inside these castle walls

KAN vs B&B

Then I raised up and scooped her into my arm. Her head against my heart. I walk up to the stairs and pput her on the bed. I put the blanket over her. Yes it was colder but the house would keep us a bit warmer without the wind.I could deal with out it. I sat next to her and took one oof her hand in mine. «Sleep princess, you need it.» I kiss each finger before letting her sleep

I was left without words I didn't even protest when he picked me up and carried me back to the bed and laid me down. I knew that if I protested he would just ignore me. I was shaking as he kissed my fingers and my tired body gave up and I slowly fell asleep without saying a word. I was scared of what I was feeling now.

I kissed her hair and rock her slowly, silently, letting her tear wet my clothes. My hand were stroking her hair. All she needed right now was crying and a hug. She was doing one of those, I could provide the others. 

His chest muffling my sobs as I let out every tear I hadn't cried in years. I cried until my eyes were dried and all that was left was my body shaking and some sobs here and there. slowly I pulled away and wiped away the remaining tears on my cheeks. "I'm sorry. It won't happen again." I apologize which was probably the stupidest thing to do right now as I pulled away. "we should get some rest."

«Malia…» I said tring to put an arm around her.But she was too quick and ran away from the room. I look at her empty place, stunned. It was her tear that got me back to reality. I took a deep breath, not knowing what to do and start to slowly walk down, my heart breaking at the sound of the sobs. «Malia?» I ask when I was in the middle of the stairs 

When I heard Elias voice I shake my head and wipe the tears from my eyes. Taking a deep breathe I walk towards the couch. "Yeah, I'm fine." It seemed that lately that was all I was saying: I'm fine. Even though I wasn't. "we should rest. Take the bed, you'll sleep better. I'll be fine down here."

The fallen music rang in the air and I was glad to look up and had a moment to calm down. I knew it was the stress and the fatigue that made me snap at her. But i had enough of her game

Before I could do anything else the anthem begins playing and I rush to the window. The first was the boy from three that I never got to meet but the next elicits a whimper from my lips: Pach. My first friend. The first person I looked up to. He was the brother I never had and now he was gone. The last thing I saw of him was his face in the sky. I try to hold back my tears because I know Elias is right behind me so I grab my stuff and head downstairs not even bothering to see who the third cannon once. Once my feet hit the first floor, the tears fall.

The sun was already setting and a part of me was curious to know who the three cannons that I had heard today belong to. I just hope it wasn't someone I knew, or cared about. The sofa downstairs looked comfortable enough and plus, I was the smallest of both of us so I stood up. "I'm going to watch the fallen so I'll bring you your items here so you can get some rest. I'll take the couch downstairs. Alright, big guy?"

«What are we looking for captain.» I said after nearly two hour of walk. Only our steps and the movement of small animals. I was getting tired of walking without purpose. She was weird and cold and I hated it. 

Raising my eyebrows I turn around not knowing if the 'captain' was an insult or a joke. I went with the latter. "something that is not trees." I said with a small smile before turning back around and walking around. I almost let out a sigh when I saw a windmill up ahead. "something like that." I added. When we were in front of it, I let my whip unravel to the ground before slowly opening the door.

I looked around. There wasnt much new things right now but maybe further there will be something. «The good thing is, now we are refresh from all the sweat!» I try to joke stroking her back soflty

My eyes were already scanning the area and noticed that we had just arrived at even a bigger and thicker forest than the one we left. Wiping my brow I took a step away from him even though his hand rubbing my back felt good. "Yeah. Lets keep moving. I want to find shelter before the sun sets." I said ignoring his joke. Right now the last thing I wanted to do was get even more close to him and in the end maybe even up having to see him get killed. After Romans death I realize that Shamus had been right; I couldn't handle this so I guess I was taking the easy way out. Not get closer to anyone. Letting out a sigh, I begin walking into the forest having no idea where I was going.

We walk toward the river. After a few moment of hesitationm we walk into it, as the water was getting higher. I felt the extra weight on me pulling me in the same way of the current and I was glad my years in training have made me strong enough to break through it. «Are you okay?» I asked Malia as I was half way through the water. 

Looking up I nod, not trusting my voice to speak and also because I was afraid that if I open my mouth my two apples would make an reappearance. My hand that was holding onto the trident was shaking by the time I reached midpoint. Either by now my face was flush or all the color had been drained from me. And even though I was oblivious struggling I refuse to get any help and by the time Elias was already on the other side I was still in the water. Moments later I manage to make it to the other side and let out a sigh, finally opening my mouth. 

I sigh again and look at the river. I liked the place because it gave us access to water but we were too expose. .«Okay.» I finished to say. «You are the brain remember. » I try to joke, missing her smile. She havent smiled since Roman died. 

I chuckled, shaking my head. "Can you swim? We can use the forks of our tridents as anchors in the lake so we're not carried away by the current" I asked. Pach had taught me how to swim--the hard way but getting into the water still frighten me. But if Pach could overcome his fear, so could I. "I mean, unless you want to continue following it but for what I see this lake just keeps going and going. Not only that but it seems to just keep curving." I state from my observations I had done while we had been running away from those damn things. Plus a part of me wanted to explore a little; get to know the area.

I sat down and gave her half  of the last cooked bird we had. «Lets eat. then we need a shelther for the night. I dont want any bird for wake up again.» I said eying the tree gloomly

My eyes starring at the flowing river I was in my own little world that when Elias woke up I slightly jumped. "No." I lied. "and you only missed one cannon. Standing up to stretch out my legs I take a drink of my own water before chuckling. He really had slept like a rock. Looking at the bird I began to shake my head. "I'm not hungry. Plus I ate two of the apples in my pack." I explained. Lately my stomach just didn't feel like it could take my food. Just looking at the bird made me want to puke. "I was wondering, what if we cross that river. I wonder what's beyond it."

I looked up when the parachute rang and smile as I saw him stuck into a branch near us. How appropriate. With a groan I wal toward it and open it. I sigh, happy. «Thanks Stella.» I said hopping they will film that gratitude and I walk toward Malia. If I make it, I will personally thank my read head guardian angel. «Take half of it and apply it on your wound.» I said giving her the cream. «Lets save the kit for real problem. » I tuck one of her hair behind her ear. «Ill take my part of cream too, I just need to wash.» One that I walk toward the river, pulling out my shirt and pant, staying in my underwear. Thre was no time for being prude, I needed to get clean. 

Placing the cream down I sit down on the floor and begin to munch on my apple when I saw him get undress. I could feel my neck getting strangely warm and I just hope the cameras didn't catch me blushing. Turning around I hide my blush and begin to put some of his cream on my worst cuts. Leaving him more than half I face away from him until he comes out and fully gets dressed. As I finished eating my apples, he gets dressed and applying the cream to his cuts as well. And even though I knew the smart thing to do was move on, we decided to stay by the river. Not only because we were both sore from fending off those damn birds but because it was the safest place we had--for now.