Whatever

In this world everyone is either fake or just dont really care. Everyone worrys about them selfs before others. Thats what is so messed up. I don't understand why you can't just be honest with yourself and others. Like if you dont want to be in someones life for a good reason, leave. All your doing it hurting them, bad, by staying.

Everyday it's getting sadder and sadder

Don't depend too much on anyone in this world. Even your shadow leaves you when you're in darkness

I was taking a bath and I was going to wet my hair so i sunk down in the bath. My ears submerged in the water, I couldn't hear anything but the feeling of water in my ears. It was the best feeling I have had in a long time. I wanted it to be like that all the time. Not being able to hear anything and opening my eyes to the ceiling, nothing around me. For a quick moment I though just slowing put my head completely in the water and it can all stop, the pain and loneliness can go away.... But I quickly sat up, tears in my eye. I couldn't do it.

You know the worse part about being depressed? Its late at night and your laying here not able to sleep because all you have on your mind is the all the fucked up shit in your life and how you cant talk to anyone because your scaried. All you ever are is scaried. And sad. And a disappointment. Just ever thought running around in your head, fucking you up even more. But what can you do? Nothing but be scaried.

Being so tired and sick of life really sucks.....

My bestfriend love someone but he might love me instead. I told him that we can only be friends but he keeps trying to get with me. Should I tell her about him? I dont know. I feel guilty but I haven't done anything.