M&M

Just was thinking how I write on a journal app when I feel like letting some feelings of frustration out, always helped. Although, I like writing on here better, it’s nice to write about my highlights/thoughts of the day. . anyways I’ve always loved the idea of keeping a diary.. this isn’t the diary I thought I’d do, it’s more of a journal for ME. I’ve also always loved reading those... not sure why. Maybe because they’re so honest and so personal, your inside someone’s mind, someone who never thought it would be read.. Diary of Anne frank, and go ask Alice. Disheartening endings... and I’ve always had a thing where I HATE watching movies with sad endings, it’s just man whyyyyyy they’re supposed to be happy endingssss!!!! Why can’t we all just be happy ! Haha. Although It’s unrealistic to think like that, since there’s a lot of sorrow in the world, and we try to avoid it or act oblivious to it. Maybe because we feel it’s out of our hands. Let’s start off small... It’s up to us to make a bad day a good one, and you’re the only one in control of that. So stay positive, even if it’s difficult at times. It’s time to make the world a better place, starting with YOURSELF🥰

So today I was home alone, and wanted to paint my room. I don’t have any spare clothing to stain with paint which made me decide to paint in my 👙.... 🤭🙊🙈 and now I will forever paint in my 👙 hahaha I just had a lot of fun and I was relaxed and comfortable with myself. Awesome day. 🙌🏻💖👌🏻🥰 this is all I listened to🧘🏻‍♀️

1/5/19

Today I will find the beauty in silence... will start after my meeting in a couple hours🤗 Honestly I love being by myself, a little too much but this will be different...

I’ve had a realization that I was never as “shy” as I’ve been, then of the last couple years because I wasn’t happy with who I was, how I looked, and I just didn’t want to do anything because of it. It was hard to face everything that got me there what got me in there, but I know now I had to go through it all to be where I am with myself today and im excited to see where I’m heading. I’ve always loved meeting new people; It’s just I know you can fall in love with anyone, but I really feel the only person I wanna fall in love with is... myself 🥰🥳🤩💖

To me this song is about love, and how love makes you feel 💕

1/4/19

Was just thinking about how this used to be my public diary that no one really knew about. I could share a part of me without caring who’s gonna see. Wanted to share my top played songs of last year. I really do feel that your music can show a part of you that you aren’t always comfortable sharing with others, and well honestly it can also be as simple as this songs cool haha but it does show your personality... I’ve always really been into love and heartbreak songs, there’s just this emotion and passion you can’t get from any other type of music. It’s so beautiful how you can feel the artists pain through a song, and damn do I feel it whenever i hear it ; cause there’s no pain, like the pain of a broken heart...