THEM'BROWNEYES

If you’re gonna lose sleep over something, lose sleep over the fun times you have with friends staying up all night. Lose sleep over your career that you put a lot of time into in order to make a lasting impression on the world. Lose sleep over the painting you’ve created to help others see the world the way you do. But don’t lose sleep over someone who won’t text back. Don’t lose sleep over a love that won’t lose sleep over you.

Have you ever watched the person you love slowly lose interest in you? It starts off little, you can’t quite put your finger on it, but something is different, something has changed. Everything feels slightly off, off like a monday. You can almost hear it in their voice, you can see it in their eyes. You think it’s you, you start over thinking every single little thing, wondering what you did, where it all went wrong, how you can fix it. It starts off with little things like waking up to no text, calls become fewer and farther between, the lack of effort, emotion and the excuses begin to pile up. Soon it starts tearing you apart, the feeling of not being good enough begins to make you feel physically sick. Soon you find yourself hysterically crying in your car at three in the morning because you can’t hold yourself together anymore. You know it’s coming, you know you can’t do anything to stop it. The aching doesn’t stop.