I’ve come to realise that I have been spending so much of my time trying to create my own path for this thing called life. I have been trying to organise and plan it so much, that each time something small didn’t turn out the way I had anticipated it to, I’d slowly find myself believing that there was something wrong with me. (Generational curse)
I have been fighting for my education, to be able to go to a university and work towards getting my degree or even better, a masters, and all I’ve been getting, are either rejections, being placed on the waiting list, or getting accepted but not having the finances at that particular moment.
I have been fighting for my finances, applying left and right for jobs and getting no responses back.
I have been fighting for love, fighting for someone to be mine and only mine, and instead what I got was rejection from him.
I have been trying to control my life, who comes in and out, and at the end of the day, I’m all alone with no friends, and not close relationship with any of my family members.
I’ve come to realise that what I’ve been doing wrong, all along, was to try to control my life, whereas all I needed was direction. All I needed was someone to guide me, to create the path for me , to lead me to where I am destined to be, to show me the door that’s waiting for me to open it. A door of abundance, a door of blessings, a door of joy and happiness, a door of financial breakthrough, a door of endless possibilities,
All I need, is for God to guide me, and I will walk in his path.
I am taking this time, to stay away from specific social media platforms because I want to block out the distraction and focus on my growth and my healing process. I’m dedicating this time to me and God.
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