THE LADY OF CHAINS

feel free 2 change pronouns & such

tw for death / guns mention.

❛stress out? no. stress in. internalize that shit & tell no one.❜

❛‘don’t be a bitter bitch be a better bitch’ haha that’s where you’re mistaken fool i can multitask & will excel at both❜

❛i will not apologize for being devastatingly beautiful!!!!❜

❛me? constantly afraid of being abandoned & replaced? hell yes❜

❛it may seem like i’m a sarcastic asshole 24/7, but i’m actually only a sarcastic asshole 18/7 because at night i actually have feelings.❜

❛she knocked that smug look off my face but luckily i was wearing a second, smaller smug look underneath

❛‘you look mean!’ bitch i am mean. bye❜

❛me?? using sarcasm as a defense mechanism???????? what?????❜

❛‘i expected better from you’ well that was your fault lmao i got nothing to do with that❜

❛long lasting results of trauma? in my mental health? it’s more likely than you think❜

❛i hate it when people ask ‘do you trust me’ like… don’t call me out like that…… the answer is no❜

❛is that a gun in your pocket or are you just… oh shit that’s a gun.❜

❛hmm, good point, but have you ever considered: eat my ass????❜

❛i need a gf who will go ufo hunting with me❜

❛am i bitter? yes. but do i try to move on & let go of past anger? well, actually, no❜

❛my zodiac? im a dumbass. moon in dramatic bitch❜

❛sometimes ‘brb’ stands for ‘be ready bitch’ so you have to be careful❜

❛my biggest dream is to calm down❜

❛demonic possession is allowed but keep it classy, sexy, you know how it is❜

❛break her bed not her heart❜

❛sexting? nah. i’m into spexting. spooky texting. ever seen a ghost? hmu.❜

❛can i be stopped? absolutely not❜

❛where’s my ghibli moment?? not the cute one, i mean the one where a wild girl tries to stab me in the neck and i dramatically mumble from the dirt ‘you’re beautiful’ up at her❜

❛there are only two genders: monster fuckers & cowards❜

❛you hate me? wow u think ur hot shit & original huh well i hated me first so u can grab a number & wait ur turn❜

     " you do the unthinkable.  were you proud of yourself?  do you think you did good?  did it surprise you when word spread of the soft-hearted dragon who would not guard her gold with fire and blood?  did it shock you when greed made men flock to you like moths to a flame?  and rather than engulf them in the cleansing fire, what did you do then?  the flame sputtered…  and went out. “

     ” luvander, you stand accused of cowardice.  of pity.  of mercy.  for this crime, we must cast you out.  we children of urath are graced with the gift to disguise our glory, to take the form of the chattel in our charge and walk freely among them.  but henceforth this brittle body will be your prison.  your glory.  your birthright.  locked away behind chains of your own forging!  you will suffer hunger.  you will suffer wounds.  you will suffer the cold and the dark.  by fire and by blood.  by mother dawn and father darkness.  you.  are.  bound. “

     ” no…  NO!! “

You will always fall in love, and it will always be like having your throat cut, just that fast.

You are going to break your promise. I understand.

You’re lonely too.

It will stop your breath, how cruel I can be.

I am a demanding creature. I am selfish and cruel and extremely unreasonable.

I am your servant.

I crawl at your feet; for before your love, your kisses, I am debased.

For you alone I will be weak.

I belong here, and you will not deny me.

I say these things, and the world listens.

I do not tolerate a world emptied of you. I have tried.

In the dark, I have pored over the loss of you like pale gold.

I will not let her speak because I love her, and when you love someone, you do not make them tell war stories.

I moved the earth and the water for you.

You will always run away with her.

You will always lose her.

You will always be a fool.

You will always be dead, in a city of ice, snow falling into your ear.

You have already done all of this and will do it again.

No one should be judged for loving more than they ought, only for loving not enough.

We look terrible to you, and severe, and you see our blood flying.

What we carry between us is hard-won, and we made it just as we wished it to be, just the color, just the shape.

There need never be any rules between us.

Let us be greedy together; let us hoard.

