Hello folks! Iāve got a adhd problem Iām trying to solve and Iād appreciate any advice.
Ive graduated from college, Iām an artist and Iām trying to build a portfolio but I keep getting distracted and I feel like every schedule I try to make falls apart. Iāve tried simplifying it and having a body double and maybe im making more progress than I think I am but it feels like Iām spinning my wheels throwing shit at the board and not really moving forward.
Iām trying to repair my relationship with art after school and enjoy it but I also need to make money to survive. Any advice on how to build a portfolio without getting overwhelmed?
P.s. I also have chronic pain/migraines and canāt drive so getting a normal job has been.. a challenge to say the least.
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Audiotransmission_9. [NEW JULY 1]
Customer Hits On You In Coffee Shop, Takes You Home After Your Shift.
Rack & Ruin. | navigation | fiction masterlist
18+ only | rocket x f!reader x blackjack | 9/10 parts
it's hard to quit your audioporn crush when you've got direct access to his voice every day, straight from the tap.
or: that time when you told your boss to go back to his lover, and he made you fuck yourself to rakk n' ruin all night instead.
excerpt and warnings below.
"Youāll have to get used to this, too, when Rocket joins us.ā Jack grins. āItās not all cockwarming and cum, unfortunately. That bastardās so controlling, youāll be lucky if he doesnāt start brushing your teeth for you.ā
More heat rises in your cheeks. Okay, maybe brushing your teeth Ā is going a bit overboard ā and youāre pretty sure Jackās exaggerating ā but so many circsā worth of loneliness and self-reliance make his words into a temptation. Prior to your arrival on Knowhere, youād been focused on dodging your ex, and before that ā well. To put it simply, you hadnāt received any real comfort or care from another person since long before youād left Terra. Jack had been the first to look out for you in ages, so ā really, is it any wonder youād fallen for him? Or for the voice behind that first Rakk nā Ruin audiotransmission, filtering into your ears like a dirty devotional?Ā
āIs it stupid of me?ā Your question is cautious. The only reason youāre able to give voice to it at all is because Jack had sounded more indulgent than annoyed. āTo say that it doesnāt sound so bad?ā
Jackās furred palm wraps around your ankle and he tugs you toward him, opening your sticky thighs. The grin he gives you is all easy affection, without a trace of judgement.
āHoney, thatās how I know youāre perfect for us.ā
The wet cloth coasts from your knee up to the crux of your thighs. You still jolt when it brushes against your slick, swollen folds ā but Jack cups you gently. A long, low, approving hum rumbles from between his teeth. Despite the fact that your belly and clit are still tingling with unsatisfied need, thereās something soothing about this moment: the softness and warmth of the damp fabric, the attentive way he touches you, the carefulness with which he cleans you. His mouth follows the path of the cloth: light and reverent, his flexible upper lip trailing along your flesh, almost vibrating with the sound of his wordless song.Ā
Some of your tension eases. The muscles in your thighs and belly ā almost painfully tight ā relax slowly, and you sigh: a quiet, drowsy exhalation, content despite your lack of climax. You know you need to talk to Jack about your meeting with the Captain today ā about all the troubling things heād said that continue to knot your insides. Thereās some puzzle-piece missing, some bit of information that would help you understand. But for now, you just want to enjoy this moment.
In case there arenāt many more to come.Ā
You offer your boss a sleepy half-smile as he presses one last, gentle kiss to your still-achy clit, then withdraws to wipe down his cock and blot at the syrupy mess of his fur, still humming as he does. An errant thought rises inside you, and your smile blooms a little brighter as you reach for him, beckoning him into bed with you.
āThe Captain does that too, you know.ā
Jack pauses. Blinks up at you. āDoes what?ā
You feel your smile sweeten, and more heat filters into your cheeks: self-conscious, but quietly delighted too. Itās another thing they share, maybe without even realizing it. āHe hums. That song in particular, I think.ā Your legs curl beneath you and you wiggle your toes. āWhat is it? Did he learn it from you?ā
NOTES: it's hard to believe i split this audiotransmission and the last audiotransmission, and this still ended up being so ungodly long. deepest apologies. the last section probably could have used more revisions/editing, so i may come back and make some minor changes later. i hope you enjoy anyway!
WARNINGS for this chapter: LONG & ANGSTY. chapter summary's a bit misleading (sorry!). pining, doubts, bad communication (look, both these losers grew up with bad communication models). reader continues to second-guess herself in the relationship. continued D/s vibes, praise, dirty talk, cockwarming, continued edging / orgasm denial. more mentions of double-penetration, oral, threesomes, creampies.
Rack & Ruin masterlist. 18+ only | rocket x f!reader x blackjack | 8? parts | wordcount: pending. navigation | fiction masterlist
you have two ridiculous, impossible, extremely-silly crushes. one is on an audio-porn performer whom you've never met, but whose growly voice brought you comfort during a low point in your life. the other is on your fucking boss.
which is why you really don't have the bandwidth to start crushing on the captain, too.
CONTEXT: mcu-based with inspiration from the comics. mostly post-vol3 with references to major past events. while blackjack and rocket do have a pre-existing relationship, the focus is on reader in this story. limited physical description of reader / she does have hair.
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@raccoonfallsharder Finally got around to reading this new chapter! I found this quote really meaningful.
āIt was never just porn,ā you tell him quietly, your voice hushed under the faded neon lights and shadows. āYou ā you gave me an escape. You made me think good things were still ā still possible for me. You made me feel less alone. And ā you gave me hope.ā -racoonsfallharder
This encapsulates what I feel about your work ^^ and others too; there are fics I havenāt saved because I donāt have an ao3 account that made me feel this way.
