Secrets

Sana dumating yung araw na mawala lahat ng tong sakit na nararamdaman ko.

Lord, when will I be happy? Nagmamahal lang naman ako. Pero bakit ganito?

Yung pain sa arawaraw, yung sama ng loob. Grabe.

Hindi ko ginusto ginawa ko. This is my fault now.. pero I became like this dahil din sakanya.

Whenever I talk, or share my problems, he just let it pass.

Or.. nagagalit.

Hindi ako makapagshare ng kahit ano or makapagkwento, hindi pwede hindi magalit, or madalas hindi nakikinig or nagppay attention. 😂

Tapos tatanungin, bat nagkakaganyan ka? Galing.

Pero kapag siya, problema niya, problema ko din.

Kwento niya, napatingin ka lang phone habang nagkkwento siya, galit agad kasi di ka nakikinig HAHA.

Wala nko ginawa sa relasyon na to kundi umiyak. I am trying to be the best of me.

I never wanted this.

Siya din naman dahilan bakit ganito ako. I was never like this but he made me do it. And now, he kept on asking "BAT NAGKAGANYAN KA?"

I am emotionally abused. I am being gaslighted. He's narcissistic.

I wanna runway, but I can't. I don't know how, when at what will I do.

My heart is so tired.

It is always my fault.

Hi,

It's been a long time.

Here are my kids. Time fliea too fast, they do not want to be carried anymore. They don't want to be called baby, kuya and pretty is what they prefer.

I missed posting stuffs here. I miss making kwento.

But life lately, haaa, is not as good as you think it is. It is tough, a lot of rough road, but hanging in there.