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so ive been wallowing in my depression for like a week now with no tumblr && now i don’t know if i even want to come back on this tumblr... im thinking of deleting and i dunno starting new again or maybe just deleting tumblr all together......... i really dunno what to do?

maybe i should delete tumblr... it just makes me feel worse majority of the time,, no one would even know... im just gonna go sleep for a while

you know i think ive finally reached the point where i could actually kill myself. everyday i wake up feeling worse and worse, i cant remember the last time i left the house, i cant even talk to my mum anymore bcos shes starting to pick up how depressed i am and shes worried. im so apathetic lately, im so alone, i have 1 friend and i think they are reaching the end of their ability to put up with me.. i never thought suicide would be something i could be capable of purely bcos i know how it feels when someone leaves that way.. but like it just feels like something i could do when im switching. im just really lonely i feel nothing but bad negative things i kinda wanna give up everything ive tried hard to achieve. i dunno i just wanna stop feeling bad