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it solos - Submitted by: fastman27

One thing that breaks my heart about Solas and Lavellan is that Solas is so obviously haunted by the fear that one day Lavellan will look back and think he didn't really love her.

All through DAI, he anxiously reiterates the reality of his feelings. He confesses his love after the second kiss, and he doesn't even wait for her to reply before walking away, because this isn't about trying to elicit a confession of love from her as well; he simply says those words because it seems essential to him that she should know how deeply he feels about this.

The Crestwood scene begins with him, again, trying to prove to her how much she means to him. And when they break up, if she asks him to tell her that he doesn't care, he'll respond 'I can't do that.' He can leave her, but the one thing he can't abide is to have her believe that his love wasn't real. We see this again after the final battle: 'Whatever comes, I want you to know that what we had was real.' And again, in Trespasser: 'I would not lay with you under false pretences.' And eight years later he's still anxiously writing letters trying to tell her how much she meant to him: 'What I feel for you will never change.'

The anxiety makes sense of course, because he's clearly still hurting over the way his story has been misremembered. Almost everything he's ever done has been painted in the worst light by history: in this, at least, he wants to be sure that his intentions are never misunderstood.

I also wonder if part of him is thinking of Mythal. Looking back and coming to the painful realization that Mythal never really loved him, or at least not the way he thought she did. Understanding how humiliating and heartbreaking that feels, and desperate to make sure he doesn't leave Lavellan feeling that way.