greetings tumblr! i haven't made an original post in (i believe) over a month, and i actually didn't plan on making an announcement about my absence at all, for no real reason honestly, i just didn't want to. however, i think i'm correct to assume there's at least a handful of people who have been my curious about my absence, or perhaps wondering why they've noticed a lack of daily littlest pet shops on their dashboard.
this post is going to be long, personal, and serious. i'm going to be talking about myself, my life at the moment, and what i'm going to be doing moving forward.
you can read everything under the cut. i'm providing trigger warnings for suicide and familial death. the first half of this post is where the warnings apply, the other half is about what i'll be doing with this blog and also relates to my internet presence in general.
the latter half of the month of september was extremely taxing on my mental health, the main reason for my mental decline is not something i'm going to touch on here, as it's too personal and there's no reason for me to air out my private business on tumblr.com of all places. all you need to know is that during late september, i was at my worst. i had been trying to push through and continue my life as normal despite the constant turmoil i was in, and i never had the motivation to do anything with myself besides taking a shower, and even then i was rather neglectful of my hygiene.
i had plenty of support from those close to me. my mom in particular did her absolute best to make sure i was comfortable and felt loved and cared for, and i did feel that way. however, at this point in my life i was a ticking time bomb and i don't think any one person would've been able to cut any cords to put a stop to the timer.
on september 26th at around 1:45pm, i made an attempt on my life. i'm not sure what it was about that day in particular, but it was then that i decided i didn't want to deal with anything anymore. fortunately for me, i was stupid enough to post what was essentially a suicide note to my main tumblr blog, which friends of mine took notice of. this, of course, worried people and one of my friends called the police to my house. long story short, i spent a day in the hospital and was sent to a psychiatric hospital the following afternoon.
i was in the psychiatric hospital for little less than a week, and if i were to detail my experience here it would make this post at least 3x longer than i intend it to be. (and i do plan on dedicating a large post to it someday) in short, it was an eye-opening experience and i left with a better view on myself as a person. i was discharged on october 3rd and i'm currently in therapy and looking for other methods to help myself.
the doctor at the psychiatric hospital diagnosed me with adjustment disorder with depressed mood, although i'm made to believe i have borderline personality disorder as i get unhealthily attached to people and my entire mood depends on how they interact with me. due to this belief, i'm hesitant to get too close to people because i don't want to risk becoming emotionally attached/dependent on one (1) sole person and my entire mental wellbeing collapsing due to something like us parting ways. so at this moment i'm not sure if i'll ever be able to pursue a romantic relationship.
for the week i've been home, i've been trying to readjust to normal life again after becoming used to the static routine present in the psychiatric hospital. i've found myself becoming easily irritated and overwhelmed by even the slightest bit of noise in my home because the hospital was always so quiet and calm. i'm unsure if this irritability will go away as i become re-accustomed to the semi-chaotic nature of my home.
on top of all of this, my grandfather passed away yesterday and, as of writing this, i'm in a state of emotional numbness and i've somewhat disassociated from the situation. as it stands currently, life doesn't feel too real and i'm uncertain of how i'm going to deal with this when my emotions finally come to the surface.
that's it for the depressing portion of this post. everything from here will be pertaining to the state of this blog, what i'm going to be doing with it, and also my presence on other social medias among other things.
for the past three or so months i haven't felt very compelled to post to this blog. when i went on hiatus a while ago, i thought time away from this blog would reignite my passion for it and i'd be able to come back and do things like i used to. and while that was the case for a while, i quickly lost interest again and sometime in mid-late july i let my queued posts do everything and i barely posted or reblogged anything aside from gofundmes.
while littlest pet shop is still one of my special interests, i'm no longer as fixated on it as i was when i first started this blog. i once debated turning this blog into a catchall for my toy interest and no longer posting daily lps, however that idea no longer appeals to me and i think i'm going to be calling it quits for this blog.
i'm not happy about this decision, but i no longer get joy from logging on and posting to this blog anymore.
i find it foolish to delete this blog and never use it again, though. i still have over eight thousand followers and i believe i should use that to share and bring awareness to donation posts. so this blog will not be going anywhere.
