxiety, self-doubt, depression, hope and longing.  feeling so alone while being with one of the most attentive and loving humans beings I've ever met. understanding what it means living life paycheck to paycheck and just wanting so desperately for things to be better. so many worries that I harbor that I feel as if one day I am in fact going to drown. i wish so badly I could explain exactly how I feel but I can’t, other than this is the equivalent of solitary confinement and I am in fact going insane. 

but each morning, I have a clean slate for a better tomorrow and am grateful for being alive. tears, hugs and hope have gotten me this far.