幸福

It’s not just guys.. just anyone in general that can be important to me in any way. I’m tired of always feeling or being treated like I’m somebody’s 2nd. Not that I want to be the #1 priority in their life, but to at least make me a priority. To show me that I mean enough to them as much as they mean to me. And it just hurts when you don't get it in return.. I honestly try so hard to be nice to everybody. I mean that’s already who I am. I just feel ignored or unwanted a lot. It’s my deepest feelings that I never speak out to anyone, but myself.. Sometimes I’ll have sarcasm to cover up how weak or emotional I can be, but when it all comes down to it.. I really am weak and emotional. But of course I just try not to be. Anyways, I hope you’re reading this Lord. Please help guide me to good people in my life, who can just simply appreciate me as much as I appreciate them. It’s not much to ask for.. In the end, all I really want is just to be equal. I’m tired of being there for other people and they can’t give it back to me. 

Just don't.

Going to get back onto songwriting. 

I think it’s funny that people still threaten to use the police card to prevent little personal issues. If you’re an adult or “mature enough” and still think that the police are going to do anything about your ex boyfriend not deleting your old cute couple pictures off of tumblr, I’m sorry I mean no disrespect but that’s just immature as hell, you should know better if you consider yourself a mature person. Everyone knows damn well a policeman is not going to press charges because your ex boyfriend won’t delete some pictures. If they were of sexual content, okay, sure. But if it’s “ruining your reputation” sorry honey but that’s a personal problem that, no offence, the police aren’t going to care about. As much as you want to feel offended of what I have to say, go ahead. Because you’re supposed to, the truth hurts and you have to hear it. I don’t choose sides, I’m nobody’s fan, I go by my OWN opinions always. So don’t get butthurt, it’s legit the truth and you should know better. I don’t know why such a close friend could be acting so ridiculous right now, but sometimes they need to get a reality check and learn shit on their own. You can only do so much to help a person but if they push you away that is their own damn issue. All of this is so damn ridiculous it makes me question your intelligence as I type this. The police.... Aren't... Going... To do..... Shit... So handle it like a grown up and start giving a less of a fuck of what people think. If you really are moved forward then get over it, the pictures aren't EMBARASSING. You just make it harder for yourself.

I know I'll make it big one day in life with the dreams and passions I have in myself. Let's keep it that way xo goodnight

Sincerely, You Who loves you and wants you to become even tougher than you already are.. ❤️

To be honest although i’m not in need of a relationship right now, it lets me lose hope and feel like, for myself, that I’ll never find anyone that’s decent. But I know in the back of my mind that’s not entirely true. But it makes me feel disgusted and draws me away when it comes to relationships now because of this. Society ruined a lot of things for me, and it’s stupid. But not anymore for the future. I, and a lot of other girls just want someone who will stay faithful and genuine with a big heart. But I guess its became one of those things where its hard to find.

How I feel about today's generation

nope, im right 😂