Do not leave me, swear that you will never leave me.

I am selfish. I am cruel. My mate cannot be less than I.

Sleep with fists closed and shoot straight.

I can’t abide a poor liar.

You look like a winter’s night. I could sleep inside the cold of you.

Oh, quit that. Blushing is for virgins and Christians.

Scold me; deny me. Tell me you want what you want and damn me forever. But don’t leave me.

Bad luck relies on absolutely perfect timing.

In his own country, Death can be kind.

What is the world but a boxing ring where fools and devils put up their fists?

Men die. It’s practically what they’re for.

I am no one; I am nothing.

Nothing in me was not made by you.

A revelation is always the end of something. It might even be cause for grief.

Just tell yourself a story that’ll satisfy you and pretend he told it.

Forever isn’t bright; it isn’t like that. Forever is cold and hard and final.

I savor bitterness - it is born of experience. It is the privilege of one who has truly lived.

If you want to kill yourself, do not use us as your knife.

What did I do wrong? Was I boring? Did I ignore you?

Don’t you dare speak to me like that.

I have worn nothing but blood and death for years.

I have fought all your battles for you, just as you asked me.

I have learned not to cry when I strangle a man.

I have learned to watch everything die.

I am not a little girl anymore, dazzled by your magic. It is my magic, now, too.

Are we not devils?

No one is now what they were before the war.

I have not seen you without your skin on.

Close up your head; your brain is getting loose.

We obsess. It’s in our nature.

I’ve a devil of a habit for being right.

In war you must always choose sides.

If you try to be a bridge laid down between them, they will tear you in half.

We are all dead. All equal. Broken and aimless and believing we are alive.

My old bones will follow yours soon enough.

It is better to be strong and cruel than to be fair.

I will see him with his skin off before I agree to fall in love.

After love, no one is what they were before.

I have survived, but I have not been spared.

In the space of one heartbeat to another I loved you and I was lost to you.

Frighten me, make me cry, only come back.

It’s not so bad, my darling. Being dead. It’s like being alive, only colder.

You’ll think it’s love, while he dines on your heart.

You will be so beautiful when you are old.

I cannot keep you and I cannot let you go.

You will live as you live in any world…with difficulty, and grief.

I look at you and it is like my throat being cut.

She said you’d come and I swore to eat your heart.

I still want to kiss you.

My heart is being cut in two. I cannot bear it.

What happens to anything beautiful?

a long way gone is a novel by ishmael beah. 

‘ none of what happened was your fault. ’

‘ i don’t have much, but i will give you a place to sleep, food, and my love. ’ 

‘ come with me to the kitchen for some food. ’

‘ do you want to lie down? ’

‘ this is going to hurt. ’

‘ you are my son. ’

‘ how did you get these scars? ’

‘ you can go if you want to, but i suggest that you stay in bed tonight. ’ 

‘ come back tomorrow so that i can change the bandage. ’

‘ thank you for coming to see me. ’ 

‘ would you like to tell me about it? ’

‘ you look hungry. ’

‘ i’ll bring you some food, and please, take your time. ’

‘ how do you like being here? ’

‘ i was never disappointed, since i always expected the worst to happen. ’

‘ you were just a little boy, and anytime you want to tell me anything, i am here to listen. ’

‘ like i said, we cannot go back. but we can start from here. ’

‘ i’d wake up sweating and throwing punches in the air. ’

‘ so i couldn’t bring myself to be completely happy. ’

‘ you’ll get through this. ’ 

‘ you are lucky. ’

‘ how long have i been here? ’

‘ you have a great smile, you should smile more. ’

‘ i had this dream last night. ’

‘ in the sky there are always answers and explanations for everything: every pain, every suffering, joy, and confusion. ’ 

‘ i was worried about living with a family. ’

‘ are you sure you want to be friends with me? ’

‘ i had learned to survive and take care of myself. ’

‘ if you are alive, there is hope for a better day and something good to happen. ’ 

‘ people don’t trust each other anymore. ’

‘ they have lost everything that makes them human. ’