thinking about hyunsuk's beauty

Johnny said that their hair doesn't have to be healthy it just has to look great. It had me thinking.

It's the same being an idol. Some people don't care about your health as long as you look great. Most idols don't talk about their mental health because some of their "fans" shit on them for it. Calling them all sorts of insulting things .

And these insane beauty standards. Like how can you expect all female idols to have the same weight. Taller people have to weigh more than their shorter group members to be considered healthy. How do you expect an 170 - 178cm to have the same weight as their 150-169cm group members??

Are they fucking insane?????

45-50kg isn't healthy for people over 155cm tall(depending on the weight of their skeleton) . And to think that idols that are 160-175cm are forced to be that weight or the public calls them fat and ugly and tells them that they don't deserve to be idols because they're not the "ideal" weight. No matter how long they trained, how hard they've worked, how talented they are.

And the fact that all idols need to be pale because it's part of the beauty standards. The idols are throwing away their childhood, their privacy, their love live, to do something they love, and the can't even be their natural skin colour.

Idols sacrifice so much of their lives and people literally shit on them for the littlest, stupid, unnecessary shit.

Irene read a book written by a feminist, got shit on for it. Lia can't do that genuinely hard shoulder thing well in Wannabe, gets called lazy and people say she can't sing. Beautiful, talented Chaeryoung doesn't fit the beauty standards, gets told to leave the group after all her hard work and training. Hwasa doesn't fit the beauty standards and disregards the "ideal" weight and body type, got told to leave the group by the public multiple times despite obviously being very talented. Kyle being bullied out of Priston because of her weight. Jennie doesn't smile all the time, gets called a bitch and is "rude".

People underestimated Bangtan and looked down on them thinking that they wouldn't get anywhere but look at them now. Namjoon and Hoseok got told to leave the group because they "don't look good enough" despite the talent the they possessed, the love they have for performing. People out here saying Bangtan don't deserve all the success they're getting, when they worked so hard to have their efforts seen.

There are alot more examples of this absolute bullshittery. I personally think there is nothing wrong with having an idol persona in an industry that treats its idols like this. If it keeps you from getting hated on by nitpicking people who literally will hate on you for anything and everything you do. Then do it.

I just hope that people will treat idols like actual people in the near future. That idols would be more confident and comfortable with themselves. And not have these insane beauty standards pressure on to them. I hope idols will get to be themselves and live their life.

Because it's their life to live....

I love them all ok??

Tldr: An erotic masterpiece

My review of libidO.

Okay so it starts with the song sparking up, the fire inside igniting quietly but quickly it grows. The beat continues this feeling in a stalking pace mixed with a heart beat pulse, racing - raising. "Want you to sing on ma body" can also sound "I wanna see you on my body", mixing a deeply romantic lustful desire which is beautifully sung. But also you can take "Sing on ma body" more sexually as a sound one makes. The vocals here are like a voice echoing the hearts wants, then the body awakens and the hunt continues.

It has a robotic like sound with the "libidO" part as well, like it's automatic machine playing, it's programmed this way. It's natural. An added whisper before chorus is like the inner selfs mind being quietend by true desire, saying sssh let it take over. With the final "Sing on ma body", it's like the song has taken place between a breath. My heart is definitely racing.

It has moments with the "shooting shooting" lines and piano, of like a drop feeling like you're in an empty space and I love that as its magical I get shivers, but also adds to the effect of the tiny but so tense moments of gulping whilst wanting air before it pulls you back to the heat. Like lighting and fire dancing in water. Isn't it so unbearable? The bright scary light, it burns your eyes and boils your blood suddenly thrown into a icey cold ocean drowning you, only holding on because you can breathe. Oh delicious.

The lyrics also point to having these thoughts at night, isn't that always the case? When the mind is by itself, it talks to the heart. Adding to the empty space feeling and the hearts want forming fantasies in the mind. The quickening pace mixed with the slower moments. Rising blood pressure, sweat, body heat. Hunting your own self thinking about that special person while you struggle with yourself. Leave it. libidO.