if you want to follow me elsewhere, my main blog is @joplinspiderz and my art blog is @mushyspiderz. i'm trying to put more focus on my presence in art spaces, as i want to get attention for my art and earn money doing things like commissions, as i'm looking for other sources of income so that i can pay for things i need and can stop feeling like a freeloader in my mother's house (that is half of a joke. but i do really want to help my mom with her bills and such as well as my personal things.)
i also have an instagram, threads, and twitter where i will be posting my art as well. the audience i want for my art is people in my age range (18 and older) as i tend to draw things and characters that are suggestive/sexual in nature. all three socials are currently bare (that will change, of course.) the handle for my instagram/threads is joplinspiderz and my twitter is mushyspiderz.
the person i have been portraying on this blog has been a somewhat sanitized version of who i actually am, as i wanted to create a safe and comfortable space for those who age regress because i noticed a good chunk of the people interacting with my posts were age regressers. i'm 18 years old and i enjoy consuming media that is sexual in nature as well as horror movies. i like to include sexual themes in my artwork and my writing as well.
you will not find anything outright pornographic on my socials, however sometime in the future when/if i'm able to, i would like to create a patreon where i post nsfw locked behind a paywall (profiting off of horny fools sounds like so much fun /silly)
i sincerely thank everyone who followed this silly little blog of mine and interacted with me. the littlest pet shop community is one of the best fandoms i've been apart of, everyone i've met and spoken to has been so kind. running this blog was also the reason i encountered two people who i consider to be some of my closest and best friends. if i didn't create this blog i'm not sure if i would've met them.
i've always felt joy when opening my inbox here and seeing messages from people who say things like littlest pet shop was a part of their childhood, and that my blog brought them back to their childhood and made them happy. i'm so very glad i was able to give people a sense of joy and nostalgia. running this blog has been a big part of me getting over being seen as "weird" or "cringe" by societal standards. i embrace being seen as "cringe" and i have my rare lps on full display in my bedroom.
again, i thank everyone who followed me here, and if you wish to support me you can follow any of my social medias where i will be posting my artwork. i will be logging on here every so often to boost palestinian gofundmes and donation posts, and i encourage everyone who comes across those to share as well.
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Trump wants to displace us from Gazaุุุ he pretends to want peace here, but he is evil himselfุุุPlease, my dears, I want you to stand by us when we were being annihilated, just as you stood by us when we were being annihilated.
Where are you, people of conscience? We do not want to live the suffering of displacement and migration again. Please share the post as widely as possible.
Hello, my name is Rola, and I am a mother of two children living in the Gaza Strip. Our lives were once filled with love, laughter, and dreams for the future. But everything changed on October 7th, when the war shattered not only our home but our entire world.
That morning, my family and I were enjoying coffee together on the balcony. Out of nowhere, an explosion erupted, shaking our home violently. My husband and son ran for cover, falling over each other in panic, while I stood frozen, still holding my cup, unable to process the chaos around me. When I looked out the window, I saw that our neighborโs house, once filled with life, had been reduced to rubble. Ambulances rushed to the scene as people scrambled to rescue the injured and pull bodies from the debris.
The bombings didnโt stop. At night, the rain poured heavily, and the cold seeped into our bones. I stayed awake, covering my children to keep them warm and praying for their safety. But safety is an illusion here. Another explosion shattered the night, and our neighborsโ home was destroyed. Their children, who had been sleeping peacefully under a blanket, were found lifeless, their cover soaked in blood.
I looked at my children with tears in my eyes and thought, How can I protect you? We had to flee our home with nothing but the clothes on our backs. We left behind my childrenโs toys, their clothes, and their beautiful bedroom. Everything we had worked so hard to build is gone.
Our Current Reality Now, we are displaced and living in a nightmare. Food is scarce, and prices are unimaginably highโ$10 for a kilo of sugar! The fear of death hangs over us constantly. My children deserve a life of joy and hope, not one defined by fear and loss. Why canโt we live like everyone elseโgo to work, visit family, and watch our children play in safety? Why do our children have to grow up surrounded by death and destruction?
