what now

Here’s the thing they don’t tell anyone. When it’s all over, the streams, the cameras, the not-quite jokes and the bitten back flirts, they find a secluded room and fall into each other. Kisses turned bites and more, until they lie there, not quite touching. Sweaty and not quite sated. Some days he’s not even sure how much he wants George in that way. But a body is a body and the way that he and George can read each other is something so incredibly intense that it sets him alight. alternatively, Dream and George have been sleeping together for months, but no one else knows.

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“What the hell are you doing,” George hisses, as Dream abruptly realises they’re nose to nose, his hand wrapped around both of George’s wrists. Dream takes a shallow breath, he can’t help but glance down at George’s lips.

Airport, airport, public place, people, watches, stares. The panic thunders though Dream’s head, but there’s another, quieter voice, echoing from deep within him. One that urges him to breach the millimetre gap and press his lips, his body, his soul into the familiar indentation of George’s lips. To make people fall silent and stare while he shows the world what is his.

It is tough anon, people romanticise it but unless your best friend loves you back - it’ll be one of the roughest things you have to go through in your life. I was in love with my best friend for a majority of HS but I never pursued anything because I was too scared - I became very safe in loving her from afar. But when I went to university and started dating properly I realised how much I had screwed up because it left me unable to pursue a romantic attachment without feeling like I was cheating and it was incredibly unfair on the people I was trying to date - and I like the people I date! Any of them could’ve very easily turned into a long term relationship but I was held back for my feelings for my best friend. I made the choice a year ago to try and actively get over her - I reduced contact, I tried to enforce a little bit of distance for my own sanity. And it’s worked, for the most part. I’ve got a partner now that I want to try and be serious about - but even still somedays I’m so overwhelmed by the depths of the emotion I have for my best friend.