Ravenous

Sometimes I wonder, what will it feel like to be cute? that people accept you, that they do not make fun of you all the time, how it will feel to be accepted by the shitty society in which we live

The people do not have compassion. The only thing they know how to do is to judge, they do not understand how horrible it is to stand up, look in the mirror and cry

"You're fine" "You're not fat you're just big" "You're beautiful you say", these comments that suppose me tell me to make me feel better, the only thing they achieve is to depress me more, because I know they're lying

I need someone to love me for once in my life, just like I can not blame anyone, I'm disgusting, who would love someone like me

There are times when I see myself "pretty" although it does not last long, because immediately I feel the ugliest person in this world

remember everything I ate, all the calories that now my body is absorbing, not being able to vomit, I want to be stepped on by a train right now

Sometimes I think it would be everything if people accepted me, I spoke well, if it were not for the rare fat