The sun came out again and now everything doesn’t feel so heavy. Really scraped by yesterday and today I look like a stray dog but at least life doesn’t feel as dire with the blue sky

I popped a huge zit on the back of my ear and it was literally so satisfying

So sleepy today. I’m blaming the rainy overcast

Remembered I promised to drive a friend somewhere. Rewarding myself with the nearby coffee place

Omggg I stepped on the scale and I actually lost 3 lbs I’m so happy 😭

I feel really tired but I want to do things. Just saw a condo but I honestly can’t afford to buy a house right now so I’m not sure why I even went. I have a movie date later but like way way later. I can’t even finish eating my eggs and toast. I feel so tired and dizzy, like I do when I’m at work. I wish I had more money, I wish I wasn’t so broke all the time. None of the side hussles I’ve tried have worked out. Asking my parents to pay my downpayment would be a juggle because I’m not sure if they’d have it and also I would lose my dignity. Why do I feel like I have to appease the real estate people? This isn’t even the best option for me so why am I stressing out over it so much. The cat is being so clingy, I need to take a shower but I’m already wearing clothes, and I need to hang up my clothes from the laundromat (my washing machine broke). The washing machine in that condo is so small. I think the essence of having a condo is that you rent it out after living there for a while, but I think the way this one is set up is that I’m not supposed to rent it for some city rules. I just wanna save more before I do it, but it’s been a long time and it’s going to be an even longer time because things always come up. Tickets (the good and the bad), medical bills, rising gas prices, the cost of nourishing my body, travel expenses to go back home, and the lot. And then there’s things that I want to do like fix the dent in my car, laser my birthmark finally, and well I finally got my crown redone which was also 400. And I want to take a workout class, and I want to get my hair done professionally. If only I just had a nontoxic sugar daddy, or if my ex hadn’t ruined my credit, or if he hadn’t sued me, or if my car hadn’t broken down. Blah blah blah. I need to clean my room but most of it is just clothes everywhere because the closet room is a disaster due to the washing machine being in the middle of the room. I seriously need to get rid of some of my stuff. The adhd brain says no tho, I like all my stuff, it’s just overflowing out of my drawers and I don’t have any hangers left

I think of myself as just a really strange person

Love when my life is too strange for a healthcare provider to comprehend

I got cheeky underwear thinking they’d just be cuter than bikinis but this front wedgie was not on my list

Despite all my rage I am still just a rat in a cage