But yeah, especially the part about feeling less alone ^^ I see some of myself in rocket the way he feels about himself and his body feels akin to how I feel about myself sometimes. And having characters that love him and he loves them back, itās like loving myself too?
I hope someone else has told you this but you are a word smith master at creating emotional character development that feels real. Tugs on those dang heartstrings.
The smut isnāt like a extra treat on top, itās a development tool- and I donāt think enough people give it credit for how it can be used that way. It makes characters vulnerable, deepens bonds if done right. And boy do you do it right! Itās a skill you have mastered! I hope you feel proud of it <3
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Audiotransmission_9. A PREVIEW. [EXPECTED JULY 1]
Customer Hits On You in Coffee Shop, Takes You Home After Your Shift.
Rack & Ruin. | navigation | fiction masterlist
18+ only | rocket x f!reader x blackjack | 8/10 parts
it's hard to quit your audioporn crush when you've got direct access to his voice every day, straight from the tap.
or: that time when you told your boss to go back to his lover, and he made you fuck yourself to rakk n' ruin all night instead.
excerpt and warnings below.
NOTES: this is actually kinda an angsty chapter, be forewarned. i mean you gotta have the angst for the happy ending to hit right, you know??
Rocket's eyes slide sideways to yours, shrewd and amused. āYāknow, fāyouād asked me a few circs ago, Iādāve said only three-anā-a-half things make me happy. Money, ships, guns, and the Guardians. In that frickinā order.ā He shrugs. āIt woulda been a lie, but I pretty much believed it. Mostly. Didnāt let myself want much else.ā
Something twists inside you. Your abdomen is still tight and tingling, clit still buzzing at attention ā but heartache tastes tart on your tongue.Ā
āExcept Jack,ā you say softly.
He squints one eye, then sits up just enough toĀ Ā
aim a dark-clawed finger at you. Cocks it ā then pulls the imaginary trigger. Despite its nonexistence, youāre certain you feel the thin, lancing pain of a phantom blast or bullet.
Right through your heart.
āLook at you,ā the Captain drawls. āSweet and smart, after all.ā
Heat climbs in your cheeks, and you bat his words away as if the gesture can quell the sudden hum of pleasure vibrating in your chest. The fact is, no matter how many times Rakk nā Ruin has crooned praise into your ears, hearing it from the Captain himself ā meant just for you, no matter how sarcastic heās being ā sends frissons of warmth spiralling up your spine.Ā
But there are more important things you need to focus on right now.
āYou deserve to be happy, Captain,ā you remind him gently. āAnd you ā you deserve Jack.ā
He snorts. āThat might be true. Maybe ā yeah. Maybe I could be convinced I deserve Jack.ā He narrows both eyes at you, then lifts his drink from the bartop and tips it lazily in your direction, like a toast. āBut you sure as fuck donāt.ā
excerpt from Audiotransmission_9. [EXPECTED JULY 1]
Customer Hits On You in Coffee Shop, Takes You Home After Your Shift.
WARNINGS for this chapter: pining, angst, doubts, bad communication (look, both these losers grew up with bad communication models). reader continues to second-guess herself in the relationship. continued D/s vibes, praise, dirty talk, cockwarming, continued edging / orgasm denial. more mentions of double-penetration, oral, threesomes, creampies.
Rack & Ruin masterlist. 18+ only | rocket x f!reader x blackjack | 9? parts | wordcount: pending. navigation | fiction masterlist
you have two ridiculous, impossible, extremely-silly crushes. one is on an audio-porn performer whom you've never met, but whose growly voice brought you comfort during a low point in your life. the other is on your fucking boss.
which is why you really don't have the bandwidth to start crushing on the captain, too.
CONTEXT: mcu-based with inspiration from the comics. mostly post-vol3 with references to major past events. while blackjack and rocket do have a pre-existing relationship, the focus is on reader in this story. limited physical description of reader / she does have hair.
skulls dividers and support/mdni banners by @/saradika-graphics | titlecard, ombre green, and ombre glitter dividers by me!
Little progress shots... hobby lobby garbage to landscape painting. Fairyland canyon.
The weather was NOT cooperating, started out with ideal sunny conditions and a huge storm cloud decided to hang out during the second half. God punishing me for desecrating the sacred thrifted hobby lobby Faith plank.
Me: Fuck, the paper towels I want are on the top shelf.
The Sir David Attenborough That Lives In My Brain: Being smaller-than-average presents an added challenge to foraging ... but necessity is the mother of invention. A little creativity turns a baguette into a tool, and voilĆ --
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Oh man I am so glad I gave myself a lot of time to work on this - really ended up challenging myself with drawing different types of fabric and textures, and then finding a way to censor it so I can post it elsewhere. But - the hamsterless versions are for Patrons only, so you can see Jester in her full naked glory as she relaxes and enjoys doodling in her journal over there.
Chubby Jester may not be canon but she is very important to me. Trans Jester as well for extra enjoyment.
If youād like to see this uncensored, check out my Patreon which you can find through the link in my bio. All my NSFW posts are exclusive to my Patreon page.
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yeah, they did. I wrote up a big long post about the Trevor Project and the 12 hour charity livestream I'm participating in right now, and they deleted it. twice. We've raised over $50,000 for a legitimate charity but because it helps trans kids it gets deleted from the site
yeah, they did. I wrote up a big long post about the Trevor Project and the 12 hour charity livestream I'm participating in right now, and they deleted it. twice. We've raised over $50,000 for a legitimate charity but because it helps trans kids it gets deleted from the site