hi. itâs jav. your bartender.
i stepped away from this space back in november. some of you noticed, some of you didnât, and thatâs fine. what was happening hereâboth publicly and privatelyâbecame overwhelming. it wasnât just about writing anymore. it felt like i was constantly giving, and even that wasnât enough. the chaos didnât stay on the dash; it followed me behind the bar, into my private messages, into relationships i thought were safe. eventually, i hit a point where i had to leave for my own sanity.
so i did. i grounded myself again. i remembered who i was outside of this account. i didnât disappear to âheal quietlyâ or become productive overnightâi lived. i went out, i met new people, i let myself have fun, i met a girl that i really like, and slowly, i stopped thinking about this place altogether. my life is genuinely better now, and iâm in a good place. i wasnât planning on saying anything.
but recent events in eyekonblr were brought to my attention, and i realized that staying silent about why i decided not to return doesnât sit right with me anymore.
while i was here, i was involved with someone i met through this communityâa fellow writer. i wonât get into details of the relationship itself, but i will say this plainly: i was lied to, manipulated, and taken advantage of. i trusted someone who curated an entire false identity. i was told she was an adult. she wasnât. she told people she was 21. she was actually 16.
i found out after she abruptly disappeared from my lifeâafter telling me she was dyingâand after i came across her actual partnerâs account. they had been together for years.
i need to be very clear about this part, had i known her real age, nothing between us would have happened. the things i shared, the intimacy, the trustâthat consent was built on a lie. learning that it was with a minor was horrifying. it took a long time to even process, let alone accept, that this happened to me.
iâm sharing this not to start drama, not for sympathy, and not to be part of whatever discourse is happening right now. iâm sharing it as a warning.
we set boundaries here for a reason. mdni means something for a reason. but the reality is that people can lie easily online. they can manipulate, curate personas, and cross lines without regard for the harm they cause. and sometimes, you donât realize it until youâre already hurt.
this experience solidified my decision to leave this platform for good. i wonât be writing here, and i wonât be reading fics anymore. it also changed how i feel about katseye as a whole, which sucks, but it is what it is.
do what you will with this information. just please take it seriously. protect yourselves. protect each other. and donât assume that someone respecting your boundaries publicly means theyâre doing the same privately.
thatâs all.













