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Seungho has experienced the worst kind of child abuse the guise of conversion therapy at the hands of his own father - imprisoned, tortured, beaten like a slave on a straw mat,… - it’s not suprising he is fucked up, it’s shocking he is still alive. And he still haven’t given in until the end.

Judging from the purple robe, Seungho comes to Nakyum right after confronting Mr. Kim to seek comfort from him -  from his nearness, his scent, his touch,… - it seems Nakyum truly is the balm for Seungho’s damaged soul.

Seungho has wanted desperately for a long time to have someone who would be only his - someone loyal to him, someone to love him. He chose Nakyum and that’s why he used to be so extremely jealous at IH and possessive of Nakyum. Seungho wants Nakyum and his heart to belong to him alone.

Seungho is drawn to Nakyum like a moth to the flame, like an addict trying to stay away but always caves in to steal a few moments to make him survive until he sees Nakyum again.He gives him only feather-like, impossibly gentle touches as if he were afraid he might break Nakyum otherwise or that he wouldn’t be able to leave if he took more. The man who couldn’t deny himself anything has now a control of steal. And then he just leaves, like a fleeting dream vanishing before the dawn.

Seungho gives the word ‘whipped’ a completely new meaning. If he is not with Nakyum, he’s stalking him and eavesdropping on him, curious about everything that is Nakyum and remembering everything Nakyum said. He even plans to make up for the lost time when they didn’t known each other and do with Nakyum all those things Nakyum loved to do with others. He wants to become his family, like the kisaengs used to be. The most poignant thing about it is that he is both pretty much asking Nakyum on a date and planning their future together. Seungho sees himself having a future with Nakyum.

I wonder how long they are going to sustain this pretense, this game they play, where Seungho is aware Nakyum is awake and Nakyum allows Seungho everything he wants to do, with both of them pining for more but afraid to talk about it in fear of destroying the status quo.