James potter x fem!reader
Summary: itâs no secret that Hogwarts likes gossip and that it spreads quickly through the hallways but this time when James potterâs new secret girlfriend is the subject of said rumors everyone is scandalized, specially you.
Warnings: slight angst (maybe? I think not), secret relationship, make out sessions, alcohol.
A/n: this wrote itself on the way and I must say I actually like it (it is a little bad tho). Last part is probably unnecessary but I think James would 100% do it Iâm sorry đ
{âI wonder, How much love in this world hides in silence?â}
James had your back pressed against the corner of the hallway, his lips were glued to yours and his hands were roaming your sides messing with your perfectly-looking uniform.
Adrenaline ran through your body, you were never this public while showing your affections, ânot at allâ always wanting to be private, and by private I mean secret. So kissing in the hallways is completely new to you, but he said it was okay since everyone was in class âno one will see, babyâ he murmured before cornering you and smacking his lips into yours. And after considering it, you realized it was safe: everyone in class, your back hidden thanks to the wall and your face covered by him, so, your good judgment (that was a little less good thanks to his kissing) concluded that it was alright.
And here you were, gasping and moaning softly at his tongue crashing into your mouth and his hands playing with the edge of your skirt.
You chuckled into the kiss, your noses brushing as you talk âcan you tell me whatâs the special occasion?â You wondered amused, tone light as you tried to bring all the air possible to your lungs
James smiled at you and your heart skipped a bit when he pulled a strand of hair away from your face, his fingers touching you ever so gently âyou just look so pretty todayâ
You rolled your eyes jokingly at his cheesy smile, cupping his cheeks and kissing him once again.
Your heart was racing, in the bad way, and your mind was rushing into so many conclusions, you couldnât help but shake at the feeling of guilt and anticipation. A girl from hufflepuff told you; she said that thing you never expected to hear from someone else and it made your blood run cold.
âDid you hear? James has a secret girlfriend!â She screamed with the excitement of a kid getting a toy.
Oh shit, someone saw you kissing in the hallway!?
You froze âwhat?â You asked, thinking for an instant that it was someone else, as if you didnât know who it was.
âYes! I was shocked too. I bet it is that Evans from your houseâ she told you her theory with a big smile on her face, not realizing your sudden paleness âyou know that last year they were onto something, I thought they never got to be a couple but maybe it happened! And maybe they hid it until now! Oh Merlin⌠it makes perfect senseâ Inez gasped, nudging you with her elbow.
You kept quiet, your stomach dropped at her name. Lily. Shit! You are so fucked. The sound of the bell ringing was like music to your sore ears, you rushed to grab your things and then you ran out of the library.
You heard murmurs all across the graveyard, you know they werenât directly about you, but â in a senseâ they were! Your steps quickened a little more. You wanted to get to your common room and find lily, she was all you thought about now: her and James, and somewhere between the lines you thought about your relationship with each of them and you also thought a lot about their relationship with each other.
There is a reason why you and James kept everything quiet. It was because of her: lily, your goddamn best friend, his ex crush/situationship! You knew he didnât feel for her anymore, but you are supposed to be a good friend and âex-somethingâs are off limits, no matter what.
Merlin you cursed James for making you fall for him, you fell straight into his trap! Like a total moron! Ignoring everything else, what kind of friend does something like that?
You stumbled into the common room, a bunch of your housemates were all over the place preparing everything for the âafter match partyâ this afternoon. You knew the girls were on your dorm, sitting around lilyâs bed gossiping and giggling while waiting for you to tell you everything they knew: it was your Saturday routine.
You pushed the door open making the girls turn around scared before their surprised expression turned to them welcoming you âhey! Have you heard? Come, sit!â Lily said, her voice rushing you while a hint of excitement dropped from her lips.
Walking cautiously towards them you analyzed lilyâs face, searching for jealousy or maybe anger, you sat down next to her where she patted for you.
âJames has a girlfriend! A secret girlfriend!â Said Mary, gently smacking your legs repeatedly with enthusiasm.
