Fashionably Dead

Now, sometimes these thoughts in my head speak so loud Every little thing that I think about just built on top of the pain and doubt Even though I wanna just let it out, I Try to act like I don't mind it, try to keep my mouth so quiet But sittin' there in my silence, just seems to amplify it When I thought that keepin' this inside would make it better I never thought that I would end up ruining it forever But every time I think, I got everything put back together I end up making more regrets, making more regrets Falling from grace, I watch it all come apart Knowing I could've changed it all from the start Fighting myself, I always lose #throwbackthursday https://www.instagram.com/p/CqbDUlyOdUO/?igshid=NGJjMDIxMWI=

Yeah, I got voices in my head again, tread carefully And I don't medicate, it helps me temporarily I got problems, I got issues, yeah, apparently Trauma that I'm burying, I think I need some therapy I battle depression, I'm back with a message I'm asking the question that if you hate me, why you acting obsessive? I'm past the point of no return, fuck being passive aggressive I'll brandish a weapon, teach all you motherfuckers a lesson I actually battle my demons and shadows They swim in the deep and they creep in the shallows, I'm lost I gotta admit that I'm living the life that I've always wanted But it comes at a cost They're licking their chops, they're fixing to rip me apart I'm swimming with sharks I'm lifting the bar, I'm lifting it into the stars I'm like a shot of adrenaline mixed with some Ritalin You started a battle, but bitch, I'mma finish it You think you can stop me? Not even a little bit Nowadays everybody's so sensitive Taking my words and you pick it apart Tripping on nothing, just get in the car Gripping and ripping, I'm sticking the mark I'm tipping the ch-ch-ch-ch-ch-ch-charts https://www.instagram.com/p/CqbCLowud6a/?igshid=NGJjMDIxMWI=

Bury all your secrets in my skin Come away with innocence, and leave me with my sins The air around me still feels like a cage And love is just a camouflage for what resembles rage again So, if you love me, let me go And run away before I know My heart is just too dark to care I can't destroy what isn't there Deliver me into my fate If I'm alone I cannot hate I don't deserve to have you Ooh, my smile was taken long ago If I can change I hope I never know I still press your letters to my lips And cherish them in parts of me that savor every kiss I couldn't face a life without your light (without your light) But all of that was ripped apart when you refused to fight So, save your breath, I will not hear I think I made it very clear You couldn't hate enough to love Is that supposed to be enough? I only wish you weren't my friend Then I could hurt you in the end I never claimed to be a saint Ooh, my own was banished long ago It took the death of hope to let you go Oh, oh So, break yourself against my stones And spit your pity in my soul You never needed any help You sold me out to save yourself And I won't listen to your shame You ran away, you're all the same Angels lie to keep control Ooh, my love was punished long ago If you still care, don't ever let me know If you still care, don't ever let me know https://www.instagram.com/p/CqYREYnu1Wa/?igshid=NGJjMDIxMWI=

Sometimes, sometimes you don't say goodbye once You say goodbye over and over and over again Over and over and over again Sometimes, sometimes you don't say goodbye once You say goodbye over and over and over again Over and over and over again It was a month since he passed, maybe less And no one knew what to do, we were such a mess We were texting, we were calling, we were checking in We said we ought to play a show in honor of our friend Well now that show's finally here, it's tonight Supposed to go to the bowl, get on stage, dim the lights With our friends and our family, in his name, celebrate There's no way that I'll be ready to get back up on that stage Can't remember if I've cancelled any show But I think about what I'm supposed to do and I don't know https://www.instagram.com/p/CqYQH0AOESK/?igshid=NGJjMDIxMWI=

en Hotel Condesa Lux https://www.instagram.com/p/CqV711QOZaf/?igshid=NGJjMDIxMWI=

My new friend. (at Playa Condesa) https://www.instagram.com/p/CqRJTPCusgr/?igshid=NGJjMDIxMWI=

#timelapsevideo #acapulcomexico #acapulcobeach https://www.instagram.com/p/CqQzVtTuWs-/?igshid=NGJjMDIxMWI=

Sunset https://www.instagram.com/p/CqQpMCFOk2t/?igshid=NGJjMDIxMWI=

at Hotel Condesa Lux https://www.instagram.com/p/CqQpHWouC9p/?igshid=NGJjMDIxMWI=

The way of water has no beginning and no end. Our hearts beat in the womb of the world. The sea is your home, before your birth and after your death. The sea gives and the sea takes. #TheWayOfWater (at Acapulco, Guerrero) https://www.instagram.com/p/CqLgE9FuqYE/?igshid=NGJjMDIxMWI=

at Playa Condesa https://www.instagram.com/p/CqHB_nLuW-D/?igshid=NGJjMDIxMWI=

at Acapulco, Guerrero https://www.instagram.com/p/CqG65QvOJNU/?igshid=NGJjMDIxMWI=

Anywhere but home (at Hotel Condesa Lux) https://www.instagram.com/p/CqGSUUCOraK/?igshid=NGJjMDIxMWI=

#Bayonetta #BayonettaOrigins #cerezaandthelostdemon #NintendoSwitch #Cheshire #Morgana #Rosa #Jeanne https://www.instagram.com/p/Cp_H7vvuFQP/?igshid=NGJjMDIxMWI=

#Bayonetta #cerezaandthelostdemon #nintendoswitch https://www.instagram.com/p/Cp0vq35OXsX/?igshid=NGJjMDIxMWI=