Something to Hope for

I'll be impressed if anyone gets 12/12 on the first try.

But naturally I did because Hilary Duff is my queen

I only ever want to hurt myself after feeling like I can't fix his problems and can't fill the empty holes in his life.

I feel like I am holding him back in the way that he doesn't feel the need to move forward with his life because I'm still around. I feel like if I wasn't around for him, he'd be more likely to literally move and start over somewhere else.

It sucks being a 35 year old man with nothing going on in his life, but he's stuck.

With that being said, in therapy we talked about (as a we always do) the overwhelming guilt I feel when I can't be there for him 100% of the time. Now we are trying to reframe by thinking of it as it being good for us both to not be around for each other all the time. If I can't be there for him all the time, maybe he will feel even more lonely and do something about it? Ugh idk how this makes me feel.

"I'm in trouble...I think. I'm spiraling"

He's a great friend for me when I'm struggling, like last week he helped me so much just by being there with me when I couldn't be alone.