Love, Rozie

First of all, I’ve done something like this back in 2016. I guess doing so made me appreciate all the little things around me. And I guess this is what I need to do again to achieve my goals in 2021.After reading my posts/drafts way back in 2012, I've realised that I need to write more what I think about because it shows me how much I've grown and how much I've stayed the same. So here I am, attempting to write better ones. Let me explain why I'm grateful today.

Today I was a bit anxious due to my zoom meeting for my pre-employment medical exam. I wasn’t really looking forward to the anxiety of going through the process of applying in a new job & the anxiety of calling someone but it was done and dusted. Zuko even butted in when I was doing the exercises but luckily the physio was kind enough and even said that he’s a good looking dog. LOL.

A little bit before this, I heard the neighbour yelling for help. I went outside and was overhearing that he was already on the phone with the paramedics. I’ve been hearing the sirens of the ambulance but they were nowhere in sight. I had the courage to ask by their gate if they needed any help and a tall bloke came out and asked the number of the house (he’s just a mate who came over). I went to their backshed where they were and assessed his mate, my neighbour. He apparently had a seizure for 10-15 minutes as per the tall bloke. Since there is no good reception at the back, the tall bloke asked me to talk to the paramedics instead. The ambulance were at the end of the road, I had to waved so that they could see where the patient is. After seeing the paramedics attending the patient, I thought I needed to go as I'm not needed anymore (and ALSO, I have the medical exam thru zoom that time). I think this is an important event for me as I’d like to help others/strangers but I don’t have to courage to actually do it. Man, it feels good.

The reason why I’m thankful for opening a new bank account is that it’s the start of our (me & jowa) savings, that will lead for me to achieve my goal (which is to obtain my/our first house). Baby steps. After this, I went ahead to F45 where I was able to finish tokyo disco (it’s a kind of resistance workout). I’m telling you all, towards the end I was almost blacking out. Heck I only did the lightest weights but I almost gave up. I’m thankful because I want to get fitter next year and HOPEFULLY, I'd be able to commit on this. 

I guess I’m also thankful that we’ve done the grocery today because planning & everything else drains me too. Luckily Joel was with me (it’s his turn) and I asked him to cook steak.

Okay, this would sound so shallow but I’m very grateful that I was able to finally wash that couch cover. It’s been sitting in the ensuite for a long time! Little steps for my goal to be tidier. (P.S. It’s hard to do when you live with a messy PERSON)

I’m also thankful that Zuko was able to recall ‘bang’ as he hasn’t been doing it or a long time, I thought he’d forgotten about it. But this time I changed my body language. After a while he was able to pick it up! What a good boy 🥺 

Lastly, I had a good play in Valorant. I even used voice chat which 2012-2019 Sundy would never do! Heck I’d be too scared to play at all. Luckily the other players were nice! Only 1 more win and I can play competitive. I really enjoyed it, win or lose. 😄 

TODAY I HAVE A LOT TO BE THANKFUL FOR 😄

First of all, I’ve done something like this back in 2016. I guess doing so made me appreciate all the little things around me. And I guess this is what I need to do again to achieve my goals in 2021.

After reading my posts/drafts way back in 2012, I’ve realised that I need to write more what I think about because it shows me how much I’ve grown and how much I’ve stayed the same. So here I am, attempting to write better ones.

Let me explain why I’m grateful today.

Today I was a bit anxious due to my zoom meeting for my pre-employment medical exam. I wasn’t really looking forward to the anxiety of going through the process of applying in a new job & the anxiety of calling someone but it was done and dusted. Zuko even butted in when I was doing the exercises but luckily the Physio was kind enough and even liked Zuko.

A little bit before this, I heard the neighbour yelling help. I went outside and was overhearing that he was already on the phone with the paramedics. I’ve been hearing the sirens of the ambulance but they were nowhere in sight. I had the courage to ask by their gate if they needed any help and a tall bloke came out and asked the number of the house (he’s just a mate who came over). I went to their backshed where they were and assessed his mate, my neighbour. He apparently had seizure for 10-15 minutes as per the tall bloke. Since there is no good reception at the back, the tall bloke asked me to talk to the paramedics instead. The ambulance were at the end of the road, I had to waved so that they could see where the patient is. After seeing the paramedics attending the patient, I thought I needed to go as I’m not needed anymore (and also I have the medical exam thru zoom that time). I think this is an important event for me as I’d like to help others/strangers but I don’t have to courage to actually do it. Man, it feels good.

