that's so skinny

you start cutting down the calories. 1,200. you start to exercise every monday. you quit chocolate. 1,000. you lose two pounds a week. no more carbs, bread is banned. no more eating at school. 800. you notice a change in your face. people start complimenting you. you’re confused. everyone always thought you were ugly, why pretty now? skinny=pretty? alright, 600. caffeine in coffee acts as a laxative? give me three coffees a day. exercise everyday from 3am-6am before school. no more proper meals. 400. hUNGRY? HAD A MEAL? PURGE. PURGE. PURGE. CHANGE IN BODY. THIGH GAP. COMPLIMENTS. COMPLIMENTS. COMPLIMENTS. THEY FEED YOUR DISORDER WHILE YOU *STARVE*. COLD, FREEZING. WHERE ARE ALL MY FRIENDS???? NO PERIODS ANYMORE. WILL I EVER HAVE KIDS???? CHEST PAINS. RIB PAIN. HEADACHES. ACID REFLUX FROM PURGING. BAD BREATH. BLURRY VISION. COMPLIMENTS, LOVE. PEOPLE LOVE ME BECAUSE IM SKINNYSKINNYSKINNIIII. NEED TO BE PERFECT. 200. NO THX, I DONT NEED FOOD. COFFEE. COFFEE. HEART PALPITATIONS. TEA. TEA. TEA. WHEN WAS THE LAST TIME I SHIT???? STARVE. STARVE. STARVE. SCALES. NUMBERS. COMPLIMENTS. HUNGER PAINS. TEARS. BUT I WILL BE SKINNY. SKINNY. SKINNY. SKINNY *whispers on hospital bed* skinny. skinny. skinny. skinny. skinny. skinny. *beep*

A lil update cause I'm back on my bullshit haaa

imagine ! being ! fucking ! healthy ! and ! happy !

me: as soon as u what

the ed community making their one meal a day

3. WHY DO I RELATE