Lunar

#entry 85

i never thought it would end this way.

#entry 84

call me stupid, call me sad. you are the best i have ever had.

#entry 83

i adore you.

#entry 82

i can't love myself, no one can. all my life i was the outcast. the fat kid, the weird kid, the nerd... at first i thought it was not me but, in time i understand there was no way that everyone around me was problematic. i was the problem. i wasn't funny, i wasn't beautiful, i wasn't smart. i tried to change it. i tried to lose weight, i studied, i talked less and listened more but it didn't change anything. some people are just don't deserve happiness i guess. no matter how beautiful my makeup is, how good my clothes look, how high my grades are i don't deserve being happy. it is a part of me and i can't change it. embracing sadness don't do anything good. i just need to stop caring about myself. eventually i will die and all this pain and suffering will be over.

#entry 81

call me by your name, and i'll call you by mine.

#entry 80

let's fuck everything tonight

turn the music as loud as it gets

dance 'till our bodies cant take it anymore

live like it's our last night on earth

love like we can't again.

then tomorrow,

start over like tonight never happened.

#entry 74

stolen paradise, summer.