GASMASKS AND BDSM

Nichole Cpr at Girlfriend's Home

Her panties were removed but...🥵

LATELY // the last six weeks have been rough as I was dealing with a lot of bladder issues due to medications causing on and off retention. I spent two separate weeks with a Foley catheter while switching meds and trying to get it under control. Thankfully the bladder retention has resolved, but I’ve been dealing with more TMJ pain, headaches, and CCI symptoms.

I think a lot of it is because weather changes, but I’ve also gone on a few work trips and the travel has been hard. I’ve been relying a lot more on pain meds so I’m happy my travel is done for a month or so, which means I’ll have more time at home and can let myself rest more and have a better treatment routine. Also looking forward to getting some test results back from my sleep study and an upright MRI to see what further prognosis will be.

I’ve also been reflecting on how much has changed in my life since my CCI diagnosis in August, and what I’ve had to come to terms with. I’ve had to majorly reconcile the part of me that used to fantasize (& fetishize) needing medical care like this. Since it’s no longer pretend I’ve come to appreciate it all in a different light. I’m very thankful that I’ve found a community to share in, and that there are so many resources for people who face chronic conditions & illnesses. Having that has made accepting this new part of my life easier, but a bigger perspective has been realizing that it’s been an easier transition (in some ways) because I was already used to seeing myself as disabled. That’s something I’ve been addressing in my last few therapy sessions, especially as I’m probably facing more diagnosis’s as I have more tests and continue treatment.

A couple of extra pics, including one for those with a thing for masks.... 😊

It’s been a whirlwind the last few weeks and I’m thankful to have a couple days to really rest. My chronic conditions have had ups and downs, but by staying consistent with my daily treatments I’ve seen some symptom improvement and pain relief. The worst thing lately has been my TMJ issues, so I have a referral to a get a nightguard/splint to correctly position my jaw while wearing my neck braces & CTO, and then have my jaw/teeth examined for further treatment.