你的微笑是甜蜜的。

Areyou still the same as always? Have you finished your studies yet?Have you become a doctor? Are you still as single as always? How areyou? Do you eat well? Sleep well? Are you healthy? Do you still watchanime? How is L? Have you learned from your mistakes?

Ihope for yourself that you will find true happiness and have found aplace of your own as you get older. Don’t ever give up and stay trueto yourself. Have you come to the terms that you can accept yourselffor who you are?

Ijust want to tell you, no matter what happens in life you must go on.You have to do it for yourself, just bear with it if it’s too hard onyou sometimes. If there is people in your life that make you feelless of what you are, hold the door open for them and let them out ofyour life. Stop being so hard on yourself and don’t try to be perfectat everything you do.

Thereis always going to be people that will dislike you no matter what andI want you to accept it. You can’t always do the right thing foreveryone, but maybe you should do the thing you think is right.Perhaps open up to people some more? Are you still friends withpeople you consider great/best friends? Even if you aren’t I hope youhave found a new/the usual circle of great people in your life.

Keepmoving forward. Don’t ever give up. Try to achieve your dreams andeverything you want to achieve in life

Don’toverthink so much like you usually do. Get rid of all those negativeand bad habits you have. Be your own pillar of strength. Find truehappiness.

Haveyou found someone you want to spend your life with? Are you good tothem? Don’t try to upset so much, I know how you are when you are ina bad mood and lose your temper. If you don’t make them happy I willcome from the past and kick your ass. Don’t ruin anything great inyour life.

Howold are you now that you are reading this letter? Do you have anychildren? Probably not… I doubt someone hates themself enough to bewith you. But do you have more dogs now? Did you find a girlfriendfor L? Has he had any kids yet? Do you have 500 puppies yet???

Haveyou helped patients yet? Did you save peoples life? Are you a gooddoctor? Have you doubts gone away? Can you live with the fact thatyou can’t be a help to everyone? Is it sad being used to haveseen everything that can happen in a hospital?

Ijust want to apologize in advance that I upset you or that you had togo through pain because of any stupid decision I have made. I amlooking forward to being you one day. 加油!

We'veknown each so long. I know we met when both of us....let me phrase itlike this: our dark past should not be spoken of. Anyway, I am reallyglad you decided to sent me a meme that day? Even though we startedof obviously awkward and all I think we got past that after a while.

Wewere best friends for so long, I still remember that time as if itwere yesterday. I wish we could go back to the time (us being bestfriends, that is; not the other stuff that happened years ago). Imean mostly it's because I can't keep up with conversations anddecide to reply after a whole month but! Anyways, if we could back totimes like that, it'd be great. Only if you want to, though.

Youwere/are one of the friends that I used to tell everything to? Wewere just so comfortable with each other and we were almost the sameperson? I don't know I just really miss us and our friendship somuch.

Istill remember when I used to call you hyung and we'd be really cutefriends and we'd always support each other and fuck someone else upif they were being rude to either of us? We always got our backs.Also our inside jokes and whatever were so great? I don't know I justreally miss the past. Hyung what's an ochinchin? It sounds yummy.

Iam glad though that we are talking again even if it's not as much asbefore but let us change that soon. You were always there for me andI just want to say I am always there for you too. If you need helpwith anyhting I am going to be there, just ask me. I will be alwayson your side when you are right or if you are in the wrong I willpunch your face and tell you you are being a douche right now, but Iexpect you to do the same. (I know for sure though that you will nothesitate to punch me „:p“)

Hopewe can watch horror movies and other kind of movies soon too, I am alittle less busy now because I have break from Uni! Also I wish youeverything good in life.

Ireally have no idea what to write anymore just know that I miss you,a lot. Remember when you said we are going to be best friendsforever? Yeah. I still do.

Iam really sorry I do not reply that often or forget to reply for afew days, most of the time I just can't keep up, not in the mood ortired/didn't see the message. Don't ever think it's because I do notlike you or am ignoring you or anything, I do that so often and I amsincerely sorry and apologize to you (and anyone else I have donethis to). I am just very bad at keeping up if I have too manyconversations going on.

Justknow that I love you a lot and wish we could be as close again! Let'shave another round of CAH soon. And talk about SMTM and other things.

