I thought i’d never come back here but i just wanted to share that i’ve been in recovery for around 8 months now and i’ve never been happier or more confident. im at the highest weight i’ve ever been and i’ve never felt better about my body. recovery is really fucking hard but im grateful every day that i pushed myself to try.
im sorry for any harm i caused through this page while i was sick. for my whole life i thought i’d be happiest at my lowest weight. and sometimes i even convinced myself i was happier. but now that im gone and not deep in my illness, i can see how truly sad that life was. and i wish recovery on each and every one of you.
if you’re looking for a sign, here it is. this also goes for those who are overweight or are at a “healthy” weight. you need to recover too. not only is anorexia/bulimia deadly at any weight, but you don’t deserve to be tortured for your body. and i promise recovery will make you feel better than your eating disorder ever will. your eating disorder is lying to you.
i really hope this reaches people. there’s not a lot of folks on ed tumblr who share recovery stories, because nobody wants to come back here. please reblog if you can ❤️
posting this here too. im truly sorry for any damage i caused for anyone. i was never pro ana and i feel like i pushed for harm reduction and recovery when possible. but at the end of the day i still added to peoples illness.
i really hope you all can read this and listen to it. if you’re not there yet, you don’t have to recover tomorrow but please keep it in your mind. and if you’re considering getting help please do. it’s so worth it once you get past the hard part i swear. and im happy to answer any recovery related questions