You forced a casual smile âyeah, I heard the rumors from Inez.â
Marlene laughed while coming out of the bathroom with her quidditch uniform on âdonât bother, we already asked lily; she says she has nothing to do with it.â but you were not going to ask. Her amusement was clearly visible.
âI call bullâ joked Mary and you laughed nervously.
âI swear! You believe me right?â Lily smiled at you, and her smile only grew bigger when you nodded âanyway, we are planning on discovering who she is at tonightâs partyâ the redhead said happily, inviting you to participate and you clearly said yes. Even though you were feeling guilty, all of this made you feel like a spy undercoverâ you wouldnât admit yet that it was exciting.
The game was easy, Gryffindor won at an undeniably great game for them. The air was as fresh as the rumors and the competitive sides of both houses showed. You caught Jamesâ smiles and winks across the pitch, those that were just for you to see. He was a master at his games, he knew it and, to your despair, it just made you want him more.
You were always the first person he reached for after he won a game, always desiring to bathe on your love and your proud smirk, but he knew this time âwith all the rumorsâ he should probably be a lot more discreet, so he approached his friends first. Sirius and Peter hugged him and punched his back, while Remus told him how great he was.
You saw how he gazed at you every time someone else stood on his way to get to you, but once he final got there, he smiled widely âdid you enjoy the game, L/n?â His words casual but his eyes burn with love.
You shrugged âyou were okay, Potterâ you said slowly and his eyes flickered at your words before shining bright again when you smiled sweetly at him âIâll see you at the party, yeah?â And he nodded.
The common room was crowded, the music was loud and the smell of sweat and alcohol combined with all the colognes and the strong perfumes made an intoxicating scent, it was not necessarily an awful smell and it was comfortable enough to forget about it when dancing.
Marlene drank her beers quickly, being adored by the crowd and dancing like crazy in the middle of the room. Sirius and Remus were sitting in a corner. Peter had fallen asleep on the couch next to a fifth grade. Mary and Lily were talking to some other girls, both of them eyeing the room now and then, obviously looking for any sign of Jamesâs mysterious girl. But you had him on your sight, he was joking around with some of his friends, enjoying the attention but his eyes searched for yours every step he took, he wanted your attention.
You smiled at him from a distance before, with that nod that told him everything you wanted to express. You made your way out of the common room, obviously he followed after, waiting just a minute before heading out to you.
He hugged you from behind, pushing his arms around your waist and burying his face in your neck, smelling carefully the sweetness of your delicate vanilla perfume. You giggle, turning around just to see him staring down at you dearly.
âWe havenât talked all dayâ he pouted and you raised your eyebrow at him.
He rolled his eyes at you, his strong arms still around you âmhmâ he hummed vaguely.
âJames.â You said sternly at his reaction, you knew that your reasons for keeping your relationship a secret were, to him, ridiculous.
âSorry, I justâ I mean, are you okay with it? Being a secret?â He asked with genuine concern in his voice and face. He didnât meant it as it sounded, you know that because you just know him so well: you werenât the secret but that is exactly what people are saying âJamesâs secret girlfriendâ and that is what worries him.
âIf I tell you a secret you wonât laugh?â
He shook his head almost immediately âneverâ he gasped and your serious expression cracked into a big wide smile.
You step on your tiptoes leaning into his ear âit excites meâ you joked and he snorted, and it wasnât such a joke. You liked the feeling of being on the edge of being discovered and you still didnât knew how to tell your friends, but most of all you liked having him for yourself, having all of this just for you two.
âYeah, that makes two of usâ he joked back, whispering.
You kissed him softly for a minute before it turned into a more hungry kiss, you were impossibly close and it wouldâve continued like that if you didnât pull apart with a questioning look on your face.
âAre you flexing your muscles?â You asked incredulously and Jamesâs face went bright red before you burst in laughter âJames! Why would you do that!â You said hysterically laughing at him and his stupid need to always amuse you.
âShut upâ he frowned before shutting your giggles with his lips.