Thinking about how John really fell for Henry Gale, for the mystery and the charisma of a man who came from the sky and might not be who he say he is. But he doesn't know how to feel when he finds out the truth and spends seasons battling with how he feels and all the things Ben has done. Meanwhile Ben is so hopelessly in love with John that he wishes he could keep being the man that John thought he was if only so that he could love him again.
THISSSSSSS!!!
Ben got rid of John because he couldn't grapple with the fact that John was everything he wasn't (and everything he wanted). And although John couldn't decide what he should feel toward Ben he never stopped following him, never stopped believing him, never stopped thinking that they were in it together.
[[ I just KNOW John looked at Ben sometimes and wished they could go back to the Henry days. ]]
The thing about Benlocke is there are so many interpretations of their dynamic- that is what makes their pairing so FUN. LONG LIVE BOCKE!!!