How You Can Help I am pleading for your kindness to help us rebuild our lives. We need your support to: ๐ Rebuild our home, so my children can feel safe again. ๐ Evacuate from Gaza, seeking a future where my family can live with dignity. ๐ฉบ Provide urgent medical care for my children, who need protection from this nightmare.
Even the smallest donation can make a difference. If you canโt donate, please share my story. Every share brings us closer to hope.
What Your Support Means Your kindness is not just about helping us survive; itโs about giving us a chance to dream again. To rebuild what weโve lost and to ensure my children have a future filled with possibilities, not fear.
Thank you for taking the time to read my story. Your support means the world to us. Letโs work together to rebuild hope, one step at a time.
๐ธ Please share our story and consider donating today. ๐ธ
Hi I am Fatima and live in London UK. I have known Rola now for apprโฆ Fatima Rajwani needs your support for From Despair to Hope: Help us to
Together, we can create a better tomorrow. ๐โค๏ธ
Go to paypal.me/mohiyalresh and type in the amount. Since itโs PayPal, it's easy and secure. Donโt have a PayPal account? No worries.
Account: @mohiygaza21
Vetted by 90-Ghost and by association
After experiencing complications with gofundme, Mohiy and his family are now relying on paypal to receive donations. Please support his family through the link above and share.
Most of the funds Mohiy was able to raise on gofundme have gone towards his family's survival. With the rising costs of goods, they need continued support to be able to meet their most basic needs. Resources are scarce and expensive as it is, but winter has added to the suffering of everyone in Gaza, making the needs for things like warm food, warm clothes, and shelter even greater as cold and rain worsen already dangerous living conditions. Mohiy's mother, who suffers from chronic illness, is especially vulnerable right now due to the freezing temperatures.
Please donate and share to help offer Mohiy and his family some relief. Every contribution helps, no matter how small.
Vetted: Gazavetters #59, @/90-ghost | Gfm: Credit/debit | Paypal: my Kofi (include Rana's username in the Kofi message. I'll donate all that Paypal doesn't take to this campaign and post proof of donation within 3 days under my 'receipts' tag)
Urgent: @ameertaim94 (Rana) needs 49,762 SEK in her campaign to replace her tent's fabric with something waterproof. After that, she needs to buy supplies and treatment for her son Tim, who was infected by a deadly virus.
Slightly more details (and math):
Dec 13: Conditions are worsening and Rana cannot afford food for her children. She's been fundraising for a year and is very tired. While she's currently focusing on the tent, She wants to emphasize that her son is still ill with a deadly virus and requires funds. Rana also suffered a fracture on her foot when her house was bombed and her health has been deteriorating since due to a lack of treatment. She can't work due to this injury, and needs to travel to undergo surgery so she can walk.
Fees: Rana loses 33% of donations to extra fees (I'm including GFM fees in this).
Needs and base fees:
Waterproof tent fabric - Base $1,000 USD โ $1,500 after fees โ 16,091 SEK โ 49,762 SEK in campaign
Treatment of Tim's illness, supplies, and buying vegetables - 10,725 SEK ($1000 USD). Not calculated yet.
Surgery for Rana's foot fracture, requires evacuation
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๐โจHelp a young girl get treatment on her birthday!!!
Nour is turning 15 tomorrow!!
Unfortunately, she will not be having a proper celebration. Nour has a congenital heart condition which also stunts her growth, and this requires monthly treatments to manage. Her mother Ibtisam and brother Omar were able to pay for it before.
But then the IOF attacked. Their home was destroyed, and they were displaced. Her brother Omar was martyred by the occupation, and the family was left completely without a source of income. They have barely been able to survive, and it has become extremely difficult to afford Nourโs medication.
Now, Nour lives with her family in a tent. They are frequently displaced by IOF ground attacks, and are also exposed to raw winter weather, including low temperatures and heavy rain.