Actuallyinstead of motiviating me to write these letters I am really focusedon listening to Fairy Tail OSTs. But okay, all the jokes aside, Igotta do this now. I really have no idea where to start and begin,have I ever written a letter to you before? I am pretty sure I have,yes. I also know what you think of me. Because of all the lettersyou’ve written to/about me.

Youare a very good friend. I think you know that already but maybe I donot say it enough? I don’t really know. I’ve known you for thelongest time and there are periods of time where we do not talk atall or that we talk all the time. Am I selfish if I ask that thelatter would be a great thing?

Eventhough we’ve been knowing each other for a long time, I wish to getto know you even better? I want to know a lot about you and I wantyou to be comfortable with me as well! I want us to be the greatestfriends there is. I do not ever want to see you being sad or angsty,it just kills my vibe.

Youdeserve all the great things in the world! Really. I am not lying. Iwish you all the best in life and hope that you find true happinessone day. And I would love to be still in your life when everything isfull of bliss, no tears (other than happy ones) and no angst! Unlessyou are watching your usual angsty TV series that you like so much.

Ihave no idea how to make you happy other than maybe cracking jokesfrom time to time when you are sad but I wish I could be a help orthat I could make you smile or anything alike. I really wish us to bebetter friends in the future, actually very soon to be honest. I wishyou could open up to me more so I can be by your side when you don’tfeel well and are selective with your conversations. You are justvery precious to me.

Andstop teasing me with „I bet you say that to all your Soojungs“.Why is every single Soojung I know mean to me? Okay, I admit, I onlyknow two but those are enough in my life to make it a living hell….Kidding.

Youare that precious to me that I would even watch „Her“ with you,even 20 times! But after that we have to watch anime… Also thankyou for saying that I am like Nozaki, I think so as well! Just Imight be a little less clueless and oblivious as him though.

Iknow you identify yourself with Suzume but in the end she wasn’t thatangsty anymore an I hope you are not either. Hope that you havefound/will find your Mamura but I also hope that you are happywithout a relationship.

The45 minute video of the best OSTs of FT is ending in about 10 minutesand I can’t believe I spent almost 30 minutes writing this. And it’snot even good. Well, for my defense I was never good at talking aboutmy feelings or writing letters. I hope you have a nice night today(because the day is about to end) but could you please reply to me,Jung Soojung? Stop ignoring me!!!

WhenI look back I don’t really know what I should feel. All I hope that Iwill never forget my true intentions of anything in life ever andstay true to myself as well. I know I was immature and childish allthat time, I still am. But I got at least a little bit of mature now.I wish back then I could’ve told you that everything gets better,that you will someday be content with yourself and stop worryingabout yourself, others and everything else all the time. I’ve gainedexperience that will always will stay with me, why weren’t you awareof that before? People come and go, you should know that very well.But each and every of them are a small or big lesson in your life.

Thereis still so much that is yet to resolve but you shouldn’t have beenworried about your future so much. Yes, I am still afraid like I wasback then but it’s getting better with time. Maybe it’s because I amgetting older and more wiser as time passes? Who knows. All I knowthat I’ve got to believe in myself because there is nobody else thatwill do it for me.

Youshould know that when we entered the first year of college you gotover her, you barely even think of her. Though, if we were ever tofall again, we’d fall pretty hard once again, wouldn’t we? It doesn’tmatter now anymore, though. You know one thing for sure: Life goeson. And it always will, it doesn’t matter if alone or with otherpeople in your life. You gotta adapt to it. That’s life.

Wouldyou have thought that you were going to meet so many amazing peoplein the future? Because I did, there are some people that are veryprecious to me and I never plan to let them go… at least not sosoon. You should be thankful of everything you had or have in life,you will never know when life takes a turn. For the worse or thebetter, nobody can say for sure.

Didyou know that by the time of your 19thbirthday you would’ve chosen a path for yourself yet? Being a doctor,that is. Or at least, wanting to become one. You should’ve reallystudied better in highschool, it’s such a pain in the ass to studymedicine. Maybe it’s just because I am not smart enough or is itbecause I am lazy? Or maybe it’s just the fact that I can’t getanything done like back then because everything has to be perfect?Every little detail? Yeah, I haven’t changed at all. Most of thetraits are still there.

Youare also totally the same just like back then about one certainthing: talking about your feelings and opening up to people.Why am I like this? I ask myself almost every day but there is no certain answer.Will there ever be? It could be because I am an aries/taurus cusp.

Thereare many things I want to say yet I don’t know how to write aboutthem. Maybe another time.