that gay shit

I love the tension between Jay thinking he's too good for Matt while also being simultaneously so transparently desperate for Matt's approval. Like sure, of course he thinks Matt is embarrassing sometimes. He's loud, he's chaotic, he can't help himself, he'll say and do anything, he's clinically insane. But at the end of the day, all Matt has to do is give him even the smallest hint of praise and he basically turns to putty for Matt's hands to shape into whatever Matt wants him to be that day. You really can practically see his mind sort of sinking and shutting down in real time whenever Matt says anything nice to him. It would probably be embarrassing to him if his brain didn't immediately turn to mush every time it happens bc he's not even lucid enough to care by that point. insane.