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INGREDIENTS

1 cup frozen, mixed berries (i used strawberries, red grapes and cranberries)

1 cup frozen pineapple chunks

1 teaspoon manuka / normal honey

+ 400 ml of cranberry juice (adjust this depending on how thick/thin you like your smoothies 💕 i like mine quite diluted)

disclaimer : this is my personal opinion, and my own approach to ana/wl - ur free to disagree, everyone starts and progresses from different places w different attitudes.

FOOD is not the enemy. you can still enjoy eating, cooking, baking etc and still have ana. personally, i’ve always loved cooking for those i love. for a long period of time, i distanced myself from that aspect of myself, due to my ana, out of fear. since i’ve allowed myself to find enjoyment in it without guilt, i’ve felt so much better. yes, i am still hyper conscious of what i’m eating, how many cals i’m consuming and my macros- but that’s my responsibility to deal with.

since i’ve shifted my focus from avoiding food, to finding recipes and drinks i can enjoy, i’ve been finding so much more joy in the process of wl, and in having ana overall. don’t get me wrong, i’m undoubtedly still under-eating, fasting and avoiding certain foods; but i think the relationship we have with food is important, wether it’s positive or negative- and shifting your mindset to one that’s going to benefit you is what’s important. breeding fear and guilt in association w eating and food in general is what undoubtedly prevents a lot of us from recovering, or actually losing weight- due to the binge cycle guilt often introduces.

i had a decent meal before hand bc my sister cooked and we had some family over so i still feel pretty full ngl.

“ she was nothing more than a vision trick / under the warning light “

“ tell me where’s ur hiding place? / im worried i’ll forget ur face “

“ the only flaw / u r flawless ”

“ you’ve been on my mind so long ,

so long i can’t deal with it ”

“ til you lift me off the floor ,