Into the void again

In the beginning, you were not always like this. You were a normal child. Raised by nurturing and attentive parents. But somewhere things changed. Maybe your father was absent or otherwise emotionally unavailable. Maybe a trusted male figure took advantage of you. Somehow you spent your formative years starved from positive male attention. You started to develop some unhealthy coping mechanisms.

Maybe you shared images of your body with a few boyfriends or perhaps with some internet strangers on chat sites. However it happened, you learned that you could exchange lewd images of yourself for attention. But like all coping mechanisms, it started to lose it’s effectiveness. It wasn’t enough. You wanted more. You’d already reached the first stage:

Awareness - You’ve discovered that by publicly displaying your body in an obscene way, a larger audience of Men become aware of you. It’s a different kind of male attention, less potent than the personal attention you are used to receiving. Nevertheless, the sheer quantity quickly overcomes the quality and of course you want more.

Approval - You learn to post more risqué content and on a much more frequent basis. You begin talking to many of the men who are watching you. You rub your increasingly needy pussy and cum when they tell you how hard you’re making them. The more obscene you become, the greater the response. This begins to change you as you quickly realize that respect and dignity are inferior values to these new, sweeter feelings of approval and pleasure.

Validation - This has become a full blown addiction. You are no longer passively encouraging men to objectify you. You actively degrade yourself and are constantly thinking of new ways to demonstrate how worthless and inferior you have become thanks to their approval. You beg them to make you worse. You still rub yourself to their praise but you no longer allow yourself to cum because that would ruin your ability to stay wet and attract more men to cum. The intensity of their desire for you is all the validation you will ever need.