The reason why I’m thankful for opening a new bank account is that it’s the start of our (me & jowa) savings, that will lead for me to achieve my goal (which is to obtain my/our first house). Baby steps.

After this, I went ahead to F45 where I was able to finish Tokyo Disco (it’s a kind of resistance workout). I’m telling you all, towards the end I was almost blacking out. Heck I only did the lightest weights but I almost gave up. I’m thankful because I want to get fitter next year and hopefully I’d be able to commit on this.

I guess I’m also thankful that we’ve done the grocery today because planning & everything else drains me too. Luckily Joel was with me (it’s his turn) and I asked him to cook steak.

OKAY, THIS WOULD SOUND SO SHALLOW BUT I’M VERY GRATEFUL THAT I WAS ABLE TO FINALLY WASH THAT COUCH COVER. It’s been sitting in the ensuite for a long time! Little steps for my goal to be tidier. (p.s. it’s hard to do when you live with a messy person)

I’m also thankful that Zuko was able to recall ‘bang’ as he hasn’t been doing it for a long time I thought he’d forgotten about it. But this time I changed my body language. After a while he was able to pick it up! What a good boy 🥺

Lastly, I had a good play in Valorant. I even used voice chat which 2012-2019 Sundy would never do! Heck I’d be too scared to play at all. Luckily the other players were nice! Only 1 more win and I can play competitive. I really enjoyed it, win or lose. 😄

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This is the first time I cried over the depthless minds of Filipinos. I don't know why I did (since I know my emotions are asleep) but my disappointment is overwhelming.

Now that Duterte has already declared that he's not going to run for presidency in the Philippines, I see no more hope for our Homeland. But then this good news popped up saying Sen. Miriam Santiago will join the presidential race.. I SEE THE LIGHT ONCE AGAIN; Philippines can be saved from these Jokes (other candidates). I saw a post from the page Teenage Pinoy Crap. I suggested to talk to other people like him to initiate the campaign in Twittersphere by setting an official hashtag then he responded that he and the other one will do their best. I wanted to help, of course, so as one of the admins in our massive fandom, I asked my other co-admins in our group chat for help and got answers that obviously weren't in my favour. At first no one was talking to me so I said “HAYS. HOPELESS. Ge.” And then poof! Someone replied saying that she doesn't have the interest to talk about politics and she told me that she got offended when I said those 3 words. I MEAN WHAT THE HELL IS WRONG WITH YOU ALL. YOU CAN STRIVED FOR 30 MILLION TWEETS FOR TWO PEOPLE BUT CAN’T DO THE SAME THING FOR THE SAKE OF OUR COUNTRY! Of course I put this this in the most subtlest and nicest way and to end it all, she disclosed it saying that we can move on and talk about ALDUB RELATED TOPIC. I was at the verge of saying  “Fuck you.” but I know I’d bark in the wrong neighbourhood.

(I’m not really good in English though I used to think that I was. Well, not until I came here where I was given a lot of essay homeworks. That was when I realized that my English skills are below average. LOLL.)

So here’s the story.. When I was in gradeschool till middle year in high school, I thought the preposition ‘to’ instead of 'with’ is much more appropriate in writing/saying the most common phrase when you’re confessing your feelings to someone: “I’m inlove with you.”

When I found out that I’m using the wrong preposition the whole time I was like, “Wth? How can you use 'with’ if your love is one sided only? You should only use that ['with'] when the feelings are mutual.” Then I thought it thoroughly.. Nah. Not really. I didn’t do some research though I asked an ex-friend on Facebook (because later on he blocked me ;___; lol) why it can’t be like that or if he has an explanation for this one. Well unfortunately his prof has discussed this to them but he already forgot. I didn't bothered anymore because I know that I’m just gonna be like, “Ohhh, okay, so that’s how. Wow.”

So now that I’ve read this note from December 27th last year (2014) once again, it put me again in between of curiosity and laziness. If you know relevant information about this can you shed some light, please?