Nour is immunocompromised due to her condition, and the exposure to harsh weather and to pollutants caused by the IOFโs destruction of sanitation infrastructure means she is frequently sick. She is sick right now, and extremely fatigued.
Earlier this month, we made a post asking for your support in attaining Nourโs treatment. Unfortunately, the funds that were raised had to be diverted after the familyโs tent was damaged. The tent is repaired, but Nour is without funds for her treatment again. Without this treatment, she will face a cascade of serious health problems that will make her even more vulnerable to sickness!
Please help give Nour a little hope on her birthday! She canโt have a party like she used to, but it would make the day brighter for her if she knew her monthly treatment was taken care of. She needs this treatment to grow healthily, and without it, she will face serious health problems throughout her life.
Please share this post, follow Nourโs sister Noha @nohaibrahims-blog, and make your own posts on Tumblr and across all your social media accounts with this link: https://gofund.me/ab691b04
Give Nour the gift of better health for her birthdayโค๏ธโ๐ฉน
Thank you
Hello, I am Ibtisam Al-Habil.
My suffering began in 2014 when my husband was martyred, and I was โฆ Yaser Matar needs your support for Help
Thanks to your support, Nour was able to attain her medicine yesterdayโค๏ธThank you so much
Unfortunately, it came too late. Nourโs health took a dramatic downturn today, and she had to go to the hospital. There, the doctor said that because she had gone so long between monthly treatments, several of Nourโs heart valves have closed up. She now requires an operation to save her heart.
Nour is feeling very weak and sick, but more than anything, she is heartbroken. She asked her sister Noha @nohaibrahims-blog โWhy don't people love me? Why do they want me to die? I am a child and I want to live a happy life like other people!โ She feels hopeless, like her life doesnโt matter to anyone.
I know this family personally, and they are wonderful people. Nourโs older sister Noha is a dear friend of mine. They have been through so much, having lost their father to IOF attack in 2014, their home to the IOF in 2023, and their brother Omar. I can verify the truth of their situation, and that the whole family is feeling very, very depressed right now.
Please help her family pay for the operation she needs in order to save her life. Additionally, your support will give Nour hope and show her that her life does matter to the world.
Payment methods: Paypal for Noor (proof of legitimacy)
Summary: Noureddine's family relied on their gfm campaign to fulfill basic living needs, but all donations from Nov 4-15 (some on Nov 3) were not received and the campaign closed on Nov 15. If you believe you're eligible for a refund and didn't get one, please contact gfm. Noor now receives funds through a Paypal account (linked above).
Campaign details, updates:
Nov 26: Noor gets only 1-2 donations to his Paypal daily. I'm adopting this campaign starting Nov 28-29 for an unknown amount of time. It will be difficult to track progress as it's not observable on Paypal and Noor cannot be online to update me constantly, but I will try.
Nov 15: Noor's gfm campaign was closed on Nov 15. He and his campaign manager spoke of the situation here, which links to a Paypal that he now relies on.
The old fundraiser link no longer works. The last transfer was sometime on Nov 3, and to my knowledge all donations from Nov 4-15 (some from Nov 3) didn't make it to Noor and were automatically refunded. If you believe you were eligible for a refund and didn't get one, please contact gofundme.
Campaign details:
Noureddine's previous account was completely deleted along with all reblogs including vetting, resulting in the campaign stagnating.
He relies on donations as he has no income with which to care for his wife and 2 children, one of whom is a newborn.
The family moved from the hospital to their tent immediately after their second child was born in March.
They were relocated 7 times.
The tent is already inadequate shelter as there are harmful insects.
I've seen many Gazans worry about winter making tent living conditions unbearable.
Food, clean water, and medicine are scarce. The family live under constant and extreme psychological stress.
the al manasra family are vetted by el-shab-hussein and nablusi at #192 here. as of 11/26/24, they are about $20,000 short of necessary travel funds. this is their only opportunity to escape.
Hi, I'm a grad student in NYC who has been active in Palestine solidarity for a whโฆ S G needs your support for Help Mohammed's Family Escape
I've made many posts on Lina's (@linooomo, previously linasaif) behalf by this point. The above video is of her son, Saif, being terrified of the sound of constant bombing. This was back when they still had a roof over their heads--now Lina, her husband, Saif, and Saif's even younger sister Sidra are living out of a tent, more vulnerable than ever.