I think even without the video, this song is so clear, you don't get to decide what it is. It's amazingly perfect in its purpose. The natural pure fear and excitement of desire. A masterpiece, made even more amazing by the cinematic MV and sensual dance. I'm addicted.

I also appreciate how extra amazing this is because of conservative Korea. Like even the cover for the album is like an older (as in before 2000s) male model catalog. Did I say I was addicted? Hehe~

(disclaimer: this strictly about the mv and in no way I’m implying these dynamics are translated to real life and their friendships if u suggest that ill kick you, don’t ship real ppl romantically pls)

A/N: Not requested but really wanted to write for them. 

Yonghoon: 

Yonghoon had the voice of an angel and he knew it. Not that he was cocky about it at all. But you had always wanted to learn how to sing and he took on the task without an issue. He always wondered what it’d be like to make music together and sing together. 

“Hit the note a little higher.” He said, watching you in full fascination as your face contorted. You hit it perfectly, the note higher being the right key to do so and he smiled in satsifaction, nodded too. “Perfect student for a perfect teacher.” He said and you smacked his chest. “You’re too much sometimes Yonghoon.” You said and he smiled. “Well, I’m allowed to be too much sometimes. I’m your teacher.” He joked and pinched your cheek lightly. 

“Now let’s sing again. This time together.” 

Harin: 

Normally if you were sat in his lap other activities would be happening, but not this time. This time he was serious and caring as guided your hands. It was cool to him that you wanted to learn how to play the drums. 

“You just got to build a steady rhythm before you add other things to it.” He said, kissing your shoulder lightly as he helped you balance the kick drum beat and the drumsticks hitting the cymbal and other drum. It was a lot to have control over, so you had no problems with him guiding you. Besides, it was a nice excuse for him to hold you too. “There you go, just hold that rhythm. I have the kick drum.” He let go of your arms, kind of like riding a bike for the first time. However it was a matter of seconds before you messed up and started laughing in embarrassment. 

“That’s okay, you’re practicing. Let’s just do it again.” 

Kanghyun/Hyungu: 

(He’s bias wrecking me help)

He couldn’t help but keep his eyes on your hand as you fiddled with the strings on his acoustic guitar. Your hands were gorgeous but none of the sounds coming out were right. 

“Come here.” Hyungu said and pulled you towards him. “You need to put pressure here and here to hit that chord.” He explained and moved your hand to follow his instructions. “You were triggered that I was messing up on your guitar weren’t you?” You asked with a little laugh as you played the chord. “Just a little.” He smiled, listening as you took his direction. You adjusted the way you sat on his bed, moving the guitar before playing a series of chords that sounded half right. 

“Getting the hang of it already.” 

Dongmyeong: 

Dongmyeong always thought it would be awesome to teach you how to play keyboard, but every time you both seemed to get distracted by other things. But not today, he was very determined to get you to be able to kind of sort of play one song. 

“Come on, stretch your hand out and reach that other key.” He said and and couldn’t help laugh at your struggle. Your hand s not being used to the movement a skilled piano player is. “I swear my hand keeps cramping up.” You said and he laughed. “Told you playing wasn’t easy.” He said and grabbed your hand massaging it gently. “I never said it was.” You said and leaned over the keyboard to get closer to him as he massaged your hand. Dongmyeong looked you in the eyes before tapping your nose. 

“Now try again.” 

Cya/Giwook: 

Giwook holds music close to his heart but he also holds you close to his heart. He just thought it would be beautiful if he could combine the two so when you asked if he could teach you how to play bass, he was over the moon. 

“Okay so I just-” You started, moving your fingers over the chords. “Yeah, that’s a good start.” He laughed and helped you out. “Now just start picking at the chords, get a good feel of it.” He said and listened as you did what he asked, trying to get into the feel of playing bass. Giwook was a smiling mess, watching you and you obviously noticed. “What?” You asked, stopping to look at him. 

“Nothing, just keep going you’re doing great.”