Update
Hi! This is awkward only because I havenāt used this thing in years but some my muscle memory is returning when navigating through this site again despite the changes.
Iām sorry for anyone who left me messages over the years whether via asks or asking me things privately and me not responding to them. A lot has happened to me since the last time I was active on tumblr. I explained some of the reasons why I was inactive on twitter if you followed me on that account. And even on twitter I took a long unannounced hiatus because of real life reasons.Ā Heavy ones.Ā And even when I returned back to twitter, I had aĀ lotĀ more unexpected and heavy real life things happen to me. I had periods of just hurting. And I needed time to adjust to how things shifted and were going to shift in my life then. And if anyone by any chance tried to find me on twitter, you may have noticed I locked my account. I have my reasons for it, but I personally canāt look at it anymore without feeling sick to my stomach.
Iāve been in a much better place since then. A place where I donāt force myself to act happy when I feel the exact opposite. And strolling through how I spoke on here in the past, highlighted how much it wasnāt really me. Just forced peppiness and trying too hard to be funny. As I said on my old twitter, Iām not the same person as I was before. Iāve changed and if people dislike that, I canāt do anything about it. Iām me and I want to genuinely beĀ me.Ā I now understand you canāt make everyone happy, and even if you try, youāre just going to stress yourself sick by doing so. And Iām sure as heck not going down that road again whether dealing with people offline or online. But I'm thinking about coming back on here to post art again even if it's crossposting from my new twitter account. I feel like I'm going to have to tidy things up here first. I really want to delete everything but I kind of don't want to because it shows where I used to be skill wise with art. But that's basically the abridged version.