Unfortunately, her campaign has grown completely stagnant. Last week, we didn't even meet half of the minimum goal.
However, I'm not giving up on trying to help her, and neither should you.
Lina needs to buy food and water, as well as milk and diapers for Sidra. She is only 10 months old! As seen in the linked posts, she's suffering from serious diaper rash that has only just begun to heal.
If you were a mother, how would you choose between feeding your family and getting milk and diapers for your baby who's in pain?
Lina has told me that PayPal is faster and imposes less of a fee than GFM, so a friend helped me set up a PayPal campaign. You can donate to this even without a PayPal account. The goal is roughly set to cover the family's needs for the next two weeks.
๐ A 25kg bag of flour: 80 euros
๐ฃ Diapers: 60 euros
๐ผ 3 cartons of milk: 60 euros
๐ Vegetables when available, and other supplies: 100 euros
๐ง Water (for drinking, cleaning, and hygiene): 80 euros
๐ธ Withdrawal fee: 30%
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This is a collection of links to various posts concerning fundraisers I've vetted and instructions on how to submit fundraisers to me. These are primarily ones for Ghazzan families although some fundraisers for Sudanese families are also listed (I'm more familiar with my own country's politics and dialect and am more capable of vetting fundraisers for Palestinians as a result).
I know that people do not like clicking on links, but please actually look through the posts / Google Sheet and choose a fundraiser to donate to. Please.
Instructions on how to submit a fundraiser. (for those not Ghazzan) Paused
ุชุนููู ุงุช ูุชูุฏูู ุทูุจ ุชูุซูู ู ูุดุฑ ุญู ูุงุช ุงูุชุจุฑุนุงุช ุงูุฎุงุตุฉ ุจุงูุบุฒุงูููู ู ุนุงุฆูุงุชูู (ููุบุฒุงูููู ููุท) ู ุณูุฑ!
Google doc list compiling vetted fundraisers.
List of fundraisers for my direct contacts from Ghazzah & Sudan. - PRIORITY.
Unvetted but highly likely legitimate fundraisers.
Additional fundraisers for various purposes - (TO BE UPDATED)
On "gazavetters" (not associated) 28/10/2024, !Update posted!
About the targeted harassment campaign against Palestinians on tumblr, from August 2nd to August 3rd 2024. Now extended to August 7th because of writing-prompt-s' and badjokesbyjeff's accusations and slander.
Trapped Family in Gaza Appeals for Help to Survive ๐
A Plea for Help from Gaza: A Family Seeking Safety
Hello, I am Eman Al-Madhoun, a mother of two children, Walid & Layan. We need urgent assistance.
We live in the midst of the ongoing hellish war in Gaza, trapped between walls of fear and despair.
Please help the AlMadhoun family evacuate their children from Gaโฆ Claire Griffin needs your support for Urgent Fundraiser to Evacuate Laylan
We struggle daily to survive in an environment filled with threats and dangers.
We lost our home and became homeless, and now we live in a small tent, suffering from insects and extreme cold.
We urgently appeal for your moral and financial assistance to cover the necessary costs for escaping to a safe environment, where we can build a better future for our children and ensure our family's safety.๐
We are in desperate need of your support. Any donation, no matter how small, can help save our lives. Thank you for your attention and support during these harsh times.
GoFundMe Campaign Link ๐ค
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"Please reblog or donate as much as you can."
Verified by :
@el-shab-hussein
@nabulsi
@a-shade-of-blue
My campaign was verified by verifying the link to my brother's account( @karamalmadhoun1 )
For the first time, winter has become a heavy nightmare instead of a season of rest and tranquility. In these fragile tents that barely withstand the wind, the cold and rain have come to expose their weakness and deepen our suffering.
