An entry from my diary
02/24/26 1:30am
3 days ago a guy asked me out, and I somehow said yes. This means I have two weeks to try to weird this guy into ghosting me, anything to get me out of this!! He's fine, you know nothing wrong with him, I guess. Well, to be fair, I don't know him… but I kinda hate when he talks, and I know I'm far from a dating expert, but I'm pretty sure that's not a good indication of what our date would be like. Like, I asked him what movies he likes, and he replied by saying, “I really like movies that put a lot of effort into saying something or making the audience feel something.” Like, oh really?!? Do you really?!?! That's crazy, I like my movies pointless!! He also keeps calling me “twin” and "bro." OH! I forgot he also said eepy! Gross. The most interesting thing about this dude is he's for sure rockin a piss kink, so that's spunky of him. Not spunky enough tho!! I don't think whipping out water sports on my very first date is gonna make this dull boy sparkle, well, maybe a little sparkle depending on if there's lighting to reflect off the piss. Whatever, how do I grow some balls and back out? Or do you think if I continue talking about my bowel issues, putting him in a collar, and my two-year span where I had lice, he’ll back out on his own? This feels mean… I don't even know him. I am allowed to just not like him, or am I inclined to keep using "still getting to know him" as a cop out forever and ever, and now we're married… I'm scared, and I feel like a bully. -gabs
