This is Ludo Okana

Because the situation is that Peter will probably never commit to me.

Because the situation is that Reid is not the one.

Peter and I are VERY compatible but Reid and I have more chemistry.

I feel financially provided and safe with Peter.

I feel more emotionally connected and cared for by Reid.

It's complicated because I need both compatibility and chemistry.

I need to feel both protected and provided for.

I'm not worried. It'll all work out.

"Don't you feel lonely in your own little world?"

She Whispered:

Dear Peter,

I wish I could have you forever.

I wish we could get married, have a family, and live in the country side. I want to live my dream life with you. I want to be by your side.

The truth is, I’ve never loved someone more and I’m not sure that I’ll ever love someone more. I’ve never felt so connected and in-tune with someone. The chemistry is undeniable. You understand me.

You are my twin flame. My other half. A part of my soul that’s missing.

I know I was meant to meet you and be reunited with you. To learn the ultimate lesson of love: self love.

You trigger deep wounds and emotions in me. Do I do the same for you?

You’ve helped me grow and evolve into this version of myself that I’m so proud of— and you don’t know it. You’re not aware.

It might be a secret I’ll hold onto forever. You are so special to me.

No matter what happens. No matter what you choose to do with us, I will understand. I will love you regardless. How could I not?

You’ve given me so much.

I’ve learned how to truly love myself. I feel heard and seen. Even though “we” aren’t forever, I will hold you in my heart forever. You have always been a part of me and will always be with me.

How will you feel when all of this comes to an end? Will you miss me?

Did I touch you like you touched me? Do I mean as much to you as you do to me?

I’ll never know.

But I want you to know: I love you.

I love you.

I love you a million times.

And when this comes to an end my heart will shatter into a million pieces and I will never be the same. But don’t worry. I will be okay because I’m stronger now. Thanks to you.

Maybe you’ll marry some East Asian girl. Maybe I’ll marry a man that looks nothing like you. Life goes on.

But I will always think of you. Like how I’ve thought of you everyday for the five years we were separated.

Oh! I’m so lucky.

I’m so lucky that I get to be with you one last time in the greatest city in the world.

One last time to celebrate our unique love.