a different perspective

Hi there. Reflection mode again. So last post was being “lost” since architect na ako, what to now feels remember? So right now im medyo torn with life. Most days I feel like I’ve got everything sorted out, then some days parang wtf nu ginagawa mue? Well we have our days naman kasi talaga right?

Update lang after the board exam. I worked for my dad, which was the game plan even before taking the board exam. I was really decided to help with the family business which is construction. But di ako nag tagal kasi most of our projects are more of into civil engineering projects? Like roads, bridges, public schools ganon. We also do restos, hospitals, konting bahay but then again its more on construction lang talaga. Not that I have a problem with construction its just that im more inclined to designing ba? Like if ever I’d build something, might as well be it my own design. 

So I went back to Manila, applied to a few design firms, and got into one. Medj malaki syang firm, they have design projects, they have construction projects, and even outsourcing projects. (Mostly production of working drawings/3d models/renders.) It was okay nung simula but then again the pamamalakad was so shitty so I left. After 3 months. lol Pero I have to say, malaki yung sweldo ko dun. But then again di naman ako masaya sa trabaho ko so ayun.

And guess back where Im at. Im back to my old firm, returning for the 3rd time. Yup. Third. I started working there when I was in college, did part-time. Then after graduation, I came back. Worked there until I had to resign to review for the board exam. I resigned kasi nga ang goal naman after the board exam is to work for my dad which is why eto nga yung kwento. lol

Words cannot express how happy I am nung tinanggap nila ako ulit. I mean, who does that dba? 3 times kang bumalik sa isang firm. At first I thought it wont last long, na I’d leave anytime soon din. But then it felt like I never left the office. Yes there were some new faces but somehow it still feels the same. So eto na ready ka na ba mahaba habang kwentuhan pa to. 

Sobrang okay ako sa work ko right now for so many reasons. I think mainly because I get to really design here? And my outputs are really being put to use. Like nagiging totoo sya, natatayo sa totoong buhay. In most design firms, they don’t let “n00bs” to really design a project. Usually production lang, working drawings, mag render, or if may design man, very minimal lang. But here, Im surprised that my boss lets me decide on certain things in some projects, design-wise.

Another reason is the work ethic there. Sobrang chill namin. If you will see my IG Stories, you’d understand. Not that wala kaming ginagawa, its just that hindi toxic yung workload namin. Yes we do OT but not all the time. Like we’d do OT lang kapag may talagang deadline na hindi kaya ng normal office hours. And we really take time when it comes to the design process. Hindi yung basta nalang may maipakita sa client yun na.

As an architect, mahalaga yung aesthetics. Yan yung next reason why masaya ako sa firm ko ngayon. We just click eh. Not just with my boss but with everyone else. We have this certain kind of aesthetic na everyone gets, kumbaga were on the same page, iisang wavelength ba when it comes to design. Its not a 100% match all the time but alam mo yun, gets na agad. 

Lastly I guess would have to be my boss. He’s young so he kind of gets us? Like I said nga, he kind of trusts me with design projects na lately. Parang i’ve designed 3 houses na in like a month parang ganong levels. Super na appreciate ko rin yung kapag client meetings, he gives due credit. He’d say straight on to the clients, “Miguel designed that.” Grabe pag naririnig ko yun feeling ko yung sweldo ko 90k per cut off. 

So ayun, mahabang kwento pero gusto ko lang talaga sabihin na if hindi mo feel yung trabaho mo, like hindi ka masaya sa ginagawa mo, umalis ka na. Wag mo na isipin kung panget ba sya sa resume or whatnot. Life’s too short. Sayang ang oras to be doing something that you dont like. I just feel sad pag nakakarinig ako ng kwento na puro OT sila, na wala na silang oras sa friends and family kasi nga puro trabaho. Pro tip: Wag mong gawing buhay mo ang trabaho mo. 

“Sinasabi mo lang yan kasi wala kang pamilyang binubuhay.” 

Fair argument. Marami sakanila nag stay sa shitty work nila kasi okay na sila sa sweldo nila sa trabaho nilang yon. Ang point ko lang ulit is that maraming choices. For sure makakahanap ka ng ibang firm na mamemeet yung gusto mo, kahit halfway lang. Balik pa rin to sa Kung gusto may paraan mantra eh. So ayun. Tama na. Bottomline, if youre starting palang or still want to learn, see post title. 

NKKLK. Andito na tayo. Di ko aakalaing aabot ako dito. As in. Hanggang ngayon di pa rin ako makapaniwala. And suryal kasi. Parang ang bilis. Parang kailan lang when I’d rant dito about my problems about my plates, mga panahong gusto ko mag shift, yung parang ang labo mangyare kahit pag graduate lang. 

Alam mo yung sobrang daming nangyare pero when you think about it, parang roll VTR lang. Ang bilis. 

Fam kinakabahan ako hahahaha

Ilang buwan nalang board exam na and hindi pa din ako nag seseryoso. Pero kahit anong gawin ko wala pa din talaga ako sa mood mag aral. Kahit alam kong marami pa akong dapat aralin, na madami pa akong hindi alam. Pero umiiral na naman yung taglay kong kayabangan na “kaya mo na yan ok lang yan” attitude. 

