Trying to make something. Anything.
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Trying to make something. Anything.

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Need to see if my mom's got any high gloss top coat floating around. I've got a paint-on on but a spray would be easier. I think I've only got the matte coat in the house right now and I've got it in my head that I'd like this thing to look lacquered.
I don't even know. Just... doing something. Anything. Hands moving brain quiet. Anything to pull back from the abyss.
I'm trying
I'm trying
I'm trying
Not sure what happens when I run out of space.
Just the flaws remaining.
And finished.
I don't even know. Just... doing something. Anything. Hands moving brain quiet. Anything to pull back from the abyss.
I'm trying
I'm trying
I'm trying
Not sure what happens when I run out of space.
Just the flaws remaining.
I don't even know. Just... doing something. Anything. Hands moving brain quiet. Anything to pull back from the abyss.
I'm trying
I'm trying
I'm trying
Not sure what happens when I run out of space.

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but i stay silly! *←said in the most world-weary voice you ever did hear*
“but I stay silly!”
Reblog you stay silly
on it boss
tumblr is great bc its like a diary where I can take other peoples diary entries and glue them into my own diary
I don't even know. Just... doing something. Anything. Hands moving brain quiet. Anything to pull back from the abyss.
I'm trying
I'm trying
I'm trying
god sorry to everyone having to deal with my depression posting lately but I need to scream it into a void where I feel like people will probably understand (cw for ideation talk and vague reference to medical abuse under the cut)
talking to my partner and told him it occurs to me I flat-out lied to the nurse. because I have been thinking a LOT again lately about whether there is a combination of pills I have on hand that I could take to just... fall asleep and not wake up.
"Yeah but you and I both know if you hadn't lied..."
"I know. I'd have been hauled off to a place that would have made it worse."
"And it WOULD make it worse. We both know MULTIPLE people who have gone to grippy-sock jail and they ALL came out worse."
and like. it sucks. It SUCKS because I think. If that kind of hospitalization were actually done in a non abusive way (but it never is, it NEVER is I don't know of ANYWHERE that is doing it in a way that isn't abusive and I'm not sure if there even IS a way) I feel like... I actually kind of... need some kind of... idk...
I need help.
I need help. Is what I need. And the only places I can seek it out from are the places that would be most likely to actually harm me instead of help me and I'd come out wanting to die even more.
so all I can do is try and figure out how the FUCK to strengthen this fraying thread I'm hanging on by (as J put it: "if you ever figure that out PLEASE let me know")
meanwhile all I've had to eat today is a can of sardines, some saltines, and like 3 chicken nuggets. because anything else feels like it'll make me hurl. x.x

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Beaded Rainbow Odenwald Shawl!
Lost my mind a little and added (if my math is correct) 5,615 beads to Nim Teasdale's Odenwald pattern. Anything worth doing is worth overdoing!
The goal was “soothingly weighted but not uncomfortable to wear, even as someone with chronic pain.” It could have been a little heavier, so maybe I’ll make a shawl with larger beads another time, but I’m very pleased with this one. I used size 6/0 seed beads, applied as I go with a .6mm crochet hook.
Yarn-wise, used 2 cakes of YarnArt Flowers. I knitted the fully purple sections from both, then knitted all the way through the yellow-oranges with a single ball. When I hit the beginning of red-oranges, I used yarn from both cakes, alternating between them. (Not the entirety of both, I played it by ear to make sure I made it through the full rainbow.)
I do have edited charts with bead placements. I will only share them with Nim's permission.
I've done A LOT of knitting/crochet this year while chronic illness kept me from my sewing machine, but I'm feeling much better now. There will be new quilts to look forward to soon, plus a few more yarn crafts to share in the meantime!
What the fuck do you do when you feel like your own body is a hostile entity you can't escape?
I think at some point of disability you should be able to just get out of any further health problems for free. Like I've already been nerfed enough, fuck off.
Imagine the level of whimsy I could reach if I just had $5M in my bank account rn
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you ever just look over and see the animal?
Does she have a little bed in front of the heating vent there
she does! and sometimes she has to share it, which is very emotionally painful for her
his little underbite is so cute