Last night, we were completely flooded. The ground beneath us turned into a pool, and the rain pierced through the tent, relentlessly falling on our heads. The children shivered from the cold, their small hands desperately seeking warmth amidst soaked blankets. I tried my best to wrap them in my arms, to create a sense of safety in the midst of this fear, but everything around us kept getting worse.
As if wars and destruction werenโt enough, winter has come to complete the harshness of our conditions. The rain seeps through mercilessly, and the cold paralyzes us. Yet, we will endure. We have no choice but to endure, but the situation worsens day by day, and we donโt know what tomorrow will bring under these cruel circumstances.๏ฟผ
$6,838 USD / $10,000 USD
Only 162$ left to reach 7,000$
Hi, my name is Camille Testa from Saint Paul and I'm fundraising tโฆ Camille Testa needs your support for Emergency Evacuation Needed to Save
The last donation has been made a DAY AGO! Please keep donating and sharing! There is $561 left to reach the 7.5K mark! At the same time, Samah is caring for two young children, including a baby who is only 6 months old! She needs to purchase baby formula, diapers, clothing, and supplies!
Vetted: Gazavetters #59, @/90-ghost | Gfm: Credit/debit | Paypal: my Kofi (include Rana's username in the Kofi message. I'll donate all that Kofi doesn't take to this campaign and post proof of donation within 3 days under my 'receipts' tag)
Urgent: @ameertaims (Rana) needs 49,762 SEK in her campaign to replace her tent's fabric with something waterproof. After that, she needs to buy supplies and treatment for her son Tim, who was infected by a deadly virus.
Slightly more details (and math):
Needs and base fees:
Waterproof tent fabric - 10,725 SEK ($1,000 USD)
Treatment of Tim's illness, supplies, and buying vegetables - 10,725 SEK ($1000 USD). Not calculated yet.
Math:
Rana loses 33% of donations to extra fees (I'm including GFM fees in this).
Waterproof tent fabric: base $1,000 USD
She will need $1,500 USD in donations to get this amount. This is 16,091 SEK, which would require 49,762 SEK in her campaign.
You can donate to Rana using Paypal to my Kofi, just include the username @/ameertaims in the Kofi message. I'll donate all that Paypal doesn't take to this campaign and post proof of donation within 1 day (not 3!) in my 'receipts' tag. I've donated a few hundred dollars on behalf of others to gfms this way.
Random tags | I'd appreciate a share/donate | msg me here or dlxxv-vetted-donations2 if this blog's msgs are closed for removal from taglist
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More than 200,000 people are trapped in the northern Gaza Strip and are facing a real famine and mass extermination. Also, more than a million and a half people are facing the same famine in the southern Gaza Strip.Speak up for them, your voice can make a difference in this unjust world.
Also save my families within these families
Save my families who are suffering from famine here ๐๐
Southern Gaza is now suffering from a famine that has never happened before anywhere in the world. My family lives there in Deir al-Balah and it is difficult to get a loaf of bread or any kind of food. We are going through a very good situation.
They killed my uncle and my cousin now please help me save the rest of my family please donate even a small amount please save me I am crying now Please for those who see Share and write two words to help please any words to help me contribute even one euro
the blog @wolf-aid is ran by Ibrahim, the fifteen year old boy from this fundraiser. When I spoke to him yesterday he had just received news of two of his relatives being martyred by an israeli attack. Most of us will never understand the level of fear and pain he is experiencing right now, having to grieve while fearing for your own life too every day. He is only fifteen years old and has so much life left to live, please give him a chance at safety. Ibrahim is not asking for much, he just wants to live. Any donation will help.
Again, Ibrahim, Iโm so sorry for your loss โค๏ธ
If you have any kind words for Ibrahim, please comment them
I thank everyone who donated and supported us from the bottom of my heart. The number of donors reached 944 people, and every donation means a lot to us and gives us the strength to continue in these difficult circumstances. Thank you to everyone who extended a helping hand, you are our hope after God.I really don't know how to get people to donate or come up with new ideas for fundraising, to the point that I asked for help from people I love very much and consider them dear friends on Tumblr. Each one of them knows themselves very well. Please don't let anything separate us, you are more than just friends, you are part of my family.
