10. When was the last time you cried?
Lucius hadnât cried in a long time. Not since he was a kid. Heâd learned to bury his feelings. He knew from his childhood that no amount of crying would fix anything. Plus he was Lucius Malfoy, it was an image to uphold, a sort of character he played. He didnât even know what was the real him and what was just an act anymore. Part of him enjoyed it, but he knew he didnât have any real friends, nobody that he could truly trust.
His childhood had been a world of opposites. On one hand, his mother had never gone a day without showing him affection. Telling him how perfect he was, catering to his every whim. She was almost too much. She loved him too unconditionally. Like she only saw a perfect version of him, not the real flawed version of him. He had to be the perfect son for her. She held him in such high expectations, than he was so scared that he would ruin that image. Scared that sheâd see who he really was. This was why he was so determined to find himself a suitable wife. Lucius himself wasnât sure heâd ever understand how to properly share his life with someone. It seemed almost cruel to drag someone in to his cold, lonely world but it would make his mother happy. She was the only person whoâd truly cared about him and he couldnât loose that.Â
His father was almost the polar opposite of his mother. Lucius had come to wonder whether or not his father had ever loved him. Heâd never been around the house much when Lucius was younger, and that had only got worse lately. As a kid he used to rush in to his fatherâs office only for the door to be slammed in his face. Heâd spent too many years trying to follow his father round, begging for his attention. The last time he cried was the first time heâd learnt to ride a broom. It was a rare weekend when his father was at home, he was so excited to show him, prove that he was worth something. His father had been sat out in the garden and Lucius had run out with his broom, shouting over to his father to watch. âDid you see that father, did you see that, I can do itâ heâd said excitedly as he turned to face his father, who was too busy reading whatever letter heâd just opened, âyes, yes, very goodâ his father had said, brushing him off. Lucius had ran back to his room, throwing his broom in to the corner, tears falling down his face. Heâd promised himself that it was the last time he would cry over his father and it was. Now they only contact they had was when his father would send him money or buy him gifts, like that made up for his lack of affection.



















