I'm Just A Lesbian In Lov3 With Jesus 🙏🏻

i hope lesbians think i’m hot and want to kiss me

I love that the Christian tumblr sphere has a significant population of side B lgbt people. It's so binding when irl you deal with the lgbt community telling you that you have internalized homophobia. And on the other hand you have hypervigilant church militants that declare you defective. Meanwhile on here people actually, ya know, get the picture

This wait is longer than expected that's for sure

the moon is out, and it’s full, and suddenly i am six in the back of my parents car watching it follow us. and i am scrambling for that childhood innocence, for the same mind that saw the light in the sky and decided it was following after me so my parents could see where they were going. i wonder, how could i have been so cruel to that child? the same child who grew up sun kissed and wonder filled and devastated that bees were killed by their own protection. i wonder, how could i have patched up my own scraped knees, shown myself physical love, but denied myself emotional? i am nine and i am singing as i ride my bike because i think the wind drowns my voice out. and years later, i look back and think of how silly that sounds. i wonder, why was i so harsh? why should i throw darkness to put out the flame of my “silly” childhood beliefs? how was i to know better? i wonder, how can i live with the same wonder and curiosity as that child? i wonder, how would things have gone if i had shown myself the love i needed?

loudly going "YOU'RE GOOD YOU'RE GOOD" to myself to ward off the memory of every embarrassing thing i've ever done