Sabi nila, kung ano daw yung habits mo ng pag aaral before, ganon din daw yung gawin mo ngayon. Nuong college ako, di naman ako kasi nag aaral talaga. Laging asa lang sa stock knowledge. Kaya ayun, madalas pasang-awa, madalas bagsak. Pero nakaraos naman ng college sa ganoong pamamaraan. 

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Yup im still here. Parang kailan lang, i’d write stories make kwento to you guise how my life is in college. Back then all i worried about was surviving college, making it out alive. Nuong mga panahong yun parang ang layo ng graduation day, kumbaga hindi mo pa makita yung finish line. Then the next thing you know nag apply ka na ng work, tapos mag rereview for board exam. 

Right now im enrolled sa isang review center para sa board exam. 3 months pa bago mag exam so medj chill pa ko. Pero habang lumalapit ng lumalapit yung exam, mas lalo akong na pe pressure. 

Nakaka pressure yung kapag nag lelecture yung prof nyo, hindi mo maalala na diniscuss yung topic na yun nung college. Feeling ko absent lang ako nung tinuro yun. Kaso sobrang daming hindi ko talaga alam eh, tipong absent yata ako buong college.

Hindi ko din naman masisisi yung sarili ko kung bakit. Kasi nuong college, nag aaral lang ako para pumasa sa quiz, para pumasa sa subject, para maka graduate. Ang mali ng karamihan satin, nakakalimutan natin mag aral para sa mismong profession, para sa totoong buhay. 

Kaya ngayong nag rereview ako, im making it to a point na hindi lang ako nag aaral para makapasa ng board exam, nag a aral ako para magamit ko to lahat kapag nagka lisensya na ako. 

At para naman sa inyong mga nagkamaling kumuha ng kursong architecture na its too late to back out na andito na tayo push na to, dont forget to make namnam the lessons, don’t just memorize. Kapag may hindi ka nagets sa lesson, don’t be afraid to ask questions, to seek help. Do this in college and swear, sisiw na sayo ang exam. 

Hey. Its been a while. I feel like a lot has changed. Well, marami na talagang nagbago. I think the last time I posted something was when I was still in college. Naks. when i was still i college 

Yup, graduate na ako. Akalain nyo yun. I started this blog right about when I entered college ata. Di ko akalaing aabot ako dito, na natapos ko din ang Architecture. Well after 6 years. HAHAHA

So ayun nga, madami ng nangyare, pero life goes on. Magkukwento pa din ako ng “life of an architecture student” kahit graduate na ako. Naisip ko, kahit di na ako literal na estudyante, we still are students. Kasi dba Architecture is ever changing as time passes by. Nagbabago yan, so we still have to continue on learning kahit na graduate na tayo, kahit na maging arkitekto pa tayo.

Feeling ko medj matured na ako kahit papaano kasi ang dami ko ng realizations about life. Pero I never got the chance to write anything down kasi I was too busy with what was happening nitong mga nakaraang araw buwan taon. 

Hindi, ang totoo nyan nakalimutan ko lang talaga password ko kaya di ako maka log-in.

Dahil kailangan gamitin yung plans namin sa thesis for correl class, bigla ako napa reminisce nung thesis days ko.

I was a complete slacker nung time na yun. There were days wherein isang buong araw nag zo-zoom in and out lang ako sa cad file ko, orbit lang ng orbit sa 3D model. 

The day before my defense, mababaliw na ko, patong-patong at sunod-sunod yung dilemmas.

1. Wala pa akong rendered images dahil - hindi pa ako tapos sa 3D model, hindi ako marunong mag render ng vray, at masyadong mabigat yung file for lumion.

2. Since wala pa akong rendered images, wala pa akong presentation boards.

3. Wala pa akong printed plans ng thesis ko. Syempre dahil hindi pa din ako tapos sa cad file ko.

4. Hindi pa ko tapos sa presentation ko since hindi din ako magaling sa PowerPoint. Although kumpleto na ako sa data ko, nag rarambol sa utak ko kung ano yung mga sasabihin ko.

5. Umaga defense ko, so wala yung iba kong friends to help me. 

6. Dahil wala yung friends ko, wala pang tutulong sakin bumili ng foods for the jury and to prepare for my presentation.

Sobrang laking tulong yung ginawa nung officers ko sa uapsa ko nun para sa akin. Since wala pa akong board and kailangan ko ng lumuwas, sila na yung nag layout ng boards ko nun habang nasa byahe ako. Hindi ko alam ang gagawin ko nun kaya sobrang thankful ko sakanila. Pati yung isa kong ka NBD na nag render ng elevs ko. labyu guise sobra sobra hart hart

I had my tito drive me to Jolli’s kasi hindi ko na kaya mag commute. I think we left the house at around 6AM. At dahil ang swerte ko nung araw na yun, natraffic kami. We arrived sa Jolli’s around 8AM. Defence starts at 9AM pero 2nd pa naman ako so I was expected to be there mga lunch time ganon.

