okay, hereโs a 12 year update to no one:
lots of yโall were pedophiles and I was stupid to not know that as a teenager. i was miserable, i was lonely, i was sad. i wanted to die every day.
i have the love of my life now, but iโm still a loser. iโm always drunk and high, im lazy, im unsuccessful. i was never an artist, i was never able to finish my 4 year degree, I never got into the fashion industry. iโm too sexual, iโm too heavy, iโm too useless, iโm too boring, iโm too quiet. iโm too good for you.
i just worked and fell in love and got hurt and self harmed and faded out. i felt everything all at once and i could never handle it. sometimes i still canโt handle it.
but i am loved. i am loved. i am fucked up but i am loved. and i donโt need anyone else before that lied to me, that made me believe they cared.
fuck you.
and i love you. xx












