.Hope Always.

I got a phone call at 1230 this morning, I did see it until 3 when I looked at my phone. Was my best friend she was in an emergency room, I freaked out and called the hospital back. I finally got to her room and she said I had a psychotic break down. She sounded very drunk, when I asked what happened she said i took 4 shots, and doesn't remember much. she remembers being at her friends parents house and they called for help which resulted in her strapped down in a ambulance truck. (mind you she is getting help currently at a facility for mental illness.) She kept saying i have cuts and bruises all over me, no one will come get me. kept saying it over and over again. I kept reminder her that someone will be on there way to get you just relax. She then went into a spiral of I'm an idiot, I'm stupid i was doing good about to leave and be on my own again and i go and screw up. It 's who I am its defines me. I said no its not, if you let it define. you then it will! I love this girl to death regard if she is "cray cray". Mental illness is one of the major leading causes of death in the US. I take pride in calling her my love, my best friend, and my other half. She has the potential to be amazing at what she does, which is music, she just has to learn to adapt with what she has ( which is doable) and became an amazing musician. I just wish there was more people i can talk to

about this than my therapist!  anyway I just would like people to know that people don't shut people out because they are different from you, Yes we both are lesbians, yes we both what to be happy. Everyone deserves happiness, and unconditionally support from others. If you have someone that you would do anything for repost this or tell them. I hope that she will be okay and that I will talk to her in the next few days but as of now I have no contact with her and I'm over 550 miles from this amazing lady!

this picture is from july 2014 on our hike when i visited her