Nakarating ako ng school mga 10AM, ok pa, maaga. Stayed muna sa AR Lib to practice for my presentation. Wala pang laman yung tyan ko since the night before pero hindi ako makaramdam ng gutom. Yung kaba meter ko sobra sobra na eh. 

Syempre hindi pa tapos yung swerte ko. Hindi pa din nadating yung unang mag dedefense. So kinakabahan na ako baka ako na yung pag defensin muna so todo tago ako sa library. Hanggang ayun nakita ko BV na yung thesis adviser namin kaya nagpakita na ako, and ayun na ako na daw muna. Eh di panic mode.

*Thesis Presentation*

Nagulat ako sa sarili ko. Lahat ng kaba nawala. As in. As I was talking in front of the jury, I felt confident with my work. I knew exactly what I was talking about. May mga nasabi pa kong hindi ko naalalang nirehearse ko but still makes sense. I was happy with my presentation nun, they looked impressed naman kahit papaano.

Edi eto na, magtatanong na sila. Dun na bumalik yung kaba ko, kasi baka di ko masagot ng ayos. Minor questions lang naman yung mga tanong so konting revisions lang. Ang hinding hindi ko makakalimutan eh eto.

Jury 1: “Bakit walang door dyan sa area na yan? Is that supposed to be like that?” Me: “Ay maam wait lang po. *opens cad file, edits cad file in front of them* Take note naka kabit pa sa projector so kita ng lahat. Me: “Oh ayan po maam oh dba meron.”

Di ko talaga alam paano ako nakalusot nun. Tapos yung isa pang tanong nya na naloka ako ng todo. Paano daw pag sumabog yung space na yun edi patay daw yung maraming tao pati eroplano sabog. Medyo na stun ako eh hindi ko alam pano isasagot ko. HAHAHA

After defense, inanatay ko yung grades ko. Tatlo lang yung sasabihin ng thesis adviser kung ano yung decision ng jury.

Passed with Minor Revisions Passed with Major Revisions Failed

Nung time na yun medyo tanggap ko talaga kung may failed akong isang jury kasi hindi pa talaga tapos na tapos yung thesis ko. Nung pumasok na yung adviser ako napa serious face na ko.

A: “Ready ka na ba marinig ang hatol?” M: “Pwede bang wag nalang sir? Kinakabahan talaga ako eh. Pero sige na. Go. Break it to me gently sir.” *bows head, closes eyes, hopes for the best* A: “Ok. Jury 1 -  Passed with Minor Revisions. Jury 2 -  Passed with Minor Revisions. And lastly, Jury 3 -  Passed with Minor Revisions. Pwede ka na huminga ng malalim.”

M: *jumps around the room at least 3 times shouting “thank you sir” on loop*

And the rest was history.

Sige mag reminisce tayo. :)

As some of you may know, di talaga ako marunong mag drawing at mag kulay. Jusko. Sobrang kabado ako kasi baka ako yung laging may pinaka panget na gawa, na baka pagtawanan ako kasi nag arki ako pero wala akong talent sa pag guhit. Kaya lagi kong ginagawa umiikot ako sa classroom, pinapanood ko yung mga kaklase ko kung panao nila ginagawa yung plates. Ayun, dun ako natuto dumiskarte. Kahit hindi marunong, magagawan naman ng paraan. Basta gusto mo yung ginagawa mo.

Sobrang nakaka overwhelm yung first year ko as an architecture student, mixed emotions. Nakakatakot kasi lahat bago. And change is scary indeed. Dahil lahat nga bago, minsan nagiging exciting sya. You get to do a lot of new things. Make new friends, new experiences, new memories. May times din na nalungkot ako kasi nalayo ako sa pamilya kasi nag dorm ako. So minsan home sick ganyan. Malungkot din kasi you get to spend less time with your other friends. Nakakastress din nung first year kasi di ko alam paano babalansihin yung buhay, kinakapa ko pa yung buhay college, tapos architecture pa kurso ko. Kagulo.

Basta make the most out of everything. Always do you best and look at the brighter side of things. And always remember that its ok to make mistakes. Sobrang dami kong maling nagawa nung 1st year ako, well hanggang ngayon, kaya ayun, sobrang dami ko ding natutunan from those mistakes.

Gamer? Playboy ba? Or Mga Dota ganon? HAHAHAHAHA 

Huwag ka mag alala, maraming gamer slash mapuan sa mapua. Dyan tayo magaling eh, sa multi-tasking. Pero wag sa babae, masama yun.

Hello there. Backread ka lang sa posts ko and maybe may makikita ka na makakatulong sayo. *Heads up, sorry kung may porn. HAHAHA*

 Like what I always say, lahat naman mahirap, kahit saan. Basta gusto mo talaga ang isang bagay magagawa at magagawa mo, walang mahirap, walang pero-pero. Maganda yan may drafting skillz ka na. Ako nga walang kamuwang-muwang sa kahit anong drawing eh, pero eto ako, grad-